STILL LIVING IN YOUR SHADOW

I have been back for less than a year and well I am now skipping school, doing drugs, drinking and partying non stop. Yeay you might say that's what teenagers do, but if you knew my history you would think I knew better. Well guess what I did but just didn't care. My name is Emma Maria Korzen I am 16. I do have a junky/p********e/begger for a mother. I have no father as he was one of my mothers so called lover/clients and yeah. I have been living a life of hell since I was born. My mother would leave me alone in the old farm house my great grandmother lived in and go out partying for days, and I would have to sleep with my sickly great grandmother,who loved me for the both of my parents. But although she tried I still managed to be r***d by one of my mothers "Boyfriends" and at 3 years old had to have a huge operation to fix extensive damage to my rectum and vigina. The doctor was addiment she needed to call CPS but dear old mom said d I had fallen of a swing. Well I can't remember ever having a swing at home so. Anyway fast forward to 5 when my brother was born. She once again didn't know the father and once again dropped us at a relatives house and thank God she did because the relative was her twin sister. She had waited 2weeks for mom to come back but than called CPS,and later the same day we were placed in foster care. At first the family were nice, the old woman and her husband was kind and had two adult children, a daughter and a son. And this is where some of my PTSD comes from. The daughter was a horrible woman, she hated girls and now that I was in her mother's care I was given all her cruelty. I had once wet the bed and the next morning I was beaten and washed like a dog in ice cold water. I was always the one looking after my baby brother and I really loved him, so I washed him, changed him, fed him and made him sleep. Somtimes I would forget he was my brother not my baby.