The K is for Karma

7.

- Marcus & Kenny

Throwing the bottle of Hennesey that I was drinking against my living room wall I was so pissed off, Kenny wasn't answering her phone. I didn't mean to beat her the f**k up the way I did a few days ago I lost my cool, in all honesty, I saw f*****g black and blacked the f**k out. I came back later that night to apologize but she wouldn't answer the door I really never meant for s**t to get that far and in my head, I saw T's face, not hers, my anger wasn't exactly directed at her it was completely towards that b***h nigga T. He has been f*****g with my money for my whole f*****g life. I wanted to kill this nigga, but he was basically untouchable. I was hurt as f**k that she was cheating and s**t but I mean I can't say that I didn't expect it, we weren't officially together because I could never leave all the other females alone I knew I just couldn't have one girl. I loved her I really did, I wished she would just answer the f*****g phone so we could talk about this s**t, then I could explain to her that it wasn't her I was so mad at. 

My two front teeth got cracked when he hit me in the f*****g mouth with the gun, my gums were busted, I ended up having to go to the emergency dentist to get my gums stitched, they couldn't fix my teeth that day because of all the bleeding and the risk for infection, but I made an appointment for them to fix my two front teeth tomorrow. I got up off the couch to clean up the mess I made, I needed something to calm my nerves, picking up all the glass off the floor and then cleaning up the spilled alcohol I decided to take a quick shower and roll a fat ass blunt. I copped from my connect the day before everything went down. T wouldn't let me get on with him when I first started but I found my own s**t, I had to learn the hard way I didn't have s**t handed to me the way he did. Pop took care of everything for that nigga, I had tried so hard to get on with Pop while he was still here but he wasn't f*****g with me either. I was about ten years older than T, so I was closer to Pop's age. I had a lot of trouble when I was younger and had to make my way by stealing and robbing the corner niggas. I got a bad rap for all that s**t but no one really knows all the s**t I had to go through a nigga was just trying to eat and survive, I didn't have no f*****g handouts. I was starting to piss myself off even more as I thought about it. I started the shower to let it warm up, I had no f*****g choice but to stay in the crib until tomorrow wasn't no way I was letting anyone see me like this with my teeth all busted out and s**t. The more I thought about it the more I wanted this nigga dead. I rolled my blunt while I waited for the shower to heat up grabbing myself some boxers when I was done rolling. I lit the blunt and took the first pull straight to the head letting the smoke fully get in my lungs. I needed to be high as f**k to calm down, or I was bound to make a crazy-ass decision tonight.

I hit the blunt about five more times before I started to get lifted, my shower felt good as f**k, it seemed like it lasted for hours, I got out drying off and putting on the boxers I grabbed. I had the blunt sitting in an ashtray on my sink making sure to grab it on my way out of the bathroom. Feeling good as f**k I tried my luck one more time and called Kenny. To my f*****g surprise she answered on the third ring, she sounded like she was sleeping, I pulled the phone away from my head to see what time it was it was now past midnight, it was still early for me but I knew she liked to get her sleep, I was high as f**k and didn't realize what time it was before I called her. "Yo ken, don't hang up on a nigga please man, just let me talk to you for a minute and explain s**t please," I said into the phone and I lit my blunt again taking a huge pull. I honestly couldn't even believe she answered the phone. "What the f**k do you want Marcus?" she yelled softly into the phone. "Baby I'm so f*****g sorry iight, I didn't mean to hit you and s**t. I was mad as f**k about my mouth leaking and this dude hitting me. I also was hurt as f**k at the thought of you f*****g him Kenny. You f****d me up in the head man, I really love yo ass man." I said hitting the blunt again. Right now I had nothing to lose with her ass man. I really did love her, and know I f****d up but I needed her now I was ready to make her my wife. I could hear sniffling coming from the phone and could tell she was crying. "Listen, baby, please don't cry, I swear to f*****g god I will never put my f*****g hands on you again yo, that's on my mom baby I swear," I said waiting for her to respond. "No Marcus, I...I can't do this anymore, you almost killed my baby Marcus, I'm pregnant Marcus. You told me that you would never put your hands on me again and you lied Marcus you lied" She said crying into the phone so hard she could barely catch her breath. My heart skipped a f*****g beat when she said she was pregnant, she was carrying my f*****g seed and I almost killed it. Now I hated this dude, even more, it was his fault that I was in the situation in the first place."Kenny baby you are pregnant? With my seed baby, I'm so sorry I can make it up to you baby please let me come see you so we can talk, are you at home I can be there in a few minutes do you need anything, damn baby I'm really so sorry yo words can't explain how sorry I am. Please just let me come to you, I promise I will make it better." I said feeling like I was losing an already lost battle. "Ok... you can come. But I'm not at home I'm at the hotel that across the street from the mall. You know the one right?" she said still crying. "Yes, baby I know the one I'mma be there before you know it what room are you in?" I said as I quickly made my way to the closet and grabbed some sweats and a hoodie. "I'm in room 712," she said quietly. "Okay baby I'm on my way, I love you so much baby," I said and with that, she hung up the phone. 

Throwing my phone on the bed I got dressed quick as hell, I walked into the bathroom to brush my hair looking in the mirror, f**k MAN, I screamed out loud my teeth were so f****d up, but I didn't give a f**k man I just wanted to see her right now and make everything right. I f****d up big time and had to make it right. I grabbed my phone off my bed stuffing it in my pocket along with some money. Speeding down the street I made it to the hotel in less than ten minutes. Pulling up to the hotel I threw the car in park and hopped out with the quickness. 

-Kenny

After finding out that I was pregnant I hadn't left the hotel, it had been a few days and the bruises on my face were starting to go away but my body was still so sore. I called Tommy relentlessly but he never answered after the second day of calling he finally blocked me. I was so sad I didn't want to be pregnant let alone not even know who the daddy was. I was in a dark place, I felt so alone. I had just been eating and sleeping, today was the first day I decided to shower and change my clothes. I went to sleep around eight but woke up to my phone ringing I answered it without even looking at it, it was Marcus and something in my heart told me not to hang up and just hear what he had to say. I couldn't lie I loved him still that wasn't going to go away over a few days. I slipped up and told him I was pregnant and he instantly assumed it was his, I mean he was pretty well off so it wasn't the worse thing in the world to just go along with it. Marcus made a lot of money actually he spoiled me with clothes and purses but he rarely ever gave me money he drove a brand new 2020 Cadillac truck. His house was huge and in a super good neighborhood, I don't even know if I'm going to keep the baby at this point. I got up out of the bed and brushed my teeth getting back in the bed waiting for Marcus to get here. I had no idea how this was going to turn out but my heart told me that he was really sorry. If he ever thought he would put his hands on me again he had another thing coming to him I wouldn't hesitate to shoot him right between the eyes, regardless if this was his baby or not. 

Before I knew it there was a knock at my door, I got out of the bed slowly still a little sore on my back, I opened the door seeing Marcus. I couldn't help but break down crying he really was the love of my life even if I didn't want to admit it. Falling into his arms he hugged me tightly, picking me up he kicked the door shut and carried me over to the bed laying me down softly, all the years I've been with this man he has never shown me this much emotion. It's like he was a completely different person. I laid in his arms all night, we talked about everything and he kept apologizing. I forgave him but knew I wouldn't completely let my guard down ever again with him. 

We fell asleep eventually, it was the best sleep I had gotten in days. I woke up feeling slightly better than I did the day before, Marcus was still sleeping when I got up I got in the shower looking at my stomach when I got out I wasn't showing at all but I rubbed my stomach thinking about what I would look like with a huge pregnant belly, rubbing my belly I started to think about Tommy and that b***h that was at his house. I hoped this was his baby I knew that was the only way I would be in his life forever. Marcus interrupted my thoughts walking into the bathroom rubbing his eyes. "Hey, beautiful why didn't you wake me up?" he said walking behind me wrapping his arms around my naked body and cupping my stomach in his hands. I looked at him in the mirror although his teeth were currently chipped he was still fine as hell, he was tall and dark-skinned he was all muscles he was a huge man, his hair was dreaded and hung well below his shoulders. I smiled at him through the mirror admiring how beautiful this man was. "I was just taking a shower, I have my first doctors appointment today so I was trying to get ready," I said. "I have an appointment to get my teeth fixed at three-thirty, what time is your appointment. I can reschedule mine so we can go together to yours. I don't want to miss your first appointment baby." he said turning me around so I was facing him. Picking me up and putting me on the bathroom counter. "My appointment is at ten forty-five. You really don't have to come with me Marcus, it's okay. This is the first appointment so nothing important will probably happen anyway." I said looking up at him. "Baby I'm not missing the appointment, we can make both of them. I also want you to come stay with me, I don't want you going back to that small ass apartment, Ken I love you and I'm ready for this to be forever." He said grabbing my chin bringing my lips to his. I melted into his touch, I felt like this is what I finally wanted and I hated that this is what it took for the man I love to finally treat me how I've always wanted him to treat me. I wasn't so sure about moving in with him though It was too soon to be just giving up all my freedom.  Especially if the baby wasn't his, I mean there was no way I could hide it once the baby came, Tommy was very light and Marcus was dark, I was a medium brown so I knew if it was his then the baby would come out more on the dark side and if the baby was Tommy's then it would probably come out light bright. "Come on Ken, let's do this the right way for once, we have a baby on the way and I don't want my jit to go through the same thing I went through I want my baby raised right, I'm dead ass when I tell you what happened will never happen again," he said once more kissing me softly. 

"Okay Marcus we can do this, but I want to take things slowly, I don't want to move in just yet I want to give this some time first. Please and I'm not sure if I'm even ready to be someone's mother," I said to him honestly. The look in his eyes was so sad as the words left my mouth I could see that he wanted this more than anything. "Baby please don't tell me you are thinking about killing my seed?" he said looking me dead in the eyes. "Listen, Marcus, I haven't made any decisions yet I just don't know okay. Look let's get ready and go we will talk more later okay?" I said trying to hop down off the counter but he wasn't moving from in between my legs. "Okay baby, I love you and I'm in this for real," he said picking me up and setting me down on the floor.