Ocean Of Lies

The runion

WILLOW’S P.O.V. 

I woke up at about 6 am and laid there trying to go back to sleep. However, it was a failed attempt. I ended up laying there for a while before actually getting up and starting my day. I sat up and looked at everyone to see everyone was still asleep, I looked at Jason just a bit more then realizing today would end our friendship got me feeling a little sad. I grabbed my phone off the stand beside Jay where all of our phones were when Jasons phone went off making me step back a little from fright then quickly looking at it before the screen went black. There were 20 text messages from who I'm guessing is Marissa, 5 from his dad and 30 missed calls from Marissa. I debated on waking him up but decided against it. I went into the bathroom and started the shower and clicked on the playlist Jess, Megan and Alyssa helped me set up last night with songs to my heart's content. Jason helped a bit to but not much just recommending some songs he thought I would like. I found myself in the shower. Without the casts on this made it so much easier to shower and felt nice. It only took as long as I was in the hospital bed and 2 days after for it to heal properly and I got them off yesterday with no problems. Being a wolf definitely has its perks. I was in the shower for a while, When the water would turn cold, I would just turn it up and I would continue doing this until the hot water was gone.  

----KNOCK KNOCK---- 

“Just a second!” I yelled while rinsing out my hair  

“I’m sorry Willow but I gotta pee and I can't wait!” Jason said barging into the bathroom. Luckily, I pulled the curtain across when he knocked on the door so I didn’t have to worry.  

“Oh, it's okay. No biggie” I said quickly and went about my shower.  

“Okay cool” Jason said peeing.  

I finished washing my hair and started on my body.  

“So can we talk?” Jason asked in a slightly lowered tone, almost sounding sad.  

“I mean, I guess” I said quickly pausing for a second.  

“I just want you to know that you can try to stop being friends with me but I will never allow you to” He said reassuring me.  

“Jason it's not about me, it's about your mate and how she feels” I said confidently  

“No its not. Marissa has never had a problem with any girl friends of mine until you” Jason said leaning against the wall 

“Jason, please just leave it alone, okay?” I asked nicely. 

“Willow, we have been friends for so many years. I can’t just give up our friendship like that. The moment I realized it was you in that hospital bed I couldn’t help but be overjoyed with your safe return, I missed you Willow...” Jason said pleading with me.  

“Jason, you will forever be one of my best friends but if Marissa isn’t okay with us being friends you have to take her feelings into consideration, okay?” I replied determined.  

“Willow, I have taken her feelings into consideration and have decided that they are complete bullshit. Shes fine with Jess and Megan and Alyssa and every other girl out there but not you. That is not fair to me and it's not fair of her to ask me to stop being friends with you” Jason replied quickly stepping towards the shower.  

“Jason, it doesn’t matter what you want. It matters what she wants. You are with her for the rest of your life and you just don’t understand how big that is yet. It's okay to want to stand your ground but on this matter, I will not let you fight for our friendship. As soon as Mindy gets here you won’t be allowed near me until I leave without Marissa” I stated calmy trying to get my point across.  

“Stop calling me Jason. I hate it when you call me that!” He yelled stepping towards the shower again leaning up against the wall where there was a small hole in the shower curtain.  

“Jason.” I said toying with him. I knew he couldn’t stand it but this was our last day being friends, how could I not? 

“Willow I swear to god.” Jason said stepping a little closer.  

“Jason” I said snickering again but before I could laugh even a little bit more, he ripped open the shower curtain  

“You call me Jay” He said meeting my gaze.  

“Close the god damn curtain Jason!” I yelled covering my body 

“You call me Jay” He said smirking at me. 

“Fine, Jay” I said rolling my eyes and throwing my hands up 

“Good.” He said and closed the curtain.  

“Do not do that again” I said calmly trying to collect my thoughts. 

“Don’t call me Jason and I won't have to” He said calmly walking back to the door frame I could basically see the smirk on his face 

“Our friendship is important to me Willow. More so now than ever. So please, do not try to end our friendship; it won't work. I'm very persistent.” He said quickly before turning his heal and leaving.  

Good thing I am to then huh, If Marissa doesn’t want you around me, then you won't be. I quickly finished my shower and got out as my phone started ringing. It was a facetime call from Luka. I grabbed my towel and quickly wrapped it around my body.  

“Hey!” I said answering the phone 

“Well good morning, Flower, I was hoping you were awake” Luka said smiling 

“Yeah awake, just showered” I answered playfully 

“Oh, without me? That’s no fun” Luka said playfully pouting 

“I’m sorry, we can shower together while you are here” I said and playfully left my towel drop just a little bit. 

“Oh yeah?” Luka said biting his lip 

“Definitely” I answered dropping it just a bit more.  

“Willow I have to pee!” Jess yelled opening the door making me fully drop my towel 

“Jess!” I yelled quickly picking it back up and looking at her 

“Oh s**t, Hey Luka!” Jess said sitting down to pee 

“You are something else Jess” Luka said laughing a bit  

“Well, I have to pee and this woman has been in the bathroom for almost an hour!” Jess said standing up 

“Well once I get there don’t plan on coming in anytime soon” Luka said smirking 

“Gross, enjoy the free show Tho?” Jess asked walking past me. I slapped her in the arm and made a face  

“Oh shut up, we all know he’s seen you naked already” Jess said opening the door. Everyone's head turned to me 

“Not fully!” I yelled and shut the door quickly  

“Close but never enough” Luka laughed over the phone 

“Wow, thanks” I said rolling my eyes. 

“I was joking flower” Luka said giving me puppy dog eyes. 

“Okay well even if you were, still!” I said flirty 

“Hey Luka, You ready? We wanna try to make it there before dark” someone said on the other line. 

“Yeah Jen, I'm coming giving me a few okay?” Luka asked with irritation in his voice 

“Hey I gotta go but I'll be there soon okay flower?” Luka said sweetly  

“Okay” I said shyly  

“OOOOO flowerrr” A man's voice said on the other line 

“Shut up bro” Luka said throwing a pillow at him  

“Tell her you gotta go!” The man's voice said again 

“I literally just did you stupid f**k” Luka said quickly  

“Listen it's just another hoe, get off the phone” The man's voice said again bringing shock to my eyes.  

“Hold on a second, okay?” Luka said putting the phone down quickly  

“It's not a f*****g hoe you i***t! Its f*****g Willow!” Luka yelled  

“Oh” The man yelled back  

“Listen dude, I think she is my mate. I'm already falling head over heels for her.” Luka said again making my heart flutter  

“You are not” The man's voice said  

“Really? Have you ever known me to actively text a woman goodnight or good morning? Or talk to her friends because she wants me to? Or blush at every little thing she does? Or make my heart skip a beat when I see her face, or when she smiles? Oh, or try to push down my jealously because she's been friends with this man forever but I can't for the life of me stop getting jealous over stupid things! Like the fact that he’s with her right now and I'm hours away!” Luka yelled making me blush in all the right places, I felt my breathe catch in my throat 

“No dude, I'm sorry. And Willow is a great girl. Don’t tell Alex and James, I called her a hoe please. It sounds like you’ve got It bad.” The man's voice said again  

“Don't tell them I might be in love with their daughter” Luka said laughing 

“I won't, now let's go” The man's voice said again  

“Okay, let me just unmute this and say bye. I'll be out in a second” Luka said walking over to the phone 

“Shit....” Luka said realizing he didn’t mute it. 

“Hey...” I said quietly  

“You heard all of that huh?” Luka asked clearly anxious 

“Just some, I ran out to grab clothes. Just came back in actually” I said trying to help the situation 

“Okay, well I'll see you when I get there and text you until I do. Goodbye Flower” Luka said lovingly  

“Okay” I said flirty and biting my bottom lip 

“Stop doing that!” Luka yelled and hung up 

I left out a chuckle before going out in a towel to grab some clothes, I wanted to look nice for Luka but I had no idea where to start.  

“Girls help me!” I sighed pouring all the clothes on the bed.  

“With?” Megan asked  

“Luka is coming back today and I want to look nice but no idea where to start.” I said crossing my arms in a bully fit.  

“Stop throwing a fit and move, we got this.” Jess said pushing me aside  

I went and sat by Jason who was texting Marissa on his phone and I just peaked at his conversation.  

‘Listen Riss, I’m staying with Willow until she leaves’ 

‘Okay Jay.’  

‘You need to get over this jealously with her, Shes into Luka not me’  

‘I doubt she's actually into him, it's probably just another mind game’  

‘It's not, stop thinking so badly of her you don’t even know her.’  

‘I don’t need to know her to know she wants you’ 

‘But she doesn’t Marissa. She wants Luka. She's hoping he is her mate and the girls are activity trying to help her look nice right now, she wants to look good for him’  

‘More like look good for you and make everyone think it's for him’ 

‘No for him Marissa. Stop this s**t. Go to a therapist today and talk about this s**t, I'll go with you if you want’  

‘Okay, I'll make an appointment and let you know.’  

‘Okay’ 

“Found it!” Jess said enthusiastically holding up a tight dress  

“Oh” I said optimistic.  

“Go put it on!” They yelled at me in unison handing me the dress, bra and underwear 

The bra and underwear were lacey and black, even being kidnapped for five years I knew what lacey and black meant. The dress was a pretty teal color and hugged every curve on my body. I looked at myself in the mirror for a second readjusting and fixing parts that were bunched up. It came up to just above my knees but I knew it was supposed to be bunched so I bunched it up just a little bit so it went a mid-length on my thigh's.  

“Well?!” The girls yelled in unison waiting for me to come out.  

“I don’t know guys it doesn’t really feel like me...” I said through the door.  

“I found others, if it doesn’t look good, we can switch it out.” Jess yelled  

“Fine!” I yelled opening the door.  

“Girl you look stunning!” Jess said coming up to me 

“Definitely” Megan said  

“I'm jealous on how well you keep your body!” Alyssa said  

“Jay?!” Jess yelled at him 

“Oh yeah, you look nice” Jay said barley looking up at me from his phone.  

“Can I try on something else?” I asked quickly 

“Yeah, here another one” Jess said grabbing the dress off the table and handing it to me. This one was still tight and hugged every curve on my body but was white with a floral print and came off the shoulders. I readjusted and fixed it just like I did the other, bunched it up just a bit higher, I felt different in this one. More confident in it.  

“Okay, but like. I’m a bad b***h in this dress!” I yelled as I opened the door 

“f**k yeah you are! Let's find the perfect shoes!” Jess said looking at me and then walking over to the shoes Ron and Mindy gave me.  

“You look amazing Luka will be wrapped around your finger all night” Megan said  

“Hell I'll be wrapped around your finger all night” Alyssa said making everyone but Jason laugh who was still into to his phone.  

“Jason, aren't you going to tell Willow how amazing she looks?” Jess said hinting at him 

“Yeah, come on Jay, you are the only guy friend! We need opinions on these things from you!” Megan yelled at him 

“Yeah, you look nice” Jason said glancing at me barely looking at me 

“Gimme this” Jess said taking his phone. 

“Give it back Jess” Jason sneered at her. 

“Not until you fully take in Willows gorgeousness and tell her how stunning she looks” Jess said c*****g her head and snapping an attitude.  

“It's okay Jess, no biggie” Jess, now give it back!” Jason said reaching for his phone 

“She is literally forcing a smile and changed out of the other one because you wouldn’t even look at her. What the f**k is going on with you!” Jess yelled in his face and pushed him back.  

“I’m trying to respect her boundaries Jess! Yes, she looks drop dead gorgeous in that dress, when I look at her, I think things that I shouldn’t!” Jason yelled pointing at me making me blush  

“Like what?” Jess tempted with a smirk on her face  

“Seriously?” Jason asked rolling his eyes 

“Yeah, I wanna hear every thought you have when you look at her right now to prove you're not just saying it” Jess said sarcastically  

“Jess he does---” I started to say and was suddenly cut off  

“Okay, fine you want to know everything I'm thinking? How I'd like to rip that little dress off of her and give her the best pleasure she’s probably had, or how about how I want to bend her over the table and make her scream my name, Oh and can’t forget that I started to get hard the moment I saw her” Jason said passionately trying to collect his thoughts when he was done as we all just took there, we had no idea what to say or do. At least I didn’t.  

“You can have this back” Jess said smirking and handing Jason his phone back  

“Thanks” Jason said slumping back down in the seat.  

“Okay well I'm going to run to get coffee. Girls wanna help?” Jess said nudging them towards the door 

“You f*****g b***h” Jason muttered. Jess turned around and stuck her tongue out before leaving the room. 

It was silent for a while, Everything Jason said played back in my head over and over again I couldn’t stop myself from picturing it but with Luka and not Jay. I was smirking and smiling and laughing and my face turned bright red sitting down on the makeshift bed still on the floor. 

“What are you over there laughing about?” Jason said finally looking at me again 

“Don’t look at me!” I yelled and threw a pillow at him  

“Oh my god Willow you are almost an adult and can’t handle s*x?” Jason said snickering  

“I can handle s*x Jason, just can’t handle you having those thoughts about me!” I said throwing another pillow at him 

“What did you call me?” Jason asked quickly dropping his voice to almost a seductive tone 

“Jason, your name” I said with a smirk 

“It's Jay to you” Jason said putting his phone down and looking right at me 

“Your name is Jason.” I said with an assertive tone 

“Oh yeah?” He said smirking 

Before I could say anything else he had leaped on me, tickling me all over and making me scream.  

“Jason stop!” I yelled trying to push him off of me.  

“Never!” He yelled tickling me again 

“Jason!” I yelled through my laughter  

“Thats not my name!” He yelled tickling me more 

“What the f**k did I just walk in on?” Jess says shocking both of us 

“I thought willow was into some kinky s**t. Or maybe Jason” Megan said walking in after Jess 

“It’s Jason who is super kinky” Alyssa said with a wink.  

“What is that supposed to mean?” I asked lifting my head up as Jason was on top of me and I still couldn’t fully sit up 

“Umm so yeah the thing is...” Jason stuttered 

“You f****d Alyssa?” Jess said finishing his sentence.  

“Well, we hooked up one night” Jason said slowly removing himself from on top of me 

“It was more than once Jason” Alyssa said rolling her eyes 

“Well, we know who the hoe is in our friend group” Jess said casually with a smirk 

“I hooked up with 2 out of 4 okay” Jason said in a defensive tone 

“3 out of 4” Megan said quickly  

“Oh yeah!” Jason said enthusiastic 

“Okay so glad to know I was a conquest” I said standing up 

“Willow you weren’t--that’s not—it was years---f**k” Jason stuttered on his words as I walked towards the door.  

“I have a meeting. I'll be back soon” I said and left the room with my coffee.  

I didn’t actually have a meeting but I was hoping maybe Lena was in so I could talk to her. I made my way down the halls and smiled and said hi to everyone who said it to me which wasn’t very many in the tight dress and no shoes. Damn I forgot shoes! f**k me. f**k this day. I miss Luka. I thought to myself as I turned the corner and ran right into to Lena.  

“Oh, my goddess I’m so sorry Lena!” I said trying to collect myself 

“Hey Willow, it's okay. Everything okay?” She asked pointing to my outfit  

“Actually, I was wondering if you had time to talk. I'm a little confused on somethings” I answered quickly  

“I do actually have a little time before my next appointment Would you like to come in?” Lena asked sincerely.  

“Yes please” I answered and quickly walked into her office 

“What’s going on?” She asked sitting down 

“So, I feel really good in this dress, and I know it makes me look good. Approved by a s*x driven guy friend who is now mated and I heard a lot more than I needed to about what he wanted to do to me in this dress, but I'm worried if Luka will like it.” I said shyly  

“Do you have feelings for Luka?” Lena asked confused 

“I think Luka is an amazing person who risked his life to save me” I answered quickly  

“No Willow, I asked if you have feelings for him. Not what you think of him” Lena said reassuring me. 

“Honestly?” I asked and she nodded  

“I think Luka is handsome and hot and everything in between, I have s*x dreams about him. I love being around him. He makes me happy when he calls me ‘flower’ My heart skips a beat when I see him and my breathe catches in my throat when he talks to me or even looks at me. And this morning I heard him tell someone that he’s falling head over heels for me but what if I'm not good enough for him? I mean all I really know is how to be a slave, s*x and other wise. I really like him and don’t want to mess things up” I said quickly before she could respond to anything and she just sat there, taking it all in. I think she was a little shocked.  

“Well, Willow. If you really are meant to be with Luka then the moon goddess will have you mated with him. You still have a few days before your birthday, right?” Lena asked and I nodded my head 

“Try getting out. Walk the pack grounds. Meet new people. Try to get back to being you and then come back tonight and we can talk a little bit more. I know it's not a lot of time but find where you fit in.” Lena said giving me a reassuring look  

“Okay, I’ll come back around 6?” I asked confused 

“Try 8” Lena said with a smile 

“Okay, thank you Lena” I said walking towards the door. I opened it to find Marissa and Jason 

“Oh hey” I said lowly  

“So, we even have the same therapist f*****g great” Marissa said with a hiss 

“Please, just because I am also Willow’s therapist doesn’t mean I can't help the best way I know how for the 2 of you. Please come in. Willow I will see you tonight?” Lena said cutting all tension  

“Of course, I look forward to it! Thanks Lena!” I yelled as I closed the door.  

I took Lena's advice but not before going back to my room and changing into something a little more me. And off I went with the girls around the pack grounds. Meeting new people and trying to find who I am again. With less than 3 days to find out who I am before I am officially a wolf and have a mate there is a lot of pressure on me. From me. f**k I hate my anxiety.