The Prince's Mistress

11

"No more Isi" Thaddeus growls, grabbing the drink from my hand and sliding it to the other side of the table where Ixion is seated "It is not up to you what I can or cannot drink" I spit back, but the sharpness to my voice is slightly ruined by the slur of my tipsiness.

"You have had too much, you are spewing s**t out of your mouth" he snarls in return

"You only say that because you cannot take criticism" I snap

A part of me hates arguing with him but the other part, the larger part, is glad that I am finally getting everything off of my chest with the help of a little drink. I had began by questioning his love - a common thought of mine and this was what had the male all riled up, I had only asked him if he truly loved me.

"I have said that because I am f*****g tired of you saying I don't love you when I obviously f*****g do Isi"

"I love you Thaddeus and the thought of kissing someone else makes me sick so how can you bare to be with Calliope? If you loved me she would make you sick to your stomach"

"Do you think I want to kiss her? The only one I want to kiss is you, she makes me feel sick"

"Really? Not sick enough for you to refrain from f*****g her!"

"For f**k sake, keep it down" Dominic snaps "You are a f*****g mistress so you can't be jealous or possessive" he snarls my way which has me trying to squash down my emotions - I was right I shouldn't be sharing these emotions.

"I don't have s*x with her" Thaddeus continues as if his brother never spoke, but Thaddeus isn't looking at me and I see the way his pinky lifts which tells me he's lying even though I already knew that.

"Then why do you smell of her every time you come into my room? I can taste her on your lips, not just her lips but also her c*m Thaddeus. When I have my lips around your c**k I can taste her so don't you lie to me" spitting the words as quietly as possible but with as much venom as I can muster.

Both me and my wolf hate that Calliope is all over our male.

Atticus coughs loudly whilst Jasper raises his eyebrows and both Ixion and Zoltar avert their eyes, I see the blushes appear on all four of their faces but I don't care in this moment - I want Thaddeus to know.

"You never told me this Isi"

"I am telling you now but I shouldn't have to. It is hard enough to know you are mating with another but to then have you kissing me with her scent all over you kills me, is it too much for you to even wash before you see me? Or does a w***e like me not deserve that special consideration?"

He growls lowly and turns to me, his sapphire eyes blazing with fury "You are no w***e. Never f*****g say that, never"

I don't respond, feeling so upset as now my bottled up thoughts have been unleashed they seem more real and even more upsetting. Perhaps it's the drink or it's just me but I tear up, feeling my heart ache as I don't want to have to have this conversation - why should I have to tell my male not to be so obvious about his relationship with another female? He shouldn't be in a relationship with her if he loves me truly.

He grabs my hand and pulls me up "We are leaving" is all he says as he practically carries me out of the bar and into the car we had driven here in.

The car ride is silent as he drives us back to the house we were renting for this weekend getaway but I still feel upset as now he's not even saying anything, why isn't he calming my fears and doubts? Perhaps because he knows my fears are valid.

I bring my legs up and hug them to my chest, resting my head on my knees to look out the window and away from Thaddeus' occasional looks. "Isi, don't cry. You shouldn't be upset this is a trip for us to be together away from the s**t at the castle with Calliope" he tells me, but just hearing her name from his mouth makes me even more upset - I don't want him saying any other female's name but mine!

"Just give me a few minutes, I'm fine"

"No you're clearly not Isi. Talk to me, tell me what you f*****g need! How am I supposed to know what you feel or want if you won't tell me s**t?"

"I shouldn't have to tell you, it should be obvious that I'm struggling with this. How would you feel if you had to see me with another male all day? Or if you knew that I was having s*x with another male before coming to bed with you?"

"Don't say s**t like that" he roars furiously, hands clenched on the wheel with claws out and white knuckles, his lycan at the surface wanting to be free "It's hard isn't it. It makes you feel angry, upset, sick and betrayed - that's how I feel Thaddeus but so much worse because it's real and the thing that makes me even more upset is that I can't feel like this because I agreed to be your mistress, I agreed to this situation and it's killing me"

"You can feel however you want to my female but talk to me, tell me how to make it easier for you"

"Don't be with anyone else!" I cry, feeling hot tears pour from my eyes hating that I have to tell the man I love to not be with someone else.

"You know I can't do that"

"I know" I sob hopelessly, sighing when the car stops as I quickly open the door and escape the confines of the car into the fresh air but he is out in seconds and wraps me in his arms - as much as I am angry and upset with him I can't help but hold onto him and sob into his chest.

He kisses the top of my head and brings me inside the house, turning on the lights and bringing me over to the couch "I'm only with Calliope for the image, I need to be with a aristocratic female to satisfy the royals, council and public. But I don't love her, I've never loved anyone like how I love you. You own my heart, no one else ever will"

"She will! You will mate with her and leave me Thaddeus"

"I won't"

"All I want is for us to be together as a normal couple. I want to be yours and for you to be mine"

"You are mine Isi, and I am yours"

"No you will never be mine, you will be Calliope's mate, her male, her pup's father! This isn't fair to me, I shouldn't have to watch you with her, I shouldn't have to keep my love for you hidden for Goddess knows how long! How am I supposed to stand back and watch you build a life with Calliope and still feel loved by you?"

"Don't do this my female" I see his eyes filling with tears, jaw clenched and hands trembling as the grab a hold of mine "Do what?" I ask, wiping at my own tears.

"Don't leave again. I can't live without you - I don't want to, I"

"I am not leaving you. I can't

But I can't live like this anymore. All I'm asking is for you to take my feelings into consideration, wash after you've seen her because I cannot bear smelling her on you Thaddeus, I shouldn't have to because it breaks my heart my male"

"I will, I'm sorry I have been so stupid Isi forgive me please my female"

I sigh and wrap my arms around him after climbing onto his lap "Give me a kiss and then you are forgiven" I tell him, he raises his eyebrows at my order which makes me blush and bite my lip embarrassed "As you wish my female" he teases, nudging my nose with his before kissing me.

Our lips move perfectly against the other, my hands clinging onto his hair as his hand grabs my thigh and waist bringing me closer to him. He groans into my mouth when I tug at his dark locks and then our tongues meet, teasing each other and exploring mouths until we are breathless.

"What would you wear if we were having our mating ceremony?" he asks me softly once we've pulled apart, my hands depart his hair and rest on his shoulders as my eyes drop "Please don't ask me that" I whisper.

"Why?" he questions, kissing my cheek and tilting my chin up to look at him again "Because it won't happen"

"We can imagine, I dream of what our life would be like if it were different and it always makes me smile Isi, I want you to smile"

His hands find my waist and he nuzzles my neck with a lingering kiss placed on where I would be marked "Your ring" he rasps, pulling away and grabbing my right hand where the ring is "Why didn't you swap it Isi?"

"What is the point Thaddeus? If you put it on my left hand where a mating band is supposed to be I won't be able to take it off" I admit, trying to stop the hoarse emotion of my voice

"I want it there. Even if it won't be there all the time just know that I want to put that ring on your finger for forever" he tells me, no wavering to his voice which tells me he's serious - I know he's truthful. He pulls off the band and picks up my left hand, kissing each knuckle before sliding it on my ring finger "Perfect" he growls softly, eyes focused on the sight just as mine is.

"I love you" he says, holding my left hand over his fast beating heart "I love you" I murmur, leaning forward to rest my head on his chest kissing it.

"I'd wear something traditional and simple, maybe just a white silk dress. Hair up so everyone could see your mark on my neck when you'd give it to me" my words have him growling appreciatively, his fingers climbing up my body to cup the back of my neck and pull me back so his tongue can glide along the length.

"I would go shirtless for the rest of my life so everyone would see your mark on my neck Isi" his statement makes me laugh "Me too" I tell him blushing just at the thought, he growls and drags his teeth along my neck "You'd only do that when we are alone my female, no one else can see you bare"

"Where would we have our ceremony?" I ask him, wanting to imagine everything perfectly

"A clearing in the woods at night, under the light of the Moon"

"We would shift afterwards and run in our fur together"

"Then I'd bring you to our home, maybe somewhere by the sea. You look beautiful in the water Isi" he tells me making me remember our times swimming in lakes in the middle of the night - what we used to do before I knew his true identity.

"Over the years we'd have many pups, eight?" he asks

"We agreed on 3 then you upped it to 5 now 8?"

"That's a reasonable number my female"

"Thaddeus"

"Fine, six then. We would probably have 5 males and a girl"

"Do you think?"

"With your genes Isi we would be in with a chance for a female, I want her to look like you - gorgeous"

"And the males would look like you"

"No. I want all our pups to be carbon copies of you"

"Why?"

"Because that's what I want, they'd be better looking if they looked like their mom"

"You are very attractive my male" I tell him, my wolf and I not liking him putting himself down "Am I?" he questions raising a brow and smirking - is he teasing me?

"You know you are handsome" I say, smoothing my hands down his chest and following my movements with my eyes so I don't have to look at his "Is that it?" he pushes which has me blushing "Sexy" I add quietly, biting my lip and flushing even more.

"Sexy?" he asks and I nod "Very"

He laughs and picks me up, spinning me around "You are too cute Isi, let me kiss you"

"You don't have to ask my male" I tell him, looking at his sparkling sapphire eyes as h smiles "I love you so much" I say, my heart beating wildly against my chest as he brings our lips closer together "I love you more my female"