Trapped By The Devil

K

I decided to stock my fridge with everything I am gonna need then locked myself in the apartment. After that I drew all curtains and switched my phone off. I wore only a loose tee with a boy short panty and flopped on the bed to sleep.

When I woke up it was already late I think, so I peep through the curtain and indeed it was late in the evening. Sunlight was no where to be seen. After washing my face, I went to make the instant pasta.

When I was done making the pasta, I put it in a bowl and walked to my room to eat it while watching some show on my laptop. I scrolled through a lot of genre than decided to watch my all time favourite turkish actor show.

A Romantic scene came on the screen and suddenly my thoughts went to Noah. We were both like this when we love, we love hard and we fight its all went gloomy. I felt like switching my phone on but then decided otherwise.

After finishing the show, I  walked back to kitchen & washed the bowl and spoon and went to my room. Now that I have no sleepiness in my eyes I am bored and have nothing to do. Then a thought popped up in my head and it was to rearrange my messy closet.

The closet rearranging was 15 minutes work and again I had nothing to do. I went to the living room and started pacing around. My eyes fell on the door and my heat just started screaming to go out.

Putting on a hoodie and jean short, I opened the main door and stepped out. Locking the door behind me, I went to the elevator and pressed on the terrace button. When I reached there, it was a little breezy.

I walked further and decided to sit on the terrace railing. After sitting I pulled out my packet of cigarette and lit it. Noah doesn't like smoking and he also refrain me from doing it but I do it sometimes secretly.

I was looking down at the road and entrence of my society while smoking. When I heard footsteps behind me, I didn't turned and carried on with myself but the person had other intentions.

"Alone in the dark...."

The guy said but I ignored it and took a drag from the cigarette. I heard his footsteps getting closer which started the irritation in me.

"You know I like sitting in the dark... And it becomes more relaxing when you have a company."

He stood a metre away from me and spoke. I continued looking at the cars which were entering & exiting the society when that s.o.b opened his hole again.

"I know we don't know eachother but..."

"Mind your own business. I am not here to listen to your bullshit, so keep ya hole shut."

I cut him mid sentence and gritted out looking straight in his eyes then turned my attention back to the roads when I saw a familiar car.

The car entered and smoothly went under the parking. My heart exploded to see Noah car. He came here to meet me, I was so excited that I get off the railing.

"Ohh I am sorry... I didn't mean to interrupt..."

"Listen kid back off"

I again did the same thing to him and saw one last time down. But the bubble of my excitement burst when I saw Noah's car getting out.

He didn't came up to my apartment to check me. My eyes moistened at the thought and I walked to the other side of the terrace. For a moment this thought cross my mind that he didn't care but I stopped the negative thoughts right there and laid on the railing to see the stars.

That guy also left me alone which made me relieved. I started humming a tune and controlled my tears from falling down. Sometimes I hate myself for crying over small things. I don't want to be weak.

With Noah everything just go in a flow. He understands me and I understand him but sometimes our need for eachother becomes painful. I need him beside me.

I sat up on the railing and looked at my shoes while lost in own thoughts. This one week is gonna feel like a month and that too without any connection to the outside world.

After a while, I went down to my apartment and unlocked it. I went straight to my room and checked the time. It was late in the night and I started feeling drowsy. So I flopped on the bed and drifted to sleep.

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My eyes opened when the sun rays fell on them. I turned to another side and looked right ahead not wanting to leave the bed. After giving a lot of thoughts, I retrieve the phone and switched it on.

There was no messages and calls which made my hurt sink in the pit. A tear rolled down my cheek and then followed by other tears, I started sobbing in the pillow.

After gathering enough courage to do something productive, I stood up from the bed and went to the bathroom and removed clothes.

I was standing in front of the mirror and looked at my body. The tattoo under my left breast was staring back at me. It was a French quote by André Breton —  Je vous souhaite d'être follement aimée. ( I wish for you to be loved madly.)

Noah himself made that tattoo when we were at his friend's tattoo club. And he didn't even told me what it meant, after a lot of requesting he finally said its meaning.

I traced the skin and suddenly goosebumps ran through my skin making me shiver at the same time. I smiled and took my brush to clean my teeth then went under the shower. The warm water relaxed my skin. I stood there for few minutes then started rubbing the body wash.