The K is for Karma

5.

-Kenny

Marcus was sitting on the floor in my kitchen bleeding so heavily, I tried to help him but he was just screaming at the top of his lungs still. "b***h you wanna cheat on me, f**k you thought this was, and to think I LOVED YO HOE ASS," he screamed in my face as he got up. The mixture of blood and spit getting all over my face. His strong hands came crashing down on my face blow after blow I tried to get away but just as fast as I crawled he was behind me pulling me by my hair and hitting me on every area of my body, getting into the doorway of my room I just couldn't anymore. I curled up in a ball and just cried hoping his hits stopped soon. I had been dealing with Marcus for over five years now but we both never made it official and for the last year T had come into my life and completely changed it, but I loved Marcus he was my first everything. I was always so good about not letting him find out about T, until tonight. I knew T wouldn't ever love me as Marcus did, but I was also starting to fall in love with T, from the way he treated me to the way he spoiled me with things like my apartment and a brand new car. He took me out of a dark place when I had no one. I knew he would never talk to me again.  Hearing my front door slam shut I got up as quickly as my body would allow, I was bleeding from my head and had a few cuts on my stomach that I could see. I locked my front door pushing my couch in front of my door so he wasn't able to come in no matter how hard he tried. He only ever hit me once and promised he would never do it again. I was done with him, "f**k you, Marcus," I said through my tears to no one in particular. I walked into the bathroom to get a good look at my face. Flipping on the bathroom light I cried even harder looking at my now bruise riddled face. There was a huge gash on the top of my eye that was bleeding, my eyes both were already starting to bruise as well. I grabbed a washcloth from the little closet that was in my bathroom running it under hot water, I slowly started wiping the blood off my face. He really f****d me up I thought to myself. After cleaning my face off a little I got into the shower to try and soothe my body from all the pain I was in. Getting out of the shower I couldn't help but think about Tommy, I guess I really did love him after all. I called him nonstop hoping he would eventually answer my calls. I texted him over and over again, but nothing he wouldn't respond to me. I hated that he was just going to ignore me. I really did care about him, but I also cared about Marcus too. I popped three pills to take my pain away, something in my brain told me to take the whole bottle but I didn't. Laying in my bed I cried to myself with the thoughts that, I went from having two men now to having none. I pills kicked in fairly quickly causing me to sleep effortlessly. 

Loud banding on my door caused me to jump up, It was pitch dark now I couldn't see anything, grabbing my phone it was now one in the morning, Marcus had called me five times and texted a few. Again the loud banging, I knew it was probably Marcus, I wasn't about to let him in so he could beat the s**t out of me again. I stayed quiet as I tiptoed through my small apartment, climbing on the couch that was still pushed up against the door I looked through the peephole making sure to be as quiet as I possibly could. It was Marcus, I saw he had a gun in his hand that he kept putting up to his head, he was mumbling something that I quite couldn't make out, placing my ear to the door to try and get a better listen I still couldn't hear anything. He looked at the door with the most craziest look in his eyes, BANG BANG BANG BANG... he started again with the banging, It scared me because I wasn't expecting it. I slowly got off the couch grabbing my phone tightly. If he didn't f*****g leave I was going to call the cops. He stayed on my porch for over an hour he never said any audible words. After he left and I watched him drive away I quickly got dressed, I was scared for my f*****g life I couldn't stay here tonight there was no f*****g way, this nigga was crazy. The only place I thought I would be safe was with Tommy, even though he hated me right now, if I showed up looking like this then he was bound to feel a little bad for me and let me at least stay the night I thought to myself. Not caring how I looked I threw my hair in a messy bun and put on some leggings and one of Tommy's old hoodies he left here. I was really oversized on me but was so comfortable. 

Slowly pulling the couch away from the door I grabbed my purse, keys, and phone. Looking out of the peephole one more time to make sure Marcus wasn't outside. I quickly made my way to my car getting in and locking the doors behind me. Tommy didn't live far plus he usually was up this late so I wasn't worried about waking him, I'd only been at his house one other time but I still knew how to get there. I was so nervous that Marcus was looking for me so I took a few back streets, I didn't see anyone behind me as I pulled into the neighborhood that Tommy's townhouse was in, pulling into the driveway the house was dark, but he could be in his room or something I thought to myself. I looked around one more time before getting out of my car. Walking up the driveway I rang the doorbell, just standing there waiting for him to answer the door. I just knew once he saw my face he would let me in and I could just explain everything to him, I stood there for what seemed like forever, and still nothing, I rang the bell again knocking this time with a little force behind it. I knew his ass wasn't sleeping, I rang the bell an additional three times before I hear the door unlock. 

A girl answered the door in the littlest tiniest outfit, she was absolutely beautiful. "Hi, is there something I can help you with?" she said as she wiped her eyes. I could tell she was sleeping by the way her hair was all over her head and her voice was slightly groggy." OH MY GOD!!, Your face umm are you okay? Do you need help?" she said now getting a good look at my face. My face must have completely started to bruise now, I didn't even think to give myself a once over before I got in the car. My anger took over me as I was staring at this woman look at me like I was a pitty case, I was Tommy's f*****g girlfriend regardless of what the f**k happened today. "b***h", was all I managed to get out before I saw Tommy walking up behind her in nothing more than boxers, I saw red as he walked up behind her, I reached out to grab her but he pulled her out of the way before I could get my hands on her. "Tommy what's going on?" she said sounding scared. "K, I'm sorry you have to deal with this s**t right now, go back to sleep and we can talk in the morning if you want. Okay, Ma? Again I'm really sorry. Just please go back to sleep please, I will handle this." I heard Tommy say to her. 

"Yeah b***h take yo hoe ass to sleep, this s**t doesn't concern you, ugly ass b***h," I screamed out behind her. "Yo chill the f**k out man, why the f**k are you even here?" Tommy said to me through his gritted teeth. "Oh, so this b***h can call you Tommy huh?? I love you, Tommy why are you treating me this way? Don't you see my face?" I said starting to cry. "Yo, Kenny we are done, whatever we had going on is dead, it was dead the minute I walked out of your apartment. I'm more than good on you. Don't ever f*****g come here again, I'm sorry for whatever the f**k happened to your face but the fact is, it's just not my problem anymore. Your rent is paid up for the rest of the year so you don't have to worry about that and the car is yours. I don't ever want to see you again man, now please just leave. I'm being real f*****g nice right now considering you showed up to my s**t at almost two in the f*****g morning causing a scene. Not to f*****g mention how the f**k do you know where I live?" he said not even flinching at the fact I was now full-on sobbing. "Umm, umm, you brought me here a while ago to grab something before we went out to eat, I just remembered how to get here, Tommy, if you just let me explain I can tell you what happened today. I don't love him, I love you and always have, if I didn't would I be carrying your child right now?" I blurted out. "Stop with all the bullshit man, get the f**k off my porch before I lose my cool. I'm good on you yo, please just f*****g leave," he said turning to go back into his house. "PLEASE TOMMY?" I said as a last effort. 

He slammed the door in my face I sat on his porch crying for what seemed like hours, by the time I finally got in my car I realized it had only been an hour. I thought I was pregnant for about two weeks now but I never got a test, I'm not sure why I didn't get a test but I thought now would be a better time than any, I started my car and headed to the closest drug store that was on the way home. I grabbed the first test I could find and instead of going home, I went to a hotel for the night. The check-in process was quick, I took another shower and put on the robe that was in the room. Sitting on the bed I didn't really want to take the test. Because if I was pregnant then it could be either Marcus's or Tommy's but Tommy and I always used protection, there are only a few times I can remember us not using it or it broke. But nothing now days was a hundred percent.  Getting off the bed I walked into the bathroom onto the cold floors, why did my life have to be so awful?

Sitting on the toilet I took the test out of the package, holding it under the stream of pee I made sure to get just the right amount on the test. I placed the cap back on the test and set it on the counter while I continued to use the bathroom. Reading the back of the box it said it was going to take about ten minutes before the results would show. Washing my hands I left the bathroom stopping at the mini-fridge that was in the room I grabbed every single bottle of alcohol that was in there laying in the bed I drank until I couldn't drink anymore. I passed out sometime in the early morning. Not wanting to wake up from this nightmare, I slept until about two in the afternoon, the sound of knocking on the room door woke me in a panic. I knew no one knew I was here but Marcus knew a lot of people I wouldn't put it past him to find out where he was. I opened the door, it was just the hotel letting me know I missed check out and that I would be charged for another day. I planned on staying here for a few days anyway so I didn't mind. I walked into the bathroom all the alcohol I drank was hitting me hard, I felt like I was going to puke at any second. 

The feeling of fear rushed over my body as I looked on the counter and seen the positive pregnancy test sitting there. I forgot all about it...