I drag myself to Jay's pool party, hoping the music would be loud enough to shut up the voices in my head and drown out my miseries.
My two friends ditch me before we even make it past the gate, already squealing over tequila shots and some linebacker's biceps.
So now I'm alone, pretending I belong here.
Zayn and Maya are here too. Of course they are. Jay is everybody's friend. But I'm doing my best to ignore that fact.
It's for the best, anyway. Maybe seeing him happy with someone normal is exactly what I need to finally let go.
Teo stops by to hand me an open bottle of something alcoholic. I take a long pull of the drink and nearly retch, my eyes watering from the burn.
It's clear and strong, which is just what I need.
When I'm done drinking, I push it back into his hands.
He sm
