Infinite Bonds

Chapter 6

 On the dawn of my 18th birthday I was awakened early by a familiar voice that was calling my name. “Fallon”

 I didn’t open my eyes because the conversation was taking place inside my head. I was dwelling on the feeling of thick anticipation. “Fallon, I know you are awake. Please hurry up I have been waiting so long to talk to you.” Amber is just as anxious to be with me and this makes me even prouder than I already was. I am so overcome with emotion when I hear the voice again. I will finally meet my wolf counterpart. I wait a little longer to respond because I want to savor this moment for the forever. The pleasantness of this moment will not go unrecognized.

“I am here Amber. I have waited so long to meet you I just want to make sure this is real.” I say the words slowly even though they are racing through my head. I already know her. I know everything about her. She is me and I am her.

“This is very real, and I would like to show you who we are. Are you ready for this?” Amber is illustrious and noble.

“I am ready.” I have never been more ready.

“Fallon this will hurt the first time, but I promise it will be worth the pain.” Her words send reassurance throughout my entire being.

“I know it will hurt Amber, but it is a pain I will willingly endure.” I am absolute.

“You might want to get out of bed for this.” I get hurriedly to my feet. I stand next to my bed and get into what I thought was a ready stance. Little did I know there is no ready stance for this experience. The immense pain that hit my body I was in no way prepared for. I hear Amber apologize but it barely registers. A bonfire of hurt assaults my body.  I can feel my bones begin to break and shift. Every break and every shift bring me closer to change but is complete agony. I am convulsing with misery. I close my eyes and grit my teeth. I bring the pain inside in order to contain it. It is a strain on my very constitution.  I feel an immense heat unlike the heat I feel when I am with my love and it scorches me to my bones. It is an incalescence swelter of torment. The blissful agony feels like it will go on and on forever. I do not know how much time has passed. As my bones shift and I am transforming I am transported. When the irritation has finally ceased.  I still feel like me but me and Amber are now joined.

We are one in the same. I let the waves of malady pass over me and when I feel my affliction is finally complete, I open my eyes.  When I open my eyes and the view is very much altered. I see a tall and copper colored wolf who is muscled all over. Her beautiful fur is full and luscious. There is a bit of curl to the thick mane and I smile with recognition. The bright Amber eyes that stare back at me are kind and wise. Our eyes are jeweled and flicker with the flames of a living amber.  There is a fieriness there. Amber is a beautiful wolf. Beautiful is an understatement. Amber is a dazzling and bewitching wolf. She is proud and strong, and I am elated because those things that I love about Amber are also some things that I can love about myself. I am no longer plain. I no longer see the isolated individual that was completely alone in the world. I shake my head in disbelief and my counterpart does too.

“Together we are indestructible.” I feel this surety through our bond.

“Are you ready to run Fallon?” Amber is a bit cocky and we love it.

“I have been waiting for this my whole life.”

With a burst of pride and energy we bolt from the confines of this pack house with carless and reckless abandon.  When we begin to surge through the forests of the pack lands, I can feel the branches whipping our body as we glide through the trees. I lift my nose and smell the fresh crisp air all around us. All the woodsy smells circle around my nostrils and we are filled with a new awareness. The smells are clearer and more defined. My eyes can see at many different ranges and I pick up small distinct creatures performing what must be a ritual for them. Things I never would have picked up in my human form. My mind is one unit with Ambers and there is a peace there without all the noise of my packmates. These feelings are altogether delicious.

 I doubt I will be making it to school today this is such a fleeting thought. I am sure I won’t be missed. The freedom and the clarity are glorious. I feel the muscles of our legs push forth and bring us to a speed I never dreamed of. I can feel the raw power reverberate throughout our body.  We could run like this forever unrestrained and unburdened. We keep on surging faster and faster with no direction intended.  I do not care about anyone or anything in our pack. Its me and Amber against the world. My heart skips a beat and we skid to a stop when a sudden cognizance occurs.

“Neo!!!!!” I am screaming the realization inside our head.

“Axle!!!” I hear Amber’s thoughts synchronous with mine. My “Mystery Guy” is Neolin he is my Love. I know from deep inside me that I have known this truth all my life. I am giddy with anticipation. I want to run to him my mind, body, and soul yearn for our connection. Amber whines she is feeling the ache too. Amber and Axel will be Mates too. I circle about trying to bring clarity to our thoughts as we try to work out the longing for our True Mate connection. It is very hard to come to terms with any conclusion. We cannot go to them yet. I stop pacing and let my mind take us to someplace close in the future. We will be united! We will be united soon. I am positive of this.

I see two wolves running free through a forest apart but connected. One is copper with luminous amber eyes. The other is black as night and towers over the copper colored wolf. They are equals and they are the same.  His eyes glitter with love and devotion as the many brilliant colors shift and change in his eyes. I could swim in those eyes. There are depths of emotions in those eyes. They are harmonious side by side.  It is Axel and Amber and they are undivided. I can feel every emotion and it is undiluted. The waves of the many emotions wash over us. We are surrounded by the vitality of their living breathing sentiment. There is unity, amity, friendship and love mostly the love.

“Amber we will be unified, and it will be soon but not yet.” I say to her with resolute determination through our bond. There are obstacles in our way, but they will be inconsequential.  As much as it pains my heart to not be integrated with my Love at this moment the hope of our union swells in my chest. I look down at our shared mark and it aglow with a fire etched into the fur of my copper colored wolf. It ebbs and flows with the promise of our consummation. I must push firmly in order to not stay here in the tenacity of our unshakeable vow.   I push us forward as we begin to sprint through the forest again. I choose instead to dwell engagement with Amber.  I am no longer unattended and finally have another piece to make me whole. Gone is the loneliness and despair and it is replaced with a lavish ambition. We will have our True Mates with us, and we will be faultless and outright complete.