Waiting

Life has always been a journey not until you hit your 20s. It's been an era of fast phased evolution of almost everything. Pressure to walk further than the others has been high to the point where people expects you to run rather than enjoy walking . and I almost failed P.E. My parents didn't rush me when I was younger. They didn't pressure me to do anything besides just study and enjoy. When I told people about this they were either wishing to be my adopted siblings or tell me how lucky I am to have such parents. To tell you frankly, I was so ungrateful at this time ,I didn't notice how lucky and what kind of treasures were given to me by the One above that I was not able to see them that way. All I saw was that pressure put to people like me who were so blessed that making a single mistake seem to be so shameful. I always struggled with the future. The what if , maybes and the thoughts. What if I fail my board exam? What if I don't graduate? what if I dont excell in my future jobs? what if I turned broke? you know ,stuff like this were all over my head almost every night in my early 20s. Everything was terrifying. Trying was an action word I don't want to even do because I was afraid. Because life is terrible sometimes. It's also unfair most of the time. I don't know what is ahead of me but maybe waiting will do me some good. you know like a but