Amber stayed the night again.
After Jason left it went pretty silent. The only sound was Amber's heart, pounding against her chest. I couldn't shake the feeling that it was my entire fault. Not like before when I wanted to die, but like I just knew I failed a test because I didn't study for it. I knew all the events in my life were caused because of me. It was my fault that Jason hated me, that Amber didn't trust me, that Claire was dead (but alive), that I was an outcast from my family, never really fitting in, and a disappointment to everyone around me. My entire fault. I knew this, and I could accept it. I can't change it, but that doesn't mean I can't do it differently next time.
Once we got over what just happened, everyone did everything to get Jason off my mind. We talked a bit, b
