The Blue Lagoon

" in this modern world. I feel like I am not belong. I have a huge interest in nature, woods, flowers, moon, pearls and mirror. I found myself weird and curious. I always found myself hanging out nearby in the forest. I just feel so new and refresh by the breeze that caressed my entire body. Birds chirping and grass and rain, feels like terribly awesome. Since modern era is today, it feels like I am really empty. Maybe because the day they found me, I had no idea who I was. I wanna fill this curiosity and find myself, my family roots and place. But how could I know. I didn't even know how and when to start. All I know, I just feel good when I'm in nature.. After they rescued me, the hikers in the woods especially Liam, they offered me to stay on their house. I refused. I just decided to get a job and rent my own home. With this cheap and old apartment at least I'm alone and it's good. I found a job nearby in a restaurant as a waitress. I encountered different people with different character rude, nice, and gross. One time while serving the customer a tea, I heard voices in my head. I almost collapse. Glad, there's Ruby. My colleague and help me. She asked what happened. I just feel dizzy I lied. Because she'll probably laugh or accuse me of being insane if I tell her I heard something inside my head. The other night I woke up. 1am to be exact. I see the full moon from my window. It's so beautiful. Then in a sudden, I heard it again. Whispers. I freak out and sit on my bed. What's wrong. Wha-what's wrong with me. Am I hallucinating. I almost cried. I don't wanna hear it anymore. I suddenly realized, what if. What if my past is linked on this voices? Do I have to hear them out to know who I really am? I wiped my tears. And focused. I'm trying to understand. But.... I can't. I cried and didn't noticed I slept hugging my knees. I woke up in the morning and asked myself. Was it a dream? And I convinced myself it was. I went out and locked my apartment. I heard a car horn. It's Liam. "How are you" he asked. I just smiled "tomorrow evening we have a party. I want you to go in there. As my special guest" he smiled. Liam is always nice to me. I'm glad for his kindness. But, I'm not really socializing. I tried to refuse his invite but he keeps on texting and calling to come. It's actually my day off. I realized, he saved me. Why would I refuse it? I went on this place and I found out it's wood party. It's in the forest. Interesting. It's cold and I love the breeze. Liam saw me, he was shocked and run to me. "I thought you couldn't come. Come-on" he grab my hand and pour a wine. There's a bonfire and lot of people. They are so happy loud and funny. But I just sit here and observe them. They really like this I hope I have this also interest in socializing but I'm not. I'm not like that. I just drink the wine and eat some meat balls. "Hey" Liam sit beside. "Are you okay here?" I nod. "Come let's dance" "Liam I don't dance." "Oh c'mon "he grab me again. We dance slowly. Like a couple. He's nice but I'm not interested in him. I just appreciate his kindness and gentleness. He smiled at me. "Blue" he said "this is the same forest where we found you" I startled. I step back for a second. Then I walk away. I sit and he followed me "sorry... Did I offend you" "Liam no." We pause for a while and he's waiting for my words. He's staring at me. I then have the courage to tell him..."take me to that place" He wrinkled and worried. He refused as always."Blue, the last time we went there you fainted, I-I'm just worried that it will happen again. We didn't know what happen to you and I'm afraid there is a trauma in your past. Anyway, how's your weekend appointment with Dr. Morris?" PAUSE We both stare for a sec. I then heard again these whispers in my head "uh" "Blue are you okay?" While my hand is on my forehead, I stoop up "sorry Liam I wanna go home" he hold me "let me drive you home" I heard the car and I opened my eyes and saw Liam. "I didn't noticed I was asleep" he smiled. "Of course. Just rest. I'll wake you up when we're near" he said. But suddenly there's a bird hit on Liam's car and instantly stopped. My head almost hit the window caused by the impact. "Are you okay" he asked but I was star struck. "What was that" "A crow" He unlocked his seat belt and opened the door car and checked the crow outside. It's dead. I followed him. I then saw a vision of crows. "Blue" he called me and visions fade. "Let's get inside. It's not safe here. We're still in an empty road get inside." "thank you for driving me home" "get rest Blue" He smiled I shut the door and he's still standing there smiling. 1 am in the morning, lot of crows is in my dream. It was so scary to tell. I woke up with sweats and deep breathe. "What are these all about?" The other day... "hey it's been a long time. Come on in" Dr. Morris. "thank you" I sit and Dr. Morris still staring at me. "I-I'm sorry Dr. Morris. I failed to go here for the past two session" "I wonder why?" "uh...it, it's just am not feeling well this past few weeks" "mm..so how are you feeling now?" I am so scared to share to her this visions and whispers. "come on blue, tell me." "Dr. Morris I'm sorry I have to go" Instantly I stood up and left her room. That was so unprofessional and so childish but, I'm sorry I am just scared. All I know, I AM NOT NORMAL and I don't want anybody make me feel it because it sucks. *ring* (phone ringing) It's Liam I ignored it. I just listen to his voicemail.  "I heard you went to Dr. Morris, but you left immediately. Dr. Morris is worried please let us know if something's bothering you. Call me back"