is love a lesson??

my name is Lisa and this is how I fall in love with my teacher Mr John in 2015 just like other student I was there to study and that only but no one told me that love happens some times so I remember so clearly Asif it was yesterday it was February that year when a new teacher arrived in our school, he was good looking a tall and light skinned man and very gentle his name was Mr John Mr John was teaching as civics I must say he was a good teacher and he knew what he was doing so he taught us that year and I started falling but I did not know that just thought that was crushing on him so I lied to my self the year ended he did not notes any thing so early the next year I started making signs for him to notes some times I would tell my friends how cute he was then we became friends I think he started seeing the signs so one faithfully day he called me and said Lisa I love you hey it was like butterflies were in my stomach I was very happy that finally he saw me but that was not the case......... so years went on we were friends and inside me I new he loved me so one day as I was in our home shop a friend of his came and charged his phone there so Mr John called as the man was out side I copied the number so from there I had his number I will call him one day I told my self the day arrived I called him but when it rang I cut the call then he called so I answered but I told him it was a wrong number I was calling my mother but he recognized my voice Then he said I know this lamenting and sweet voice,how are you doing I responded am fine so we kept communicating inside my heart I knew that as I have his number I will be able to call his any time not to know that I was fulling my self so day became month and month became years so this one faithfull day i called him but he didn't pick the call so I sent a message hi why aren't you answering my phone he replied" Mimi ni mume WA MTU kama unataka kuwasiliana na Mimi fata masharti yangu kama huwezi basi usinitafute" oh meaning am some one's husband if you want to contact me follow my rule else don't contact so I replied it's ok so life went on inside me I knew I loved this person so I thought I never realized that I was being nerve Life went on we continued being friends than on this day it was sport day at school he called me Lisa yes sir I responded come and take this chair to the office he said as I was taking the chair he said" nakupenda" l love you 🤭🤭 I felt butterflies in side my Tomy finally he had notice me I said to may self then I said eeh he said you just go and he left the school woow so he knows I was had a crush on him that good I said to may self. The following year I was in form four I kept studying hard I didn't want any thing to distract my studies so Mr John was there to support me through out the year we finalized our finale exam in that year2017 then this particular day I went to church on Sunday as I was returning I told him he instructed me where he was living and I went we spent some time together the he came where I was setting then he kissed me on the mouth that was our first kiss and my first kiss oh it was like shots all over my body I felt some thing I have never felt before so I went back home but I didn't forgot the kiss till today if I think about it the feelings are still fresh as if it was yesterday🤣🤣🥹 so when the result came I passed my exams well so the following year I enrolled my high school education for two years we kept communicating when I was in holidays I would stand out side our house in the morning and look if he would pass by so as i can just see his handsome face at least once so adays when on years passed and I enrolled in the university 2020 so on the year 2021 I went to my previous school as a teacher trainee there we reconnected a gain not to know that was a very bad desion to make in my life an the most beautify mistake ever I have ever made in life so as I was there for three month the feelings that was lost arise for the second time we became more close and this time as I was mature 20years old we started dating for real so it was during this three month I lost my virginity to him so I went to his house for the first time there we kissed for the second time and he tried his way but he didn't succied then I went for the second time this time I wanted to know how it felt to do the do with the person you love so when he tried his way with me I tried to refuse at first then I agreed to do it but it was very painfull I felt nothing but pain and bleeding though out the whole thing and I kept screaming as it wasn't as I thought later on I took bath then he escorted me to home then days later he called me again and he apologized about that but then we made love for the second time and the third time to be honest I thought I knew every thing but never did I knew that I know nothing about s*x and s****l intercourse so I ghe following month I went back to school and we kept communicating as partners do month went by and when it was October that year I noticed that I missed my period and my legs were swelling and I hard no I idea that I was pregnant so I told eno of my friends zahoora I think am pregnant but I don't know if that is true she told me that lets do a test so you will be able to find out if you are truly pregnant so she helped buying the test kit and it was confirmed that I was preg nant the I went to the hospital and the hospital confirmed that it's true am pregnant . The truth came to light hey I told him about the pregnancy then he said I can't believe that the pregnancy is mine how would I know that you were not leing to me?? that you were dating with me but also dating other men?? I told him that you were my first man and you know that why are you doing this things