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What the hell does she want from
Me?
"Ronnie, I'm losing my damn patience with you. As I said I have a Luna to do that stuff with now"
"I bet she won't do what I do for you"
I shrug and look at the documents on the desk. I didn't really care what Megan wanted, when the Ailm marks appear, I get to do whatever the f**k I want to do to her and if that means I need to find a new beta, one that will know his place then that's what I will do.
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Megan's POV
I wake up screaming as I feel a sharp stabbing pain right in my heart. Brian wakes up startled and holds my face.
"What is it baby"
I gasp for air and cry out holding my heart
"Pain. Pain in my chest I think I'm having a heart attack"
He growls and pulls me onto his knee and into his chest. His hold on me eases the pain and soon I can breathe through it.
"What was that?"
I crooked out, looking up at him out of his cocoon of safety. He growls again but when his eyes meet mine his face softens.
"He, he's being"
Harper
They are cheating on us
"He's being disloyal"
I gasp. That made perfect sense. I've heard of this before. I just shake my head.
"He's really a f*****g asshole isn't he? Why won't he just reject me? I can't be happy with him"
Brian kisses my head and takes a sniff of my scent
"He won't let you go. But I'm here and I'm loyal and I'm never going to leave your side I promise"
I rested my cheek against his. His breath down my neck sent a shiver down my spine. I wanted so badly to kiss him. To feel his lips on mine. He was perfect and I wanted him so badly. I kissed the side of his mouth and held my lips there
"I love you Brian"
He kissed my nose then nudged it with his own
"I love you to Megan"
He kissed my cheek and the side of my lip and I moaned. He growled a low sexy growl. I take his head in my hands and look at his perfect face.
"If it had been you I wouldn't have ran. It should be you. I feel like it's meant to be you"
He rests his forehead on mine, our lips millimetres from each other's
"I feel it too. But until he rejects you we. We need to wait, i'll wait forever for you Megan I promise I will, now go back to sleep"
I yawn and rest my head in the crook of his neck. The pain in my chest starts up again but in Brian's arms it doesn't hurt. Not anymore.
I wake up when I feel the bed move
"SSH go back to sleep love it's just me"
I grab onto Brain tighter as Xavier pulls me towards him to spoons me. I pushed his arm off me and grabbed Brian for dear life. I didn't want him to make him move.I crawled back on his body where Xavier had pulled me off him and I rested my head back in the crook of his neck and relax when his arms clamped down around me holding me in the safety of his arms.
"Why is Brain in bed"
"Because he makes me feel comfortable now be quiet and sleep"
I hear him chuckle
"Whatever my Luna wants my Luna shall get"
I push the anger I feel towards him away and I close my eyes and let Brian's scent envelop me as I listen to his heart drum and I become completely and totally relaxed.
I wake to the sun in my eyes and a hand to my face. I push it off and realise the boys are draped all over me. I was officially loving my sleepovers with brian although waking up with a mountain of limbs everywhere took some getting used to. Especially when half of them were xaviers limbs
I claw my way through the arms and legs and bedsheets and finally make my way out of bed. I decided I needed coffee so I went on a walk about trying to find the kitchen.
My hair was standing in every direction and my T-shirt was baggy. I wore some sweatpants and was in my bare feet. I go downstairs and walk around until I smell bacon. I follow the smell and walk into a large kitchen with a small round woman running around like a crazy person
"Hey?"
She stops and turns around. Her kind hazel eyes look me over and light up
"Oh Luna, it's so good to meet you. My name is Lucy and I'm the cook and staff manager. Come come and sit. Do you want coffee or tea?"
I smile brightly at her and take a seat at the island in the middle of the kitchen
"Coffee please. So who all lives here? I was asleep when we arrived last night"
Her face lights up again
"Yes you were late getting home but it's so worth it considering you got the boys back. I was delighted to hear your sister took them in, Xavier is still so young and he had to grow up too fast so he deserves to live with his mate in peace for a while. And you 3 are all that live here, I have a little house next door so I'm always close by if you need anything"
I smile at her, she seems lovely.
"Yes my sister will love them like they are her own. And they seem to like her so that's good. It's going to be strange getting used to a quiet house. Ours is always crazy at home"
"Yes you had a very large family but believe me those 2 boys can make enough noise. Sometimes you would swear they had 20 men in one room the way the wrestle and fight"
She shakes her head and chuckles just as my phone rings I smile when I see it's James
"Hey stranger"
I chirp down the phone happily
"Hey sis. I'll be by in around an hour with the wolves. Luca hasn't stopped crying all night he is a pain in my ass"
"You said wolves, who else is coming?"
"Well Monica, Chandler, joey, phoebe and well the entire gang. Baylee had instructed that their new alpha is you and they will listen to you. She thinks they will come in handy for the future"
Tears spring to my eyes, I love my sister so darn much
"That's amazing! I can't believe her, she is the best. Where the hell will I put them all?"
"We will figure it out when we arrive"
He hung up the phone and I looked to a happy Lucy
"Can you tell the men on the border that my brother will arrive soon with more stuff and my wolves"
"You have wolves?"
"I officially have 7 of them now. My sister sent me extra, they are like my bodyguards. Comes with being the queen's sister not that I don't mind. they are amazing animals, I just don't know where I'm going to put them"
"Put who where?"
Xaviers voice came up behind me. I smiled at him and gave him a genuine smile. I really wanted to try and be happy so when he kissed my cheek I tried not to tense. I pulled my attention back to Lucy only to remember what he had done the night before.
Maybe this is a good thing? I'd rather the pain than him touch me.
Harper
I think it is a good thing
"Morning luc"
"Morning alpha. She's even better than I thought"
"That she is, so put who where?"
He lifted my chin so I was looking at him
"James is on his way with Luca, but Baylee sent extra for my protection as a precaution"
"How many are we talking about?"
"7 in total, Luca stays with me the rest will guard the house but they sleep outside in a cave normally so I need somewhere for them to go"
He seemed to think for a minute
"We have an old garage that we haven't used since building the big one. They can stay there until we build them something, I'll have our contractor come by later and we can start the plans for it"
I grinned at him
"We are also going to need a lot of raw meat, and I mean loads"
He looked to Lucy
"Can you get that sorted luc?"
"Yes alpha il have it ready when they arrive. Now here, breakfast is ready. Sit, eat and relax. Where is Brian?"
"Sleeping"
She shakes her head and mumbles something about him being a lazy so and so making me giggle away at her. We eat our breakfast and Brian joins us then I head back upstairs to shower and change. As I step under the stream of water Xavier walks in and strips.
I tense up at the sight of him. He holds his hands up
"I'm just here to shower I won't hurt you"
I decide to trust him and I nod then step to the side so he can get in. He's already seen me naked so hopefully he ignores my presence.
I wash quickly and even though I don't want him there his scent is overwhelming. The bond becomes hard to handle and stay focused on the fact that he hurt me. The bond is forcing me to forgive.
"Are you still bleeding?"
I look at him and his face is white as he stares down my legs where a small streak of blood flows. I swallow the discomfort, embarrassment and anger and answer him softly.
"Yes but it doesn't hurt right now and the bleeding is nearly stopped"
He grabs a sponge and starts to wash my shoulders and back. It's so uncomfortable but I don't want to make him mad and I've decided I will burn him if he hurts me so I'm going to try to trust him until that point. I start to relax knowing I have some power in this situation and that helps me a little.
He washes down my back and over my bum and down my legs washing the blood away.
"It's never happened before and I'm sorry. Maybe because you were a virgin it was worse or something but either way I'm sorry I didn't mean to hurt you"
I decided to try and talk with him honestly with no anger or frustration. Just one person to the next.
"Can I ask what did you expect to happen when our first time was like that? I understand we meet, mate and mark but it just seemed a little extreme. Maybe if you had prepared me it wouldn't be so bad and I wouldn't hate you with every fibre in my body? I don't want an argument I just want an honest conversation of how we both feel so I can understand why you hurt me like that"
He looks slightly wounded by my words and I relax. Maybe I could get through to him and understand why.
"I don't know what to say other than I'm sorry I scared you and hurt you. I didn't mean for that to happen and you're right we could have done it somewhere else but Megan you have to know it would have happened eventually. Fight against it or don't but the bond is there and getting stronger I just think forgiveness is our best way forward"
"How can I forgive you when you refuse to acknowledge what you did? Genuinely I'm wondering"
I don't raise my voice and I talk calmly to him. It seemed to affect him more when I talked instead of snapping so I tried to relax and finish washing myself.
"You think I raped you. But I didn't. It got rough but it wasn't rape that's just how things are Megan and I'm not going to keep apologising for this when I did nothing wrong"
Harper
I f*****g hate him and I f*****g hate buck his wolf. I hate him so much Megan it hurts to be near him. Buck feels the same, they are never going to admit that we are right. Just keep swimming, just keep swimming..
I sing our mantra over and over again trying to block the images from that night and I look at him with tears streaming down my face
"If it wasn't rape then why do I feel dirty and disgusting, that I'm tainted and ruined forever, if it wasn't rape why is my wolf terrified of you. If it wasn't rape why do I feel unsafe in your presence because of what you did"
His eyes snap to mine and drill into me, he pushes me against a wall and I see his wolf has control and my body starts to shake
"She should be f*****g scared of me little chick"
"Buck let go and let xander back"
"He doesn't want to come back, he's sick of your whining. Stop acting like a f*****g victim when you have been treated like every other mate has been treated before you. You're all the same. Never shut their mouths''
His grip on my neck tightens and I suddenly wish I was linked to the pack so I could call for Brian.
"Let go now or I will put you on your ass"
I spit out at him. Pissed that Xavier let his unstable crazy wolf out. He laughs cruelly at me
"Oh please do try little chick"
I growl and ignite my chest not hitting his hand but close enough that he can feel the heat from my fire. He holds on for a few more seconds and I smirk at him and make my fire hotter. Still not touching him but it didn't need to touch him to hurt him. It's so hot your skin could easily melt away.
He screams and jumps away holding his arm and I smile. Then I realise xaviers back and I growl and stuff him up the wall and pull on my fire so my arm ignites. Not touching him but it's there as a precaution.
"How f*****g dare you unleash that monster near me. I will f*****g kill him next time he comes out and I don't give a f**k what anyone says! DO YOU UNDERSTAND!!!!"
He looked shocked at my sudden burst of anger.
"Megan, what are you talking about? Unleash who?"
Confusion hits me through the bond and I pull back and suddenly realise he doesn't know.
"Your wolf just came out and threatened us I nearly had to burn him to push him back"
His eyes widened and I could feel the confusion through our bond.
"I don't remember. I'm so sorry Megan. He must have hidden it from me. How did he do that?"
Honesty was the next emotion that I felt and for the first time since meeting him I relaxed.
"What do you remember from the night you marked me?"
I was curious. He seems to think
"Well we were talking then kissing then buck said you told us you wanted to do it then we made love under the stars then buck said you told him to mark you so we did. Buck said It got a little rough but nothing unusual"
My jaw opened
"Hang the f**k on! You weren't present when it happened? Because that's not what happened?"
I climb out and wrap myself in a towel and hand him another.
"What happened?"
He looked baffled
"You kissed me and I tried to pull away and you wouldn't let me and I tried to push you off but you wouldn't stop. I tried to scream and get you off. I even bit your tongue to stop you and you got rougher. I told you no but you carried on until eventually Harper took me into our mind to shield us both from the pain. It was rape"
He started to cry. Like really sob and cry. He fell to the ground and he cried like a damn baby.
Harper
What in the hell? Has buck been blocking him out? Did he really not know?
Me
I don't know I'm so confused
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Xaviers POV
Me
You i***t you nearly got us burnt!
Buck
Don't care she wouldn't shut up
Me
Well she's not going to trust us now is she!
Buck
Just blame it on me or something. At least until the marks appear, that fire burns like a bitch
Me
Fuck sake I hate acting. Help me cry this is your fault so you can help me cry and save us before she tells her damn brother
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Megan's POV
"I'm going to get dressed"
I walked past him and let him cry unsure of what to say or do. But my consciousness pulls me back.
If he had really no idea what happened then he's just as much of a victim as I am. I grab clothes for him and walk back into the bathroom and his tears have stopped and he looks at me.
Regret, fear, sorrow, terror flitted through the bond and I knew I was right. He was in fact a victim of his wolf.
"Megan, I don't understand why you stayed. I'm so sorry I can't believe he did that to you. You're our mate. We are meant to love you and protect you"
"I stayed because he threatened me and made me feel crazy. I kept telling you what happened and now I realise you had no idea but the things you said to me, made me feel crazy for even thinking it so that's why I stayed, that and Brian. I know I'm safe in your presence if he is around"
More tears fell from his eyes but he tried to shake them off
"What can I do to right this wrong? What can I do to help make this better?"
I think about it and throw him some clothes and look away.
"Keep buck locked up until I talk to my gran to see if there is a way to stop him taking over. If you feel him come out, push him back. I don't want him and Harper definitely doesn't want him. Secondly I know this is weird but when I sleep I want Brian to be beside me until I'm comfortable around you.
I don't know why but I feel extremely safe in his presence and he helps me sleep. 3 take it slow and I mean real slow. Just let me make the moves until I can trust you. And number 4 I want a real apology. A real I'm so f*****g sorry for scarring you for life. I don't know maybe a new bike or something"
I chuckle and try to lighten the mood. I'm not actually serious, his apology is already accepted. Now I know it wasn't him I forgive him.
"You can have all of that including the bike"
I shake my head
"No, I was joking about the bike. I forgive you, just let me trust you before you try and kiss me or anything. Let me do that stuff ok?"
"Ok I promise"
"Good. My brother is bound to be here now so fix your face so they don't know you have been crying. And another thing this stays between us. I don't want your reputation to be swayed because of something your wolf did. It's not your fault and you are just as much of a victim as I am"
He stood up and smiled at me
"May I give you a hug"
I nod and open my arms and he falls into them hugging me tightly and for the first time since meeting him I smile at the contact. He pulls away and grins
"Thank you"
I nod and smile back.
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Xaviers POV
Me
Damn we should have done this a long time ago look at her she's actually starting to trust us
Buck
Hahaha it's almost funny how easy she is to manipulate isn't it
Me
It really is. If we keep this up we could be back in her pants in no time hahahaha
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Megan's POV
I pull out my leather pants and pull them up and sigh as they get stuck under my butt. Xavier chuckles and before I even ask him he pulls them up for me.
"Thank you"
"No problem"
I go in search of a T-shirt and decide on a yellow vest top and throw on a leather jacket with some doc martens. I brush my tangled hair out and throw it in a braid and twist it around into a bun and pin it to the back of my head. When I'm done I look myself over and smile satisfied.
"Come I want to show you something"
Xavier says and holds out his hand, I take it grabbing my phone along the way. We head into the bedroom beside ours and I stop and gasp. My pr packages are to one side. The other side sat a large crystal desk and opposite that was a huge floor length mirror that almost took up most of the wall.
"I wasn't sure what you would need in a social media office but I thought this was a good start and then you can add to it in anyway you like"
I grin. I'd always wanted an office. When you get sent hundreds of packages a month it's hard to keep up. And soon they would start arriving here since I changed my address. This was perfect. I kissed his cheek.
"Thank you"
He looks like a kid on Christmas morning but my phone started to buzz and I pulled away. It was James, he was nearly here.
"Come on, my brother is nearly here. I can't wait to see him it feels like it was so long ago that I had a chance to sit and talk with him"
We rush downstairs and I walk outside and I'm surprised at how quiet everything is. I turn and look at the house and it's so beautiful. A large house with 3 floors, there is a massive wrap around porch that surrounds the house. To the left is what I assume is the old garage and to the right is definitely the new one.
A small town is below us at the bottom of the hill and houses littered the area. A small hospital sat close by, a school was on the far side of the town, a few shops and a garage. It was quiet and cute compared to my old pack.
"How many members have we got?"
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