Love me

My name is Anita, but close friends and my mum and brother Fortune calls me Annie. Am from lllinios, Chicago city. Am the type of girl you call the nerd, not because I was intelligent or that, it's cause I kind of kept to my self. Sometimes I feel like talking to people is so stressful so I'll rather keep to my self. Am 21 years old. And I sometimes I feel bad for saying I didn't have a boyfriend up till now, and sometimes I feel totally cool with it I mean why do I intentionally involve myself in someone's life just to get my heart broken. I was like the average looking girl, sometimes I wake up in the morning when I look at my self in the mirror, I'll be like "Am beautiful" then other times I hate myself. Waking up in the morning has always been my worst nightmare, I always needed that extra five minutes sleep, which I'll end up being late for my classes. I was in college studying English literature. But sometimes I wake up early with the thought of one thing. seeing my favorite person in the world. JOHN. No his not my boyfriend, Don't think that, remember I said I didn't have a boyfriend John is like the god of our school. He was popular, rich, handsome. when you look at him can help but notice his deep blue eyes. he had the perfect face, he wasn't a male model but he would have been. I bet he would have put the other models to shame, he had this perfect Gold color hair in which took care of so well. he could have a girl he wanted age wasn't the matter. I've known him since high school, the basketball captain, he dated only the most popular girls in School. And couldn't stop thinking about him. but I hated him with all my heart he humiliated me. flash back. hey darling, whom are this for? me: there are mine mum: did you really have to decorate them like this in you're still gonna eat them me: mum drop it there are mine. fortune: No there are not. me: whatever am leaving reaching on time so I could meet him before first period. I saw him with his friends, Derek and Gabriel. I slowly walked towards them. me : hey John can I talk to you for a sec? John: ( John stares at me for sometime before replying) Ok sweet cheeks. (turning to his friends give me a sec) Me : I made this for you  ( he looks taken aback and smiles). John: ok thanks. what's the occasion me: ( shallows nervously) erhm I like you alot and I was hoping we could be friends. John ( he looks at me for something without saying anything). okay, can I pick you up after school?. me: yes I said smiling.