Deceitful Lies [18+ MATURE CONTENT]

CHAPTER 7: INNER TURMOIL

** ANYA’S POV **

David again had to go out of the city on work, which seems to be the case every weekend. When I asked him about it, he said that he has taken pro-bono and so he needs to visit the client as his client is unable to travel.

I have never doubted my husband plus he has never given me a reason to doubt him as well. I could trust him with my life and I know that he loves me more than how much I love him coz he never fails to show me his love.

I was lounging in the balcony as it was the weekend and I was alone and had no work to do when my phone started ringing. I rushed hoping it’s from David but turns out it is from my boss. He was being an ass, talking dirty and the worst part of it all was him expecting me to flirt back with him. He got on to my nerve and so I ended the call but seconds later my phone started buzzing again. He sent me a few messages saying sorry and I could imagine him being on his knees asking me for forgiveness and that brought a smile on my face.

‘A smile that is genuine and honest, I don’t quite remember smiling wholeheartedly since I got married. It’s not that I don’t love my husband it’s just that he is not what I expected him to be and I am fine with it as long as he loves me but of late, he doesn’t have time for ‘us’ unless it involves s*x. I sometimes wonder ‘maybe he is cheating on me’ but then I brush the thought away when I remember the promises he made and the things he does for me. I feel guilty even for thinking that he might be cheating on me. David always stood by me and has been there for me every time I needed him and even when I thought I didn’t need him so there is no way he would break my heart by cheating on me!’

I was brought out of my thoughts when my phone started buzzing again and this time I decided to pick my boss’s calls and for a change, I was happy being busy with work. The rest of the day went by in a jiffy.

“If you are free tonight you could join us. I am going to ‘100 REU’ CLUB with the boys” John asked just as we were about to be done with the phone call.

“I uh… Um… Thank you but I have other plans so… maybe some other time?” I lied but he doesn’t need to know that!

“Well if you change your mind the offer still stands open,” he said before disconnecting the call.

I sighed looking at the passing cars ‘Wish I could be as free-spirited as John’. ‘Wish’ can come true if you want it to but if you let your ‘wish’ take a backseat you will end up leaving it in the dust.

‘Since my marriage to David, I have been in the confines of our house or the office where I work. The fun we used to have in the very beginning was long gone from when I got to see the dom in him. I was a fool to believe his words, his words that always somehow brought me happiness. After he showed me the real him things have been… different in more ways than one. All my life I dreamed of being married to a man who would treat me his equal, who would love me for who I am, who would care for me and treat me well, who would be considerate to my needs and comfort rather than giving me painful pleasure, which after the moment has passed makes me feel empty like there is a void that can never be filled. Even though the pain that he seems to get pleasure from, I can’t ever seem to stop loving him. After all, love can never be perfect coz perfection means there is no room and no need for improvement but being with David, there always a need for improvement and adjustment’.

I rubbed my arms hugging myself before walking back inside the house to prepare dinner and call it a night coz I have another lonely day to kill tomorrow.

After having my dinner, I decided to watch a movie and to my surprise, David’s name was flashing on my phone screen. I picked up his call “Hey honey is everything alright?”

He chuckled “Why baby? Can’t a husband call his wife?”

I tucked my hair behind my ear as I plopped on the couch “No… no, it’s not that. It’s… it’s just that you never call when you go to visit your clients so it just came as a surprise to me that’s all!”

I heard him heave a sigh “I am… sorry sweetheart. My work here is done so now I have all the time in the world to make for all the lost time with you, I have missed you, my love”.

‘Well, that brought a smile to my face’ a smile tugged at my lips hearing him say those words “Just get back home safe and you can shower me with all the love that I deserve”.

“Oh, you deserve a ton lot of love just for being my wife so I have a lot to make up for!” he paused “I will be coming home, tomorrow baby. Let me start making up to you right from tomorrow”.

‘Oh, how my wish was coming true!’ I was beyond happy to know that he was finally going to show me the love that I so longed for “See you, tomorrow baby!” I said before giving him a kiss just the way he likes it.

“I will see you, tomorrow love,” he said before giving me a kiss over the phone like he always does.

After I was done with the call, I was squealing excitedly like a teenage girl who just got asked by her crush to go on a date ‘Don’t blame me, it’s the first time that he wanted to make it up to me for something!’

** DAVID’S POV **

After checking in to the hotel I decided to call my wife and let her know that I was done with my work for good and that I will come back home tomorrow and that I have all the time in the world to spend with her.

She seemed too surprised as she picked up my call ‘Is it really that surprising to her that I called on the weekend?’ I wondered as we spoke. What was more surprising to me was the happiness in her voice as I have never seen her sound this happy ‘have I ignored her that badly?’ I wondered after our phone call, as guilt started to creep in my chest as I remembered how I have been cheating on her for more than a year now.

‘How will she react if she gets to know that I had been cheating on her while telling her that I am actually working? Will things ever be the same between us? Will she forgive me? Will she still love me?’

My alter ego butted in ‘Would you be willing to forgive her if she is the one that’s cheating on you? Would you be able to answer in a ‘yes’ to all those questions if she has been cheating on you for more than a year?’ I could see my alter ego pointing his finger at me accusingly ‘That would be a ‘no’. You would hit her head on like an enraged bull that will trample anything that’s on its way’.

Me – “I should tell her the truth before Melina f***s everything up for me!”

Alter Ego – “Yeah, good, that’s not so bad! She will kiss and forgive you saying ‘oh it’s ok honey, you just shared your d**k and your body with another woman FOR JUST OVER A YEAR, it’s no big deal!’ you will end up breaking her for good and she WILL leave you”.

Me – “Is it any good for her to stay with a guy like me? I don’t think so! She deserves someone better”.

Alter Ego – “BULLSHIT! Lie to yourself all you want. You and I both know that you are a sadistic, egoistic pig that wants to dominate her till her last breath and you would do anything to keep things that way. If you loved her ever you would never have hurt her and would rather be making love to her than dominating her and CHEATING on her with her boss’s fiancé. Didn’t you for once stop and think what she would do or how she would feel when she gets to know that her boss’s fiancé, whom she has been meeting every once in a while, has been sleeping with her husband behind her back while smiling sweetly when she comes to her fiancé’s office?”

Me – “Melina knows better than to f**k with me…”

My alter ego cut me off “oh and you know her better? Common face it, you can’t do s**t if she ever decides to open her mouth in front of your wife, oh, I am sorry, OUR WIFE!”

I plopped on the couch rubbing my hands roughly over my face “Oh, just go away!” I hissed out at my alter ego as I wanted to have some peace and think to myself. I leaned my head back on the couch staring at the ceiling “I f****d up!” I muttered to myself loathing the way I have screwed everything up.

‘I have hurt the one woman that I fell in love with my entire life by carrying on with my secret affair with Melina. A one-night stand can be explained as a drunken mistake but how will I explain, me f*****g another woman for a whole year regularly on the weekends?’

They say what you don’t know can’t hurt you and that ignorance is bliss so maybe it’s better Anya doesn’t know of my affair and this ignorance will truly be bliss for her! I groaned in frustration before ordering some drinks and food. I have a long day tomorrow and I don’t know if I can ever face her without feeling guilty of the things that I have done.

Alter Ego – “It was your decision to have a f**k buddy on the side so what are YOU feeling so guilty about?”

Me – “Oh for Christ sake just f*****g disappear already! I didn’t ask for your stupid opinions”.

Alter Ego – “Sorry buddy but I am part and parcel of your mind. You can’t get rid of me that easily especially when you know you have done irreparable damage to yourself all for a few hours of s****l gratification, which, might I add, your wife was giving you without any complaints and that too to your liking!”

Me – “Don’t you think I know that already? Now, just go away!”

The doorbell rang and I was finally able to be freed from the constant taunting from my alter ego!

This inner battle is not going to be a one-off one, it is going to be a long one that I am ultimately going to lose.