my life as I never thought of it

so I'm laying in bed I got Black sheets of green blanket I got rid of all my stuff because I'm dying tonight and I don't know what else to say about it because I'm extremely happy about it and I don't understand how anybody could be any kind of f***** up about it but they're just letting somebody else write their story when they just need to write it themselves and in order for them to ride themselves they have to know how to do that and by knowing how to do that they have took on so much more than they needed to but who really cares in the end about what's supposed to be what when the other side is so focused on bleeding a bleeding a dry prune where there's nothing left to bleed it's already been made to plastic which is what the world is coming to right now but that's another story for another day but if you really needed to know anything about anything you would understand that this really doesn't end up the way that everybody would want it to and I don't understand why nobody wants it to end up in a better way because they've had all this time and all they've done is thought about it the whole way through like why can't everybody just try and be nice to at least the people or I'm sorry not people but or at least to the one things that give so freely to us why does it have to get this bad for people to for even me I mean why did it take me this long to figure that out because that's what you should be asking instead of giving all the praise away you then take it away from the one who deserves it maybe that's yourself maybe you're giving your own praise away but hopefully not hopefully you're a lot more smarter than that but sometimes you don't really find the reasons to give it to yourself because you think that the need for other people is somehow