FACADE

Chapter Twenty Seven

Laila POV

I was expecting Jason to talk to me about what happened between us but he never said anything to me at school the next day. The same thing happened the following day. He just acted like nothing happen. Like he never knew me. It hurt like hell whenever i look at him and see him with his headphone on his head and his eyes close or when i walk pass beside him and he just walk away without taking a glance at me. 

He kissed me and he act like we never knew each other. 

I couldn't take it anymore because my feelings are hurt. So when we walk into the P. H. E room, i walk up to him. I can feel the eyes of some of my classmates that are already in the room on me. 

I'm sure they will be wondering what i want to say to the most quiet and arrogant king bully in the class. 

But i don't care. 

I need to talk to him. 

"I need to talk to you." I said to him. Christian came from behind and he sit beside him. I could also see that he is wondering what i was doing standing in front of Jason. 

Jason look up and just sigh. He stood up placing his bag on Christian bag. He walk past me and begin to leave the class. 

"Where are you both going to?" Miss Irene asked as we were about to leave the class. 

"We will be back." Jason surprised me by saying. 

Well I'm not the only one surprised. I could feel everyone eyes on us - Jason especially. 

We walk a good distance away from the class. We walk to the empty hallway then Jason stop and turn to face me. 

" What do you want to say Sofela?" He asked in a monotone. His voice sent pain down my chest. 

Why is he sounding this way? 

But i still have to talk about us. 

"Jason we need to talk about what happened two days ago." I said. 

"There's nothing to talk about." He said. 

What? 

Is this guy kidding me? 

"What do you mean there is nothing to talk about? We kissed." 

"So?" He shrug nonchalantly. 

I huff. This guy can't be serious. 

"We need to talk about it. About us. You can't tell me that it means nothing to you." I said. My blood is boiling right now. "It's means something to me." 

"Well, it meant nothing to me. It was nothing. It was just a kiss Sofela. People kiss almost every day. I just did what came to mind at that moment." He said flatly. 

I can't believe he is saying this. 

Did he just use me for amusement? 

"You don't mean that do you?" I asked as tears swell in my eyes. 

"I mean every word. It was nothing Sofela. It's a pity if you thought otherwise." He said. 

I look at him and his face is expressionless. 

He really mean it. 

"You felt something." I stutter. I hate to feel like this but i can't help it. I have never felt this kind of emotion before. It's like he just stab a knife to my heart. And it hurt like hell. 

What am i feeling? 

"You felt something. I know you do. You don't have to deny it Jason." I said. 

"I don't feel a single thing. I haven't felt a single thing in forever. So stop imagining things." He said and he walk away without taking a backward glance at me. 

I couldn't help the tears that fall down my cheek. I have been a fool to think they could actually be a thing between I and Jason. 

I ran to the one place i know i will be left alone - the swimming area. It is always empty at this time of the day. 

Jason POV 

I went back to Miss Janet boring P. H.E class leaving Laila in the hallway. I notice she didn't come back to class before Christian said from beside me. 

"Why is Laila not back in class?" Christian asked in a whisper. 

I shrug without giving him a reply. 

I am not able to concentrate when I return back to class. I didn't even know what Miss Janet is teaching. My mind was some where far away. 

I knew i just hurt Laila. I saw the tears that threatened to fall when i told her the kiss meant nothing to me which is actually a lie. I had only saw her cried once and that was when my friends poured paint on her notes books before the examination. 

She did not cry because of her book now, i made her cry. I just hurt her. 

I lied to her. I didn't just lie to her. I also lie to myself. 

I felt something. I know i do. I felt something when i kissed Laila. I can't even take away the image out of my head. I can still remember how i feel when i kissed her. She arouse feeling that i never thought i could ever feel. 

But she deserves better. She deserves someone who will treat her better. She deserves someone who won't taint her good name. She deserves someone who can be a better person for her. She deserves someone who is not a loner and cold b***h that i am. 

She deserves someone better. 

Not me. 

She is too good for me. 

My life is already a mess and i can't ruin hers. I don't think i can become the better person she will want and deserve. 

So it's better I end it before it actually begin. 

It hurts. 

The crazy feeling i have been having is not helping at all. This feeling is......different. 

This feeling is so different from any other feeling i ever got. 

After the class when i was about walking out of the class, I heard someone called my name. But this voice is so unfamiliar. 

Its not Christian because he is beside me and it's not my friends because we are not in the same class. 

I turn around and see Mathias approaching. 

"Where is Laila? She didn't come back to class today after you both left." He said accusingly. 

"Then go look for her." I snapped and walk away.