Fulfiller Of His Needs

Chapter 5; I Surrender

"Phia." Zhai called my attention when I paused, I’m still looking in his hand there’s no way in this world I will take it. So he shyly remove it while looking straight to me and to his friend Zhai that suddenly putting his arms around my shoulder.

“Maybe you two know each other, you’re attending the same university.” Zhai asked looking to us. He probably feel the tension in our eyes. How we stare to each other.

“No.” I said and I know I lied, but in that brief moment I saw something change in his eyes, he avoided my gaze while clenching his jaw he look frustrated, but why he should be? He attempted to rape me! He did something horrible!

“O-okay?” Zhai replied not convinced. “Hmm but anyway see you Ryan. Thank you for the visit.” He tapped his arm, their bro code I think. Ryan took a glimpse of me. He is very serious. I never did anything to him that might affect his life.

"So, I’m going to leave you for awhile.." Ryan said looking straight to me before he walk away from us. I was just staring at his back walking away. Zhai pulled me in the garden of this Restaurant he manage, then we sat down in the swing.

Why I still feel his presence. Why he’s everywhere I go. What I did to him to make me repay like this. I don’t deserve what he did to me.

"Is he really your friend?” I asked Zhai in disappointment, he never mentioned him, even a little details about him.

"What? Who!?" Zhai is not in his self. I don’t know if I’m going to tell him that his bastard best friend was the person who attempted to exploit me. And what annoys me the most when he have a guts to stand in front of me, feeling not guilty at all. "Ryan?" I’m bent over and stubbornly prevent excessive hatred. I don’t want anyone to know what happened to me last night. "I told you before right?" Cranky question of Zhai then he messed up my hair

“You never mentioned him.” I said while we’re swinging.

“Well, maybe because I don’t want you to meet him?” He said unintentionally, so I look at him straight. We paused the swing so we can face each other well.

“But why?” I’m wondering why he doesn’t want me to meet his friend. Well I understand why, because that jerk is a rapist.

“But why you have so many questions? Are you into him?” Zhai asked while looking at me, trying to figure out my motive.

“Of course not!” I said in surprised. He just let a small laugh and cup my face, he kissed me in the forehead. Well Zhai and I are really close. I’m used to it, this kind of staffs are just normal for us.

“Okay Ryan is the only son of Mr. and Mrs. Pascua, closest friend of my Mom and Dad ever since, he will be the next owner of their hotel and restaurant business which is my parents and his parents are legally partners.” I took a deep sigh. I couldn’t say anything about that. They’re friends because of their parents and their business. Anyway, I don’t want to think of him anymore.

“Okay.” I answered. “Anyway I didn’t came here just to talk about someone’s life.” I said. Can anyone explain to me why I’m being like this? Something felt heavy inside my chest. Every time I think and talk about him, mostly when I see him. His eyes made me stopped from anything, his lips made my head stuck, it seems its not functioning at all. I cant think straight. And geez why I’m thinking all of it, I should hate him so much.

Zhai smiled at me and pinched my cheeks. “O-ouch.” I said and laugh.

“You’re cute.” He said while smiling back at me. Zhai is one of the gorgeous male I know. He has this built body, his eyes and smile that attracts lot of girls, his handsome face and most specially his personality. He respect everyone even he has everything he’s still down to earth he helped lot of people, his employees, beggars in the street, even in the charity, he has a good heart, and he also has a sweet voice a charming smile. So be prepared because almost all the girls he talks to, fell in love with him.

"I know." I said being narcissistic and laughed. He just smiled at me then I put my arms on his waist and lean on his shoulder.. While we were sitting in the swing.

“So anyway what are you going to tell me?” Zhai asked as he put his arms around me and he hug me too. Zhai and I are best friend and we treated each other like siblings so I’m used to it. We are sweet to each other. Sometimes some people thought that we are in a relationship because of our closeness.

“I just wanna say that…” I lifted my head and look at him.. "Thank you." I was sitting properly and look at him straight. I’m so lucky to have a best friend like Zhai.

"Ugh! Is that all what you want to say?"He asked and it seems he does not appreciate that I am thankful. So I struck his chest. "Ouch!.. Oh you! Why! What is that for?"

"I hate you!" I pouted. His facial expression don’t change, it looks like nothing happened. "I just want to say thank you for everything you did, I promise after I graduate I will repay my debts.” I avoid looking at him and look to the other corner of this garden. But then suddenly, I also lost the expression quickly on my face, my heart beats fast when I see him glaring at me.

"Phia you are my bestfriend you mean so much to me so whenever you needed help. Don’t think twice to ask me.!" I heard him say but my attention was not with him right now.

He was looking at me as he smoke! His looks and the presence of extreme humiliation. Because every time I see him, it cannot eliminate all the worries of what he has done to me.

After awhile. He suddenly threw his cigarette and stumped without looking anywhere. He just looking at me! I felt so scared the way he looked at me, and I don’t even know what is that mean..

"What are you looking at!?" I was surprised when Zhai say something and give me a reason to look back at him.

“W-what!?" I think I’m losing myself!

"What are you looking at there?" He asked and started to look on the same direction. But when we look there his gone already!

I’m searching around to find him but I saw only his back walking away gradually little by little until he disappear.

"Oh nothing!" I turned my attention back on Zhai that I talked to. "Hmm. Thanks again." I said, trying to get back myself.

"I said Its okay. Anyway, When is your finals?"

"Next week! I only have a couple of days." I sighed. I don’t know what to do? Maybe I should stop studying and work first. I was ashamed to refuse his offer. He’s right, if I finish my school I can find a better job.

"Just tell me everything you need! I’ll take care of it." I looked at him, why I’m so lucky to have my friends?

"But..." I said, I was about to try refusing all of it when he hold my hand.

"We talked about this last night right? And you already said thank you." He says, I quickly embraced him. I was crying myself, Why do I need to carry all of this, my Mama told me that when I was in her tummy my father leave us and his picture is the only memories left.

"There you go again! I don’t want to see you crying!" Zhai draws my back to calm down, But I cannot help the tears in my eyes he turned my face to him and wiped my tears. "Phia.." He bowed and held my hand back on his lap. "I want to tell you something.." He stopped for a second. "I’m leaving tomorrow. I'm going back to Spain and I don’t know when will I come back.." I was shocked and feel sad.

"You’re leaving me? And wait why all of a sudden?" My tears sprout again. He immediately wiped it and take a deep breath.

"Don’t worry I will be coming back! I just don’t know when, my Mom told called me last night about business matter." I noticed some tears growing on the edge of his eyes. "I know you’re going to miss me, all of me. And everything will taking care of even your tuition, so nothing to worry about, you have to finish your college promise me that.” I tapped him softly, it was annoying, he reminded me it again and that is not the reason why I would be sad when he leaves, its just the

"You are so annoying! It is not what I mean." I tapped him again, while my tears are quickly falling in my eyes. "I will miss you!" He laughed softly.. "Promise me you will be back!" I’m begging. It’s so hard for me that he is leaving soon.

"I promise, I will be back and you will be surprise when that day comes, because you are going to marry me.” He said moreover, trying to lighten up the mood. I laughed softly.

“I do.” I replied in a joke. He look at me directly in my eyes, I saw the sadness in his eyes that he tries to hide.

"I will just fix our business there, my father want to train me! Because I’m their only son, there is nothing I can do.." I understand the reason of Zhai, but I felt so sad and surprised because tomorrow he is leaving. Tomorrow? Its unbelievable!

We spend more time to each other, we even called our friends Nikka and Rina to come over. They were surprise and at the same time, very sad because Zhai will be leaving tomorrow. We had a drinks and chitchat.

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When I got home, I quickly lied on my bed. While looking and watching the ceiling. And I don’t know why but I cannot helped thinking what happened earlier.

Small world?

I laughed after knowing that Ryan the jerk and pervert was best friend of Zhai! I wonder how, there is a big difference between the two of them.. I mean Zhai is descent and gentleman to include to that bastard. How they became best friends?

And when the time he looked at me I was holding my chest again because of that! What is the meaning of those stares. He smiled and acted as if he did not know me. I sighed. It would be much better If I took my head up, and went to my study table, maybe it will be better if I do advance reading and reviewing so that I will get the highest score in finals, than thinking him.

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"Sophia.." I open my eyes when someone tap me while I’m sleeping in my study table. I think my mouth is open and my saliva is drooling. "You have been slept while studying." Wait who is that? Then I saw my mother standing in front of me while smiling.

"Mom!" I quickly get up. "Mom what are you doing here? Why are you not taking rest in your room?" I said, then I grabbed my mother carefully back to her bed.

"My daughter, I already spent many days in my room, I need to do exercise to get back my strength." Mama said, I know that my mother is stabilized herself for me so that I will never worried about her. I smiled at her and carefully holding her while walking outside the door. Myghad my head is still spinning and aching! I wasn’t drunk, a bit tipsy while my friends were really drunk. We had the best night last night.

My Mom breathe widely and smell the fresh air, it’s been a week when my mother unable to get out of the house.

"Mom! I love you." I said then I embraced her in her waist while I was faced her tummy. I was so happy with this kind of opportunity, I rarely see the glare around mama’s face.

"I love you too, Phia!" Mama embraced me too. Then I stand up.

"Mom.." I grab the hands of my mother.. "Go get change! We are going out." I said to my mom, I still have my allowance until next week, but it does not matter if I spend it all, the important is I make my mother happy.

“But Phia..” I stopped my mother, I hold her shoulder and turn her around walking back in our house.

"I got you mom." I said happily. I’m contented seeing her like this, her doctor said that she needs a rest because of her heart condition. She suffered from severe pain awhile ago that made me worry so much.

After that.. We went to the church and tilt some candle and pray.

"Thank you God." Mom whispered while kneeling both of us and looking at the aisle. " I’m so much thankful because all the trials that we are facing we can able to make it... I’m so much thankful because you give me a lovable daughter and hopefully in the future she can forgive me!" I was confused with that last word of my mother. After church we went to the restaurant I want to treat her with her favorite dishes here in her favorite restaurant.

"Phia, why are we here?" She asked, I’m sure she will enjoy the food here.

“So we can eat your favorite dishes except..” I paused and look at her with my teasing smile. “Your favorite fatty foods.” My Mom quickly close her eyes in frustration, she can eat only her doctor recommended food which is lot of veggies..

So while we are enjoying our food, my Mom and I had a chance to talk some things, its been a long time since we had this kind of conversation. We talk about my studies, if I do have a crush in my school, If there is someone want to court me etc. We talked a lot of things.

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The next morning I went to school. I went earlier because I need to go to the library for some notes! I’m at the end of the library because I can only get here the books I need.

"Phia." Someone called me, so I look in surprise when I saw him at the corner of this library.

"What are you doing he……..." I was not able to finish my words because he quickly pulled me and kiss me. I was surprise in what he did.

“R-ryan..” I was trying to beat him up and I keep on pushing him, but he is to strong. He kissed me in my lips. I was so scared again, I’m losing all my strength.

He kept on kissing me, I wasn’t able to fight him back and push him away when I lost my strength, my eyes become blurry because of my tears I did not continue to stop him, I let him to do what he want I have no strength to fight, and my tears are keep on falling. I thought he would not do this again.

"R-ryan, p-please!" I said in the middle of kiss I’m begging, he open my blouse and gradually broke. My sighs come out. He slowly stopped and looking at me.

"Sorry!" He whispered. I look in his eyes, it was reddish and I do not know what his eyes are saying. He hold my chin to face him. He looked at me in the eyes, I cannot move any of my muscles, I feel stuck in here. He’s losing his emotion little by little, his eyes are blunt and about to cry, when I saw that I feel something strange that affect me. He slowly put his face in me. I don’t know what is this feeling for not stopping him, it was so unpredictable all I know I cupped his face and I close my eyes.. Am I crazy? When we feel each other’s lips. It’s slowly moving. I don’t know how to kiss him back, but in google said, a kiss is like a dance you just need to follow every step. I start to move my lips and followed his lips, I did not expect that this was so fantastic and flattering, it feels like this. I felt something different every time he kissed me.

I hold his nape to full him closer and to deepening the kiss! It was so crazy in every kiss we made. I don’t want to stop it. I don’t want him to go.

I feel the butterflies in my stomach, Its like I need to go to the comfort room to release it because of this feeling. There is unexplainable feeling inside me but my heart feel flattered everytime he’s near me, that was the thing I cant deny.