FACADE

Chapter Twenty Six

Laila POV

I sat on my bed staring at the ceiling but my thought were somewhere far away. I can't keep what happen between me and Jason out of my head. 

The kiss. 

My first kiss.

The way his tongue move on mine is like it was meant for each other. It is a feeling I can never forget.

Just the thought of his hand on my body make all the hair on my body rise and make my stomach churn. His hand brought this warmth on my body. And I smile remembering the feeling.

I discover something out of what happen today. First is i really like Jason.

Yeah he is a jerk and he had done a lot of stupid and bad things to me and other kids in the past. But it is his past and he can't change that. No-one can. He just had to learn to be better and try to make up for all the bad things he had done and to those he had wronged.

I once dislike him for all that he did but I also can't control the feeling I am having for him. I just couldn't hate him. Instead my feelings for him grow stronger that I can't stop it.

How do someone get to have feelings that can't be controlled? But I do have them and I just have to learn to accept the feeling.

Because i can't tell my heart who to love. 

And then is his emotion.

He always believe he can't feel anything than anger and coldness. But he is actually wrong and my doubt was proven right. I felt something during the kiss. He actually felt it too. I know that. It was undeniable. The spark between us. He might not feel what I feel for him or what I was feeling but I know he felt something. 

I'm sixteen and I'm not suppose to be thinking of this but I can't help it. I just had my first kiss at sixteen. And I do not regret doing it. I do not regret any moment of it. In fact, I love it.

I just hope Jason felt the same. I don't know how I will face him tomorrow if he will mock me with it. 

He is arrogant and you can't tell what is going on in that head of his. But I wish he won't mock me with it. 

When he kiss me, I should have stop him. But i couldn't stop it because I was too weak to and I also did...... not want to.

I was woken up from my thought when i heard footstep. I look at the door and it open revealing my aunty. Her stomach is protruded 

"You are still awake." She said. I nodded and sit up. I don't want to look like I am disrespecting her. "Femi is coming tonight."

I shrug." Okay." I replied. I don't have any problem with her fiancé. The man is a very nice man. He is also educated and I learn a lot from him when he speaks.

And also their room is distances away from mine, so I won't hear if they are doing anything or saying anything. Which is actually good for me.

She nods and she left the room after saying Goodnight. She close the door gently behind her and I lay back on my bed before sleep took over.

Jason POV

The school is literally empty when I left. I took the public bus home. I want freedom right now that is why I didn't call my driver. He had took Christian home earlier today. He had an errand to run for his mother after school.

I feel free since I did not receive any attention from people. Only a few people look at me because of my uniform.

Everyone know that children that attend Greater Height are wealthy kids so it's a little strange to see a student from the school in a public bus.

Looking at the streets of Lagos as the bus drove. I smile to myself as I remembered Laila rose perfume. It remind me of my grandmother. Since i was young i remember she uses only a rose perfume. Although it's obvious that Laila's perfume is a cheaper one but it's still smell nice on her. And the taste of her cherry lip is.... unexplainable.

Its give me joy than I ever thought. kissing her..... I didn't regret it. Its is the last thing that I am feeling right now. In fact I'm going crazy with all the things I am feeling since I kiss her. 

It is not my first kiss. My first kiss was with Mary Chimezie. She confessed to me when we were in junior high three that she have a crush on me since we were in primary school. I told her I am a sadist and I don't feel the same about her but she try to prove me wrong by kissing me. She said we've been friends since we were kids and she knows I feel something for her. That I had emotion which I am denying.

So she kiss me. I let her because I also want to believe I can't have emotion for a girl and I want to know how Christian feel when he smooches girls. I want to know what he find so special in kissing girls.

I didn't feel anything. Not a single feeling. And she felt it too because she stop the kiss. She stare at me with a tears swollen eyes and then slap me before walking away. I know she hated me since then. 

I haven't kiss any girl after that. I never see it to be necessary or important. 

But today, I felt what I had always believe it wasn't possible with me. I felt alive when she kiss me back, tug on my head pulling me closer and when she moan in my mouth. 

The feeling is undefinable!

I came down at my bus stop and I flag a taxi that took me to our estate. I paid the taxi driver and i press the bell at the gate. The security man look through the opening in the gate and saw that I was the one. The surprise on his face is incomprehensible.

He quickly open the gate letting me in.

"Oga why did you not come with your driver?"He asked quickly before he could stop himself.

"I ask him not to come." I replied. He look shock and relief that I replied his question.

"But he already left about thirty minute ago." He said.

I shrug."I already told him not to come." I said. He nods. I can see him looking me intently. I'm sure he is surprise to see me talking to him not glaring at him. 

I walk away into the house. I was flabbergasted when I saw my mother sitting in the living room with my nanny. They look worried.

They quickly get up when I enter the living room. 

"Jason." My mother called with worry lace in her voice. For once I care about what she feel but I am not going to let her know that.

"Why did you not come with your driver?" My nanny said.

"I don't feel like it." I replied.

"You took the public bus?"My mother asked.

"Yes." I said walking past the both of them. 

"Something could have happen to you." My mother said.

"Well nothing happen." I said. I walk up the stairs then stop. I turn to look at them. They were staring at me. What's the problem with this women? Do I look like I'm sick? Those that took the public buses don't have four head. 

"I'm fine." I said flatly and turn away. They should be grateful that I am in a good mood. On other days,I won't care. I will just walk away without doing so much as giving them a reply.

I went straight to my room. Christian was watching the new movie  joker on my TV. He sat on the bed eating chips.

"Welcome." He said." Why do you take the public bus?" 

"Why does every body keep asking me that questions?" I asked throwing my bag on the bed. " Its not like it is the first time."

Christian laugh. "Yeah." He said still smiling "Now I remember. Do you still remember why you did it?"

"Why will I ever forget that?" I said smiling."You were mad at me and you refuse to ride in the same car with me. "

"Your mom and mine helped us resolved the issue. It was so funny. The fight." Christian said laughing.

Christian turn to look at me as I pull off my shoes."You are acting strange right now. "

"How?"I asked, curious to hear what he has to say.

"I don't know but there is something odd about you right now. You seem to be in a very good mood. What happen at school...or is it in the bus?" He asked looking suspicious.

"Nothing."I replied. I'm not ready to tell him that I kiss Laila. I know he won't stop laughing and he will be so curious to know why I did it,how I feel about, if I discover what he felt when he do so and how Laila also feel about it. And I don't have answer to half of that.

I will tell him when I am sure about what I feel.

I left the room to the bathroom to take a shower before coming back to join Christian in the room.