Tu Es Le Rêve (You are the dream)

"I love you from this starry night until the everyday sunrise. I will make you feel loved everyday and I will never ever let you down. I know I've been so harsh but I will never not love you" How easy for those people to say these things but cannot act like what they've said? "Really? if you really loved me you wouldn't make me feel this way. You're always angry and I do not understand why are you so insensitive for my feelings for you. I gave you everything even my soul that I've kept for a long time but since then you act like you didn't loved me at all!"  Yes I am so harsh right now but he deserved it, I've been waiting here too long now because I thought that we'll go out on a date. It's been 4 hours that I'm waiting and you can't just expect me to be fine with it. This isn't the first time that he made me wait. I tried to be patient I really did. I loved him so much that I looked stupid already. "Please forgive me just this time please?" His eyes are full of sorrow and in just one snap I get so soft when I'm looking at him. Every time he pout his lips, every time kiss me in my cheeks even on forehead I would always forgive him immediately.  I decided to reschedule our date since it's 10 in the evening already and I want to rest even though I missed him I wanted to rest at that moment because it's just that I am so much frustrated. I see how the night became so rough because of our fights and my frustrations.  Suddenly I felt the water on my hand down to my feet, ugh what a night! so go ahead pour down from up there, such a long day and night.  Levi held my hand and we ran as fast as we could because anytime now the rain will just pour roughly. I felt a butterfly in my stomach when he held my hands yes even though we are in a relationship from 3 yrs now he's still my weakness and I always giggle every time he's doing small things like this to me. I appreciate those kind of gestures.  I can feel that he loves me even though I am not so sure now. I don't think that someone who loves a person will do this kind of thing but then I can't broke up with him. There's no way I would love another man than him. We've been through a lot of hard times but I never gave up because I'm still hoping he 'll come back to me.  Am I that stupid ? Maybe. "Hey are you okay?" wow! thanks for asking huh , after waiting for you earlier you really think I'm fine huh? "Well yeah whatever" he just smirked and then grab my waist again this butterfly won't stop buffering grrr. "Why don't we just go to our house and you sleep with me there?"  "I'm afraid that my parents will asked for me and what would I tell them?"  "Well tell them you're with me?" really? can I do that ? I know that my parents are very kind but I don't want them to think that I am too much just because I've had a boyfriend. "I can't I'm too much already,"  "At least you are being honest and truthful rather than lie." he has a point. "Well I'll try but  if they don't allow me then I won't okay?" I called my parents they're full of trust and very calm. I told them that if I could sleep to Levi's cab since it's raining too much. Sure they did allow me well yeah at least we can watch movies together and then just sleep afterwards. No to you know like the u-uh making love thingy. Oh gosh what am I thinking!?  "Shall we?" he offered his hands and we just walked until we see their home. So he get some towels and extra shirts it's too big for me but oversize shirts suits me. Good thing it's big it won't show too much skin.  He looked at me from head to toe  well he's just teasing me he knows that I don't like it but he always does anyway. This man! I  pinched his hand and his cheeks and then I play with his hair. He just laughed and he grabbed my hand suddenly he looked at me straight and kissed me shortly.  Oh my cheeks are so red now and then he hugged me tightly and he just said sorry. We've watched a lot of movies while I'm resting in his chest.  "I'm sorry for making you wait, I'm sorry that you had to go through all of those stuffs by loving me." "I just hoped that somehow you'll feel that you've learned to love me that you already forget about her."  He looked at me sadly and said "I don't think I could ever love someone as much as I loved her." There's tears formed in my eyes and my heart hurts so bad from that moment. -- I hope you liked my first part of story this is my first time writing and I hope I can finish it for 1000 words every chapters!  I would like to leave a quote every chapter here to feel our pain and lessen it more! If you're having a bad day don't worry someone will reach out for you and I hope you accept them. 'You cannot protect yourself from sadness without protecting yourself from happiness. Tears come from the heart and not from the brain. To have felt too much is to end in feeling nothing. People keep telling me that life goes on, but to me that's the saddest part.' -One of the saddest quote for me. Continue to love!