Rejected and Abused

Chapter 8

It feels like hours has gone by since I've walked in the kitchen with my brothers my eyes are glued to Jason's we haven't moved towards each other we haven't said a word all of my senses are telling me to go to him and make him mine but Ava is holding me back trying to calm my body's natural pull towards my mate I can feel Killian is holding him back but I feel he is doing it to keep me safe I can feel he is warry of his human counter part and he doesn't want his mate being hurt 'SNAP OUT OF IT NIKKI YOU HAVE TO THINK WITH YOUR HEAD NOT YOUR BODY DO NOT LET HIM GET YOU UNDER HIS SPELL YOU CAN'T IF YOU DO YOUR PUTTING YOUR BROTHERS LIVES AT RISK' Ava is screaming in my head trying to get me under control the moment she mentions my brothers safety I know I am strong enough to play Jason's game he and I have never been close he thinks he is goddesses gift to all females he uses them like toys and throws them away when he is done I have heard rumors of him beating some she-wolfs who do not give him what he wants when he wants it 'you can do this Nikki he leaves tomorrow anyways stay strong trust in Ava' I keep saying over and over to myself 

I quickly snap out of my trance and look around at everyone in the kitchen my god parents, my best friend, my brothers, and my uncle as well as his wife my eyes go back to Jason and I slightly smile and straighten myself and stand tall with pride and strength "well Jason looks like I am your mate I am truly sorry if your disappointed in who the Moon Goddess has chosen for you I know I am not Luna material and although this pack hasn't always kept me safe I do not want it to fall or be in danger because of me I will not reject you nor will I except you as my mate the choice is yours but I do ask that you take your time in making your choice you and Mary return to Alpha training tomorrow I ask you take the rest of your training to decide what will be your choice until then I will not judge you nor will I hate you for taking other s****l partners I know it is hard for an alpha male to control is s****l urges I will not be that person for you because if we chose to mate prior to you going back to training you and your wolf will slowly loose your strength and sanity because you will both be far from your mate and I refuse to be the reason you loose a title you want so badly so till your training is over I feel we should keep our distance from each other so the mate bond does not get any stronger and does not cause us to weaken while we are apart do you agree with what I am saying?" I finish my rant and I am holding my breath Jason is looking at me stunned but I can see in his eyes he wants to slap me my god parents, uncle, aunt and Mary are looking at me with pride maybe because I am putting the packs needs ahead of my own I can feel my brothers gripping my hands as tight as they can they don't want me going towards my mate I stand there silently waiting for Jason to respond 

"I except your terms Nikki and your right if we were to mate and mark each other now we wouldn't be able to be apart for a few days let alone a year and a half without my strength weakening and that is something I will not allow to happen not even for my mate thank you for being so understanding in my duty to this pack" Jason says quickly while trying to hold back his rage everyone else around us is smiling at him with so much love and pride they think he means it if I had not been around compulsive liars and abusers my whole life I probably would have fell for his act as well lucky for me I can read between the lines in his bullshit he thought I would go weak at my knees and submit to him without question I can see the murderous rage he has in his eyes behind his charming smile Ava is pacing back in forth in my head stay alert of Jason's movements anytime he twitches or balls his fist she knows and she is careful I nod at Jason and smile at him I take my eyes off of him and turn towards my god parents I want to leave with the boys I don't want them around Jason I have a feeling if he is ever alone with them he might cause them harm in order to bring me pain "when will the witch arrive Alpha and Luna I was hoping I could go to grab something to eat with the boys and drop them at school before she gets here" I ask without even sending a glance towards my mate although I can still feel his eyes on me "oh sweetie she will not be here until later I didn't want you missing school because of this whole ordeal" the Luna says smiling at me I am sure she is over joyed her son has found his mate when we are alone I have a feeling she will start talking about grandchildren and wedding plans but I am more than positive Jason and I will never get that far in the mate bond Ava isn't the only one making me feel this way Jason's wolf Killian is doing the same I can feel him trying to open a link with Ava and I without Jason knowing it, it will happen when its meant to happen I am pretty sure Jason has his guard up so Killian is just going to have to bide his time I can feel Ava has befriended Killian and at the very least partially excepted him as her mate he is definitely keeping a distance and is controlling Jason's movements the best he can, I look towards the Luna and Alpha to address them " Alpha Luna I only have school on Mondays and Fridays since I am so ahead on credits I will be graduating early in December I go on Mondays to pick up my work and I drop of the completed assignments on Fridays" I say to them the Alpha and Beta couple look at me and smile they knew I was smart they just never knew how much I have never bragged or seen that a at the time 15 year old was so ahead in her studies I cant wait to finally graduate so I can focus my time on training and working full time I know someday I will have to leave this place and when that day finally happens I will not be doing it with no money I will have enough money to support the boys and give them what they need without having to worry about breaking the bank "well Nikki since you don't have school how about you just relax today since it is your birthday maybe you and Mary can go shopping" says my god father while tossing me a set of keys with a purple bow tied on it I look at him and the Luna confused why the hell did this man just throw keys at me they notice my confusion and start to giggle "its your birthday present baby girl us four decided it was time you have your own car so we chipped in to get it for you we hope you like it" Ronda says to me with a beautiful smile I look down at the keys and run my thumb over the Chevy symbol they bought me a car wow I can honestly say I wasn't expecting that maybe some clothes and gift cards but a car never in a million years I can see Mary jumping up and down in her seat she is more excited than I am I tell the boys to go grab their things for school while they run upstairs I quickly hug the Alpha and Beta couple thanking them for my birthday gift I take a quick glance at where Jason is leaning agents the wall he is texting someone on his phone with the sly smile on his face its probably one of his hook ups I know that smile the moment I leave he is going to meet up with someone surprisingly I am not even a little bit made about it in fact I am relieved the more girls he is screwing the less he is away from me once the boys are back down stairs everyone except Jason who snuck out the back door is pushing me to the front yard so I can see my new car when I finally step outside I am looking at a brand new gun metal grey Chevy Colorado truck I know my eyes are lighting up like a Christmas tree and I most likely have a stupidly huge smile on my face I love it I have always thought of myself as more of a truck girl rather than a sports car girl I quickly turn around give my god parents and aunt a giant hug and my uncle a hand shake (yeah we still aren't on great terms) the boys are already running to the tuck screaming and yelling how lucky I am that I have a brand new truck Nikki is jumping on my back making me carry her we all get in the truck I hook up my music to the Bluetooth and drive off 

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Once we are done with breakfast Mary and I drop the boys off at school they don't want to leave me but I promise them I will pick them up after school with my promise sealed with a pinky swear the boys are jumping out of my truck and run towards their teacher and class mates Mary insists on going to the mall to pick out some new boots with herd dad's credit card I agree but choose not to buy anything "I can tell your scared of Jason and you are worried about him being your mate Nik you wanna talk about it" Mary casual says while holding up a pair of sexy red lace panties I hate that she can read me so damn well 'stupid bestfriend bond' I think to myself "if I do tell you how do I know you wont go and tell him or your parents what I said" she looks at me like I am stupid the moment the words leave my mouth "wow you really think that little of me Nik come on now you should know me better than that and I don't know how many times I have to say it yes they are my family and I love them but they were chosen for me you are the family I have chosen for myself" she says to me looking truly hurt that I would ever doubt her loyalty for me 'we can trust her Nikki but not here take her to the dressing room and I will show her myself' says Ava 'why does she get to see my future but I cant this is bullshit you know that right' I say to Ava who I can feel is rolling her eyes at me for my little tantrum I look around and quickly grab Mary's wrist pulling her towards the dressing room once we are inside I put my bag down and look at her "Nikki I swear to god if you try and kiss me or something our friendship is over I am strictly dickly you know this" Mary says to me closing her sweater a bit I roll my eyes this b***h is stupid sometimes uhg without saying a word I allow Ava to take over I feel our eye color changing thankfully she doesn't elongate our teeth this time I guess she truly trusts Mary "oh my god Nikki what the actual f**k is going on" Mary says to me whispering but yelling at the same time

Ava POV

"I am not Nikki my name is Ava and I am her wolf obviously it is nice to finally meet you Mary anyways first of all no neither once of us are lesbian so you can stop thinking that right now don't get me wrong your a very pretty girl but we don't roll that way and we see you as a sister so yeah and number two I have been with Nikki for years now I can not shift into my true form but the moon goddess blessed Nikki in order to keep her alive and strong so she could fufill her destiny I am here to show you why I am blocking her bond with your brother to give you a glimps of the future and what she will endure from your brother if she gives into the mate bond with your brother when the time comes you will have to help her and her brothers you will have to decide where your loyalty truly lies I know several versions of the future but the only way the future changes is if you and Nikki work together I pray to the moon goddess you both make the right choices if not you are both going to suffer at the hands of  your brother" I shut Nikki out of our mind completely grabbing Mary's face and connect our foreheads together showing her Jason's thoughts and flashes of the future I allow her to feel the pain Nikki will have to endure at the hands of her brother the trouble he will cause for the pack and the danger he will create for all of the people she loves I show her the battle that will happen and what Nikki will become if she is given the chance to get away from Jason finally I show her what will happen to Nikki's brothers if her brother is to get his way once I am done showing her all of the things I have seen I can hear her silently crying and I can feel her tears flowing down my hands it is then that I notice she's hold my hands in hers I cant tell if its for her comfort or mine but either way we stay silent for some time until she is able to calm down some more when she finally looks at me her eyes are shinning with fire and determination "I SWEAR TO YOU AVA I WILL NOT LET HIM BECOME ALPHA AND I WILL DO MY BEST TO MAKE SURE NIKKI IS KEPT FROM HARM ON MY HONOR AS THE FUTURE ALPHA I WILL HELP NIKKI STOP MY BROTHER AND KEEP THE TWINS SAFE" Mary's wolf says while grabbing a knife cutting small lines in our hands and joining them together allowing our blood to fuse together strengthening our bond forever " we must keep this from Nikki until it is time for her to fight back until then I will push her to become stronger to be the warrior she was meant to become" I only hope Nikki can survive the pain he will endure