*Disowned Name

Carmela POV "It is very upsetting when my mother Rosinda got to have new boyfriend behind my father.., since they are not meeting up after she was pregnant with.." I am always tired in doing household task..my mother came from a poor family. My stepfather always give me hard time and hard task...everyday I've always scolded in little things and last priority in school.. that makes me always late in school..I am not able to go to school at early age.. I am sorry when we are like this so poor..my mother said,. I don't understand why my life have been this way!.. I've seen the good future with your father but he doesn't like me at all when he's flirting with another woman when you are in my womb... So i want you to be with me and don't mind your father, if you want me to support you. I need you the most to do the household task and babysit your younger brother and sister understood?..yes mother, as i answer what she said to me. My mind so full of interest and being curious what is the face and all my father's aspect, even my mother restrict me to find my father but deep inside i want to be with my fathers side. I will do my best to protect myself from any harm that caused me another heartaches. I am not the favourite of my mother's siblings...But I need to be a model to my stepbrothers and sisters with my stepfathers side..I am almost done with my task and I am so hungry.. why there nobody is calling for lunch?. I am able to finish all washing the clothes and I am so tired since only the one doing it eversince... I need to go home.. for a lunch, then I will go back here in the river,I am alone in the river washing the clothes, I will bring home the clothes already finish for them to dry under the heat of the sun... So hot right now since it is 12:00 o'clock noon. In the way going home, I have meet my classmates from school going home for lunch... Hey..Carmella why are you not in school? you are supposed to be in school..I am sorry Rowan, I have so much household to do, my mother will be angry at me when I am not doing my task and achieving all the task...oh I am gonna go home now...I need to take lunch..so that i can return in exact time..thanks for the concern Rowan ,i will do my best going to school tomorrow, i hope my mother will give me the opportunity this time...just extend me excuses to our teacher Rowan..i hope i can come to school tomorrow.. I am ten years old now but I am still grade two in school...since i am the eldest i must sacrifice myself for my little siblings..since we are three siblings now, i have two siblings next to me is my stepbrother and stepsister.. I am at the deep of my daydreaming when very strong rain almost felt me so ruined when some of our clothes are sliding down with the strong pressures water in the river..I must go at the top side of the river for me to be safe....oh, I am glad my bestfriend Roan going on my side to help me in bringing home all the clothes..I won't tell my mother that other clothes were in the other way of the river because of so much pressure due to heavy rain and flood.Thank God I was not flashed by the pressure of the water. I am so wet walking for home while bringing the clothes I have washed and put it over my head.I am very tired for todays chores, when can i have a long time for me to rest, i have to be careful always for my stepfather will scold me if i did not do the chores in the house.I hope there is already food for dinner cuz i am so hungry, i need to eat food.I am just eating snacks on lunch time.I need a heavy meal.I am so so tired.I am longing for my biological father to care for me...I wish i could, so much of thinking of my father, I never heard my friend Roan...hey Carmela, hows your doing? may I help you bringing your clothes..no way Roan, it is so heavy for you to bring.. My friend Roan is tall but thin, I just smile at her when she offered her help to bring the clothes...just go ahead Roan, if you want to go with me in our home...I will follow you. You know Carms' just asking,? you are opposite skin tone with you mother..your mother is brown but you are like sa foreigner you know white skin.I am so proud to ve your friend because you are so talented, beautiful and so kind...How to be yoouu! oh my God..there a boys in our place who are so much adoration of your beauty...I don't kniw Roan, if I am given a chance to be with my father..I want to be with him...I have so many challenges now yet I have no opportunity to go to school because my mother and my family is poor.I can't imagine what my future comes!..I am so ruined the fact that i am trap to this situation.I am sa hopeless! many nights I have been crying longing for my biological father. Oh, Carmela don't say that, you might have a brighter future..You can't say that, only God can make your dreams come true just believe in him...! Oh Carmela, we are here in your house.I will just stay here and wait, we will play.I don't know Roan if my mother will give me permission to play..I will ask you mother Rosinda, you may change your clothes and eat first.Maybe your mother permits us to play, you are so tired of washing clothes, it is time for you to play in a moment before sun sets.okay I will try Roan, just standby here and I will return here. okay Roan replied. Roan is considered as my bestfriend, she is always by my side just to comfort and cheer me up while I am sad.I am so thankful to have him as my friend. Oh, Carmela you are already here! you are so wet! my mother says to me ,change your clothes so that you can help me preparing our dinner.. Mom, I am so tired and hungry.you are all here in the house then nobody's preparing food for the dinner?how? what can i do now I am so hungry mom..!ever since I was a little, i never feel your symphaty on me, you are just caring your own son and daughter of your beloved husband, you never ask and care for me.I want also to play.I am not matured enough to do all this things mom...I want also going to school but i never heard you cheer me up to go to school,,, you are always focused on them...Mom, why it looks like this way that you never care of me? why you are not telling me the truth about my father, is he right now alive.I want to know him badly mam.I am ten years old but I never with him nor I never seen his face even in a picture..?how is he? I have no future in this family..I uttered it unknowingly that my stepfather heard it, what is that Carmela are aguing with your mother? why are you just thankful that I have accepted you as my stepdaughter? you ungrateful stepdaughter!! then my stepfather slap me on my face!!.my siblings witnessed it..and i am so full of anger inside.I want to go out. Rosinda POV I am so much hurt seeing my daughter like this, but i can't protect her she was so harsh that her stepfather Julio can't take it anymore.! where are you going Carmela, you are wet because of the rain.just stop right there and get some clothes for you to change..Julio, why you do that to my daughter!.. please have some mercy to my daughter...she is just immature why she say those words, why are you so light handed in hurting my child? is it beacuse she is not daughter?..you just shut up Rosinda,, i never ask your opinion about this , I will do what i want to do for this family and you all should just follow my orders Rosinda. .you are just my wife and Carmela is just my stepdaughter... I know that you will hate me Carmela for not telling the truth that your father is alive an he is a captain of the ship...his name is Leopoldo but i can't tell this things to you and i don't want you to him by your side maybe i am selfish but i need to do this for the peace of mind and hurting myself to face his father..i know that it should be better for all of us but Carmela still asking for his father..I should talk to her like i didn't know the status of his father , like what i have said long time ago that his father is already after he abandoned us that is why i married another mam who is now her stepfather Julio. Carmela, help me preparing for dinner.don't just cry like you are a baby, you had just slapped because of your mouth! next time do not ask me again about your father for us not into that chaosed again...understood..i know that you are just inside the room...just go out in an instance..right now! you should respect your stepfather without him we are not in the way on what we are now..it is already dark.. Would you please let me be myself right now! i am in pain mom..i am sorry but i need to be alone now! i don't want to hear you right now, then covering her ears..and started to close her eyes until she felt asleep with no dinner at all.. I woke up in the morning, i peek at Carmela's room but she is not there.I am looking at her siblings room but she is not there either..where she is? you girl you must know your place you just disrespect us! where did she go? Julio, julio. have you seen Carmela going out early this morning? no i am not, i am busy in preparing for work., maybe she is just somewhere near to our house.just wait for her to come home.But she was not eating dinner and now she is also not eating for breakfast what is her plan? she wants to fasting just to go against us? so you must find her if you want Rosinda..I am gonna go to work now. bye! You must be punished Carmela if i have found you... Carmela POV Early in thr morning i am going to go to the seashore, i want to be alone somehow..I have missed my father, I don't know his name nor his face and his surname.What i am gonna do with this..i missed my father without name, without face and without surname..I maybe crazy but deep inside my heart , i felt that he is just somewhere far from me.I hope God will let me find and see my father wherever he is right now. I am far away with him but i know will face each other in the right but when?when i am old?, when i am dead already how can i sesle him if i am alteady dead? oh Carmela you are such an i***t. When time us so much approaching ,When i am eighteen years old i am the one helping for familys' financial needs, i need to work as housemaid since i am only grade 4 , since then i was not able to go to school to pursue my dreams to become a successful designer and dressmaker.Maybe it just really a dream that can't come true.. I have to be ready since today will be the first day of my work as a housemaid to a police officer of our municipality.I must be ready anytime my mother Rosinda will send me to their house. I am so much thankful that my employers are kind and supportive.They even proposed me to be their working student..i can pursue to school but i am doubtful and ashamed since i am already eighteen years old then i might proceed as grade 5? oh my God, i can't. Maybe next time ma'am Adelle, the wife of sir Coronel when we are communicating while I am ironing their clothes..I am willing to go to school but i might be bullied for having such old age with low grade level.I must be considered as elementary but my age could accurately for college. When sir Coronel went home, i am surprised the he said me and ma'am Coronel will go to Cebu for some business partnership meeting.He wants me to assists her with some household matters. I am so envious of the love that sir Coronel gave to her wife..I hope i can also find someone like him that is responsible, loving and caring..haha.haha.hope so Carmela. Is ther anything you ought to say Carmela?no ma'am.I am just imagining how beautiful is Cebu? ah okay. when will be our departure ma'am Adelle? oh, we will be going tomorrow, oh no tomorrow? I have to ask my mother Rosinda first ma'am that I will be going with you.! no need Carmela your sir has already asking that to your mother.He is trying to communicate the messenger right now for your mother to know, but don't you worry you are safe with me.. bydaway please prepare out baggage don't prepare to much just for a baggage in riding a ship.Oh my are we riding a ship?but it is my first time ma'am Adelle, is it really safe?then i want to say goodbye to my mother. no need Carmela we are just one week there.Your mother might not really necessary to know, you are already eighteen.you know your choice Carmela.okay.. I am excited and nervous when we ride the Cebu Pacific 3651ship.I can't imagine that I now can ride a ship, oh my God i am so nervous when the ship is moving.it is like my stomach us rolling and the food that we eat is going out from my mouth, i am like to vomit but i need to stop it.After time my condition is not like what i have felt awhile ago.I can now walk the alley of the ship and enjoy the nature outside.I am now seeing the wide ocean with such waves hitting the wall of the ship...I enjoyed it so much.when ma'am Adelle is really want to talk about my life...well i don't know so much about full of my life story ma'am my Rosinda don't want to talk about my father.I hope so, he is still alive and until now i am hoping to know about him and to feel a love from my very own father.But i am already accepted it whatever happened if until i am old aged that i can't see my father, only God knows about it.. so sad of you Carmela, if i can help you with that i will help you find your father..its okay ma'am, ypi kindness is enough for me to get along with this..maybe in time what might happened is God's will. Leopoldo POV Darling are you still having some night dreams with that young lady with no face? maybe you are thinking so much about your daughter? yes I am so need it dearly..It is already eighteen years that i am still finding her, where do Rosinda hide my daughter? I wanted to see my daughter, I missed her very much..but Rosinda is selfish... It is a long time i have to wait in God's will. i will weight eventhough we have our own son and daughter Molivie but I have also my eldest daughter with Rosinda, you are my legal wife but i know you will understand me that i also longing for my daughter. ,..eighteen years now.I will have my duty right now Molivie..Please take good care of our children when i am out for duty...Thank you for being undertanding and loving for me my dear Molivie. Molivie is my wife after my relationship with Rosinda, she is a Spanish woman and i am half Spanish man.Our figure is much way to Rosinda is pure Filipina, she is brown skin in color.I love her that time but i didn't know that she was pregnant when she never wanted to see me again she hide herself.Back then i never see her, but her friend said to me that i have a daughter with Rosinda, but she never reveal my identity as a father of the child.It might be my daughter also didn't her father...I hope i have meet this daughter of mine. I will get back to work..I will now in Cebu Pacific 3651 ship bound for Cebu. I have to ask my staff still to find if any passenger eihgteen years that has reflection on me will be reported to me,it might be my daughter..i will never stop to find her! as long as i am alive. I am at the alley of my office looking at the sea in the 3rd floor of the ship imagining that i am with my daughter , have her shopping and giving all what she needs from dresses to schooling..i have many plans for her.My daughter and son with my Molivie already know that they have a half sister and they were so excited to see their halfsister but how do i say to them when i a return home that i could not find their sister? I have stop my imagination when my staff whispered to me that there is a news for him about her daughter. Carmela, surprises with her long waited father POV When mam Adelle, wants to hear my story with my mother Rosinda, many passengers were listening to us and giving their own opinion and some also giving reactions and feeling sad and sorry for me because of my mother Rosinda who separate me to my father.I don't know the name of my father, his face and his status.. I am crying while stating the fact that I am empty inside for not having him beside me for a long time and since birth..I am denied by my mother that i have no father... oh,, you are Carmela? the ship staff and employee asking me for something, could i ask you to be with me at the 3rd floor? there is someone wants to talk to you in private? I stop crying all of a sudden because i am curious why he appoached me like that, i am scared to be with you sir, the fact that i don't know you? who is that person willing to talk to me on private please tell me, then i want my female boss be with me at the 3rd floor will i do that? yes ma'am, ypur boss can accompany with you there, so let's go? Ma'am Adelle can you go with me?i am not going if she will not going there also? may i request for my boss? yes ma'am you can have a company as many as you can..maybe we need to go upstairs for my boss i really waiting now....who is he Mr.?why is he wanting me.I didn't know him..can you tell me? why? well i can't tell you why ma'am, we are already here mam..I will knock the door..this is the office of my boss our captain Leopoldo Javier.. My mind is wandering why do i need to go here I am so amaze of the whole space it is big with a long table..it is like a dining area with a prince and princess! it is very long where 24 persons can sit. I am so overwhelmed, I am just standing still like a stem of the tree trying to decompose.I don't why I feel this way, just like a novel and a movies of dreaming your love ones to be here with you..I stopped my daydreaming when someone is talking on the other side of the table, a masculine body man, bearded whitish face with a resemblance of mine? wearing a white suit with hat, i am really feel confusing of my heart it might be a leap of blood.I feel something so missing that i don't like this feeling, i feel like i'm a bomb to burst in a minute!.. The man with white suit is talking, it is a long long time since I have been waiting, everybody is listening..i can't help it but crying in silence while he is still talking this way ..it's been a long time since i have been waiting, it is now 18 years since then longing for my daughter from Rosinda..when he utter the name of my mother..i can't bear it i really cried my tears while i can't utter any word from my throat, i can't really imagine that can be this man right there in the other side is really my father? I can't barely hear it out like i was in cloud 9 hanging up high like so many birds tweeting...then I clearly heard only please help me welcome my eldest daughter Carmela Javier, i hope she will bring my name but she is now Ortega with her stepfather's name.I have come to realize that he really is my father..even my boss can't say anything but she hurriedly say to me to hug my father..but is so awkward? maybe in 30 seconds I am way to my father's arm.It is a really an overwhelming experience. I cried too much with my father's arm..He let me cry and wipe my tears away..and saying I am sorry Carmela that we only see each other just today .I search you a long time ago but your mother hide you along the way..it is such happiest day for me. .I am so thankful if your boss that she bring you with her for Cebu..My family you stepmother and your siblings is waiting for you a long time ago.I want you to be with me in our house.I want you to meet them okay? I only nod my head.. Okay for a call of celebration, we made something to eat.Let's eat everyone..There are bread, biscuits, wine, rice, and viand just help yourselves cuz i am really happy to have my beautiful daughter now.It is really a big celebration. I am really a big resemblance to my father I might be his junior..haha. a photocopy that is why i am always looking at a resemblance to my mother but i can't see it to her, I am really a big opposite to her figure.. Since it is big party inside the 3rd floor of the ship..all the passengers in the 2nd floor also given a food for them to eat and they knew already that I am the lost daughter of the captain of this ship.They are so excited to see me amd congratulate me for finding my father...Awhile ago, they were listening to my story but they are happy that my father is here also in the ship that he acknowledge me as hus daughter.. Oh my God, I am so envious of you Carmela your father is rich other passengers said to me..you are such a lucky one..I only say thank you.!for the support for hearing my story..That also my father and his staff heard it from the 3rd floor of the ship.He was not doubtful because of the name of my mother I have said to thd passengers when someone asking the name of my mother.Then the photocopy of our face.He really can't deny it. He really ask his staff to take a picture of me..then he see it no doubt I am his daughter so that is why he ask his cook to cook for a lunch in celebrating of finding me..I am so thankful to God that he really give this chances to be with my father my long time wish to see my father it is really a big surprise and a gift. Thank you Ma'am Adelle in bringing me to Cebu by the reason of this trip.I have found my father..I am so so happy right now ma'am. So you should share this moment to your mother? you will be living with your stepmother,siblings and your father? my boss asking. I don't know ma'am, i want it also but i am afraid my would get angry with me that i acknowledge a father without her permission, she is selfish she will not going to accept this...I want this secret to both of us ma'am..okay if it is your opinion to keep it a secret, then i will respect..So you should be there with your father..share him your life with your mother's family. Rosinda POV Why am i so hurt?my heart skips its beat?in my mind is Carmela.Is there anything wrong with my daughter? I should go to her boss's house if what happens to my Carmela? I will ask permission to Julio to Davao to check on Carmela there. No..just stay here there are many task to do you have our own child to take care too.Carmela is already matured, she can take care of herself, maybe she is having a boyfriend now that is why you feel like you are betrayed..Let her be Rosinda, she can do what she wants..focus on our children!! Okay..but my heart hurts..maybe I have heart problems?oh what is this feeling Julio, we will just pray that there nothing happen bad with Carmela right now.. it is mixed emotion when i am imagining and minding about Carmela but maybe she is just doing good somehow she is now 18 years old, maybe Julio is right she is now can manage herself.If she is having a boyfriend then might she wanted to marry at young age..?it is all her decision.In my mind it is not? there is something wrong with..oh my Rosinda you are just overthinking. Just keep going, you are just married to a poor man.If i have been married to Leopoldo maybe i am now just having a maid for me to do the household task but he betrayed me with other woman..! let it go Rosinda, I don't want him in my mind.I am now with Julio, i will just care him and our children.Don't look back to that past experience that can never be in the future.Julio and my children is my future now!! still i want to cry..? but somehow i wanted to see him again for closure?we have not ended up with Leopoldo since I was the hiding myself from him when I am bringing in my womb with Carmela,she is my only living remembrance with Leopoldo but Iove also Carmela that i don't want her to be away from me.I really love his father till now it hurts me more when i see Carmela, she is a reemblance to his father's figure no more no less!no figure from me..oh! that man!he really has the authority to manipulate my mind and my heart..but I have to let go of this and moved on. Leopoldo POV I am so much of happiness inside my heart seeing my Carmela with me..How many minutes from now we will be in the port of Cebu.I am really excited to report this to my wife and our sibling that i already found my daughter and their eldest sister..From now on we will be having a great reunion and a happy family.I will get Carmela from her mother and stay with us here in Cebu..I stop thinking when my staff says that we are already in the port of Cebu. I have so many plans and dream for Carmela i will give what she didn't get when she is young.It is not too late fir her to study , I will help her get her dreams! Okay just tell Carmela and his boss that they will be coming with me whe they go out from the ship.I already called Molivie that we some guest for her to prepare for our arrival. Yes sir, you told her that you found Carmela? no not yet i want this a surprise to them..We already talked about it Jigz my right hand in the ship. please tell my daughter to be with me okay I will just change my clothes.. okay sir.I will do that..thanks I will go downstairs now..okay Jigz. I can't believe myself now.I am so proud of my daughter my beautiful resemblance.Molivie and my child will really surprise looking at Carmela when we get home.I am so excited , oh my ..thank you Lord for this opportunity that you answered my prayers for a long time.Please give us a chance to be with each other..thank you so much...thats what I uttered. I am really seeing my daughter waiting for me outside the ship.Sge is now in the bench of the port sitting with her boss! There are so mamy changes that I wanted her to change like her clothing.I want her like my princess.She has no make up, but she still pretty to look at. I shouted just wait for me my pretty daughter Carmela! don't shout dad..just look your steps dad..you are so excited ha..I will wait here, even she smile is also has a resemblance of me no doubt I love my daughter so much that I am the most happy man today with my daughter's appearance.It is really an amazing experience, maybe I am still inlove with her mother?No maybe it is not cuz we were not closing our realtionship for a long time..