My last suicide attempt

“ Are you freaking nuts ? You're sucha dumb ass ! " My bestfriend sitting in front of me started abusing me for my unsuccessful suicide attempt. Rolling my little fingers on the hospital bed sheet, tears start to drench my white face, spoiling my 95 dollar's foundation that I brought from NYC last year. “ If you had to commit suicide then why did you call me and invite me to that restaurant? ” asked my best friend, leaving the chair and gazing at him with a fierce expression. His furious face, clenched fist, his fierce gazing eyes and almost all his gnashing teeth and stressing nose quiet me and held my tears back, I rolled my eyes from him. “ Damnnn ! Now just don't act so innocent !!! What's the problem Bella ? What the f**k is wrong with you ? ” His voice has a concerned tone. “ Stephen….." I was able to just call his name in a slight numb tone, holding my emotions…. “ Yess ! Bella, speak up !!! What's bothering you ? Tell me so that I can help you with that !!!! ” His questioning and concerned eyes are making me fall in my own eyes. He doesn't deserve to get indulged in my stupidity.