As big as the ocean

I just got here, I know no one. I left home to pursue my dream to be an interior designer, despite the battle that broke out when I told the family my dream. I left home without anyone knowing, fearing that they might stop or sabotage my journey. I need to be kinder to myself while I'm here,do all the things I couldn't do because they were seen as weird.. whatever the f**k that means. My roommate hasn't arrived yet so I went out to look for the nearest quiet beach and I've standing here for hours,I'm getting hungry and very tired.. quite understandable after today. I really wonder what kind of person my roomie is, I will have to return to the apartment to actually find out.. On my way to my apartment, I see a girl struggling with all her luggage.. makes me wonder who the hell needs that much stuff to begin with. I walk over to offer my help and Lo and behold, I'm met by a pierced and tattooed hot mama. I think I might believe in love at first sight after this cause wow.. even Jungkook is no match, oh no, even Ruby Rose is no match. "Hello" she chimes and I'm dragged out of the trance I had fallen in. yes dragged cause there was no way I would have stopped staring and drooling. " Hello, can I help you out?" I say to not seem like a complete dunderhead but can you blame me? can you? I mean I was straight a few hours ago and I'm already willing to marry this Queen if she asks me? can you f*****g blame me? I think not.. "I'd really like your help, can you help me carry these suitcases to 1501?" " sure" err she's my neighbour, my neighbour that I will guard and cherish with my life.. ok you getting creepy my subconscious reminds me and can you blame me ? "This is 1501, I live in 1502 I hope we get along as neighbours" I say to not make this awkward.. "Thanks, I hope to see you around" she says as she unlocks her apartment.. I rush over to my apartment to unpack my stuff while I'm still inspired by the one and only .... oh I forgot to ask her name. This was bound to happen, considering how mushy I was around her,she must think I am a weirdo, now I can't even ask her to hang out sometime cause I forgot to talk to her on the way to her place, what the f**k was going on with me back there?