Let’s Be Together

My First Love (Therapy Session)

Its 10am on Sunday and I have a major headache. I'm completely drained from last night.

It was fun but the drinks are finally catching up to me.

I get out of bed, make it and go brush my teeth before hitting the shower.

A sudden flashback hits of the beautiful stranger I danced with last night and I feel my stomach turn.

I go to the living room and I find my two friends still snoring on the couch bed.

I go back to my room to change into a large light blue t-shirt and pink denim shorts. I tie my locs up in a bun amd go to the kitchen to make some breakfast. I hear Shanice groan and I know she is about to wake up.

"Jaz?" She says in her hoarse morning voice.

"What's up Shan?" I respond with a spoonful of cereal in my mouth.

"I need to shower. You have any extra clothes I can wear?" She gets up while rubbing her eyes.

"You leave your clothes here all the time." I roll my eyes.

"Oh." She laughs reminding herself of how stupid she sounds right now.

She get up and heads to the shower.

Aaron wakes up a few minutes after and waits for Shan to get out of the shower. He has a few of his clothes here too.

I check my phone to see if Dre texted me but still no text. I’m honestly not expecting one but I low key I am.

"Bitchhhh where were you last night? You practically ditched." Aaron says being the nosey person he has always been.

"She was with a very fine man I must say." Shanice says with a towel wrapped around her head.

"Ohhh he was fine?" Aaron says with a stupid expression on his face.

"Guys what the f**k? You didn’t even see me. So what are you talking about?" I laugh nervously and eat my cereal.

"Girl tell us what happened?" Shan says sitting down on a stool in the kitchen.

"He was so fine. He literally made me so shy when I looked at him." I say remembering last night and smiling like an i***t.

"Girrrrrl." Aaron says waiting for more.

"Since when has a guy ever made you feel like this? I have never heard you talk about a guy like this not even Ha.." she stops when she realises what she was about to say and stays silent.

"No its not like that with him. Trust. It was literally just a dance guys. Come on plus it’s too bad cuz he still hasn't texted me. " I say brushing off her comment.

"Girl maybe it was a just moment thing." Aaron says and maybe he is right.

We spend the rest of the day watching movies and just hanging out and laughing like idiots until 7pm.

“Thanks for last night guys. I really appreciated every moment of it.” I say, hugging my friends goodbye.

“Thanks for having us and I hope we can hang out again soon.” Aaron says.

We say our goodbyes and they leave.

I get my s**t ready for work tomorrow. I have six clients coming in and I'm honestly ready to see them. It will keep my mind off of everything.

•••

It’s Monday morning and I am walking into the office.

I get there and greet the receptionist. Her name is Suzie. She's a 39 year old mother of 2 with brown hair and green eyes.

We exchange good mornings as I wait for my first client.

.....

"I have always loved her and living without her life has been hard. I can't even eat, her death affects me mentally." My last client says. Dealing with depressed clients is the most painful thing I have experienced.

"Think of all the good things you had and focus on them and be grateful that you experienced her in the ways you did. From what you have told me, I know your wife loves you and she wouldn't be happy to see you like this. Occupy yourself with things you love to do. Like writing, golfing and hanging with your grandkids. Your world isn't over Frank. Trust me." I smile and he smiles back.

"Thank you Jasmine. I would be gone if you didn't help me." He smiles.

"Thank you for letting me help you. See you next Monday?" I smile

"See you next Monday." He leaves my office.

I let out a sigh of relief.

“What a f*****g day.”

I pack my things and get to my car.

I haven't checked my phone all day and honestly it was better that way.

5 New Messages

Shan

••Miss you already. Hope I can see you soon ? ••

She’s so sweet

Aaron

••I hope you’re resting in that office. Love you to the moon and back••

Unknown

••Hey you, Sorry I didn't text earlier. I was busy with work. Hope you haven't forgotten about me. Drav.••

I smile because I did expect him to text back. What do I even say?

Me

••Hey Draven. I almost forgot about you. Good to see you remembered me.••

"I can't believe I sent that." I put my head in my hand and my phone buzzes again.

Draven

•• I want to see you again Jasmine.Friday night?••

Fuckk i have sessions on friday.

Me

•• I’m busy on friday night actually. How about Saturday?••

Draven

••Saturday is great. See you then. I'll text you the details.••

I scream a little in my seat and start the car and go home.

I can finally sleep in peace.

The week goes by fast. I was honestly happy it did.

It’s Friday night and I am heading over to see Jessica, my therapist. I get to her office and knock on her door because I'm not sure if we are on that level yet.

"Ms. Henry, so nice to see you." She greets me with a smile and a handshake.

I smile and do the same. I take a seat on her comfortable couch. She is such a typical therapist. Weird lamp, Couch with the colourful cushions...Typical....

Her hair is tied up today and she's in a white skirt and light pink top with a white cardigan.

"How have you been this week?" She takes her notebook out and gets ready to write.

“I’ve been okay. I had a good day but an exhausting week. So it’s been pretty interesting. You? How has your week been?” I respond

“It’s been okay too. Just busy with work and gardening.” She says and smiles.

“That’s really good. So what are we working on today?” I say so we can dive in immediately.

"So today we will talk about your first serious relationship. I want you to explain every single detail. This will allow me to see your relationship dynamics with people you felt you cared about at the time." She says writing something in her notes.

"My first serious relationship was with a high school crush. His name was Larry.." I say.

*FLASHBACK*

"There he is." I whisper to my best friend Melanie. She was a tall, dark skinned girl with a beautiful . I wasn't popular in high school but I did have a good number of friends.

Larry was the coolest and hottest guy I had ever laid my eyes on.

He was a good guy. He was tall and had very nice skin. His father was from Pakistan and his mother was British. He was extremely beautiful.

We took most of the same classes. So I had the pleasure of seeing him almost everyday. We never talked but I'm pretty sure he looked at me a few times. It was our summer break and I was honestly happy that I could finally take a break from school. We said our goodbyes and shed a few tears.

During my summer break, I received a friend request from Larry. I was so f*****g excited but I wondered why he didn't just ask me to be his friend in person.

He texted me and that's where our relationship started. We couldn't see each other because he went to Britain for the summer. I only saw him when school opened.

We hung out everyday. My friends were a little jealous of how strong our relationship was.

It got to a point where they put me in a position to choose between Larry and them but I decided against it and just told them to stop putting that place.

"Babe my friends are mad at me because they think our relationship is taking over our friendships." I tell him

"Baby don't worry about them. Just introduce them to me and we will work it out." He says while rubbing my arm.

We didn't have s*x but we did touch each other sometimes. I was okay with it.

I introduced him to Melanie and Sevyn.

"Larry.. Melanie and Sevyn." They greet each other and it seems like they were exaggerating it a little. We laugh our heads off and everything seems fine.

Larry became my best friend and boyfriend in one and we spent an awful lot of time together and I trusted him to some extent.

Larry and a few of my classmates had to go for a school trip in their subjects. Sevyn was one of them and I was happy that I had a friend there to keep him company.

"Take care of him yeah?" I say to Sevyn while Larry hugs me from behind.

"Well duh." She smiles

"I'll miss you so much babe." He says and kisses my lips and hugs me tighter.

I almost let a tear out but I don't and We hug for a while.

"Okay okay break that s**t up." Sevyn teases.

We break the hug and they get on the bus and leave.

A week later they return and there's so many stories going around about Larry and a girl.

I didn't want to believe them but I needed to ask him myself.

I follow him to his class but before I enter I eavesdrop on a conversation he is having with his friend.

"She gives good head." Larry says to his friend.

What? My heart drops.

"Bro who?" His friend asks

"Sevyn.. my girl's bestfriend. I almost f****d her." He says.

I gasp from his words.

My head begins to spin and I feel my sanity leaving me slowly.

"What about your girl? What happens to her?" His friend asks

"She will never know. I told that b***h Sevyn not to say anything." Larry says proudly.

Oh my gosh this can't be happening.

I lose my mind for a second and walk in his class.

"She won't know huh? She won't f*****g know!" I walk towards him and his mouth is on the floor.

"Babe. I. I.. it was a.." before he could utter another word. I slap him across the face and he is shocked. I ran out of his class and go straight to Sevyn. I see her and grab her by her shirt and slam her against a wall.

"You sure did take care of him huh? You b***h. The respect I have for our friendship won’t let me beat your ass but let this be known. I will make sure this is the last time you make me look stupid. You hear me?” I say with so much rage running through me. I her let go and walk away.

"That was the last I spoke to them both. I never trusted anyone anymore because of them." I say finishing off my story with a small smile.

I haven't spoken about my relationship with Larry in a long time. It was very strange to talk about after so long.

Jessica looks at me with a shocked expression but she shakes it off so that it doesn't look weird.

"That was intense. That experience caused you to close off and not trust people. That's why you have such a cold attitude and pretend like you don't care.. you.." she says but I cut her short.

" I don't pretend. I honestly don't care." I say.

"Okay but I think we will work on trust this week. I want you to ask someone to plan something without you asking or criticizing them. Just trust the decisions they make. It’s small but it’s a good start. That's it for today." She smiles even though she dismissed me a little and I smile back.

"Okay." I say and leave her office. I get in my car and drive home.

I check my phone and I have a text from Draven.

Draven

•• Hey just wanted to remind you about tomorrow. Meet me outside Atomic cafe at 10am. Make sure to be extra warm. It’s a night date too.••

Me

•• I didn’t know it was a date ••

Draven

•• Did I say date? I meant the actual date. Ha ha?••

Me

••See you at 10am. Goodnight Draven.••

Draven

••Goodnight Jasmine••

I smile at my phone and dive on my bed. Thinking about tomorrow. I don't even know what to wear. I am too tired to look for clothes so I'll look tomorrow.