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Chapter 4. Just give up..

 *Unknown POV*

As every week, I went to visit my parents and to use that opportunity to spill my heart as well.

I'm the only one who has a key from the greenhouse I built around their tombstones... It serves as a place where I can hide to be alone from everyone.

' I'm sorry ,all I want is the best for my pack...' I kneel in front of my parents.

' I know, you can't speak with me but I have to tell you something... Something good , and not so..'

' Three months ago... I began seeing a girl in my dreams... And I think that she's the one... But she doesn't want to know me.' I said and few tears rolled down.

' Why am I so unfortunate? My childhood was so happy , I had you.. I had everything, and now, within barely twelve years I lost my parents , created a pack which requires my time twenty four seven and even met a girl who might be my mate but she doesn't even wan't to know me..!? What is this s**t !? What did I do to deserve a fate like this..!?'

Oh, for heaven's sake, why do I even try. No one will f*cking answer me anyway... I'm a guy after all, and guys don't cry. Instead, they stand firm and fight for what seems to be right without any help.

Well... Let me tell ya a surprise. Doesn't matter what's in between your legs. We all have feelings and emotions...

And now. I'm about to c***k as even my damn mate won't give a s**t about me. Should I reject her as she wants?

' Don't you f*cking dare!' Keith roared.

' Keith, don't you see that I'm f*cked up mess?'

' You are not, you'll have your happy ever after , just don't give up..' he tried reasoning with me.

' What's the point if it not coming from both sides Keith?'

' Just wait and see..'

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/ two days passed/

* Amara's POV*

Stupid witch! Stupid stupid stupid!?! Couldn't help but scold myself for my own stupidity.

I entered their territory unknowingly, well... Not entirely... I knew that it was their side the moment I stepped a foot in there. It stinks of them everywhere... I wonder how they were able to mask the smell from the west side of New York.

It's either a one-time deal with a witch, or they have one loyal, hm... I have to find out...

One of them began tailing me as I was doing so, so I guess I had no other choice than to just get rid of him, and now I'm f*cked...

I have a dead werewolf on his pack land. How I suppose to continue my research now.

Ahh.. doesn't matter. I'll just go back, I'm not here for these wolves anyway...

'Aunt' or so I thought Rowena will get my revenge, why this broken wolf took her attention in the first place, I'm the one she should've looked for and cared for when my own mother didn't, but yet, she didn't even know of my existence, so why the hell am I so mad at her..?!

I don't even know... But she will get it anyway!

As I crossed the invisible line to the east side of the city, the stench immediately disappeared. It must be a good witch that it just disappears like that... I wonder if humans smell it as well, or at least notice that something is not right on that side...

Walked back to my apartment, showered, and changed clothes, so she or they wouldn't smell it on me and moved.

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' Hi Samantha...' I said entering her studio.

Girl... I'm sorry, but I'll have to kill you...

' Hey Amara, you ready for today ?' She asked smiling friendly at me.

' Yes..'

' Great , we just have to wait few more minutes for Vicky with her girls to get ready and we can begin ..' She said and went to the locker room.

I also got ready, spread my mat on a bit of space that I have, and sat to wait for our last members... If only they could be more respectful and come earlier as the rest of us.

A few moments later, they came out of the locker room, all six of them stinking like wet dogs. After we finish, even worse, but at least Samantha doesn't stink like that.. her smell is more like human than a wolf...

I could just ask her why, but I can't as she doesn't even know of me because of my concealing spell... And as well, I bet Rowena already told her, so there is no way to come closer to her.

I wish I would've dug deeper into Rowena's memory lane, but no... I had to fish the last thing and go with it. I didn't even see how she helped her, just that she did, and it was essential for her to...

From all the time I've seen Samantha, I get this feeling that she already suffered enough, but at the same time, I can't reverse my threat to Rowena, can I...?

I don't know why, but the more I meet her, the less I wanna kill her. What is wrong with me...

' Amara, you alright?' she asked out of nowhere... Must have dazed.

' Oh.. um , yes , sorry..' She smiled.

' No worries girl, if you need a shoulder to let it out on , I'm here...' she suggested friendly.

Stop being so nice to me! I gonna kill you goddammit, and this isn't helping.

' It's alright , but thanks..'

'Okay then.. let's finish it .'

' Lotus for five and we are done for today..' She told to all of us.

* Samantha's POV*

' Thank you girls for coming , see you after two weeks..' I thanked them after we finished.

Uhm, I think Vicky was her name, came to me after others left.

' Is everything alright?' She asked concerned.

' Yes, why should it be not?' I asked not understanding.

' You'll be gone for two weeks .. I was just wondering if it's because something bad happened in your life... Uh.. I'm sorry it's just that you are a rogue, young and alone and I wanna know more about you, before you ask, I don't know why..' She explained shyly.

' Oh , it's alright, I'll go on vacation to Paris for those two weeks .. planned this trip three months ago.. You know, need to rest from everything once in a while..' I answered her.

' O.. Oh.. l..'

' By the way, are you still free today?' She asked smiling after a moment.

' Why you ask?'

' You haven't texted me as you said you would... So I thought maybe today you would like to hang out.'

' O.. Um, thanks Vicky, but I have to get ready and everything... still , I appreciate your invitation..'

'Okay... ' She said sounding kind of.. sad?

' Nice vacation for you then .. and um , maybe we can meet after you are back..' She told and left the studio.

I have no idea what the hell is going on, but this girl... She shows way more attention to me than she's expected to... Maybe she's the wicked witch Rowena mentioned in the letters she began sending me a month ago.. just with a different identity...

' Miss Samantha , enjoy your vacation...' Guard said.

' Oh , thank you so much! See you after two weeks .' he just nodded happily and I left.

Reached the apartment.

' Sam?' heard Ava speak.

' Yes, hey ..' I said coming into the living room.

' How was your day?' She asked.

' Good, thanks , girls wished me nice vacation and ..that's it...'

' Alrighty then..., will you join me for the evening?' She asked patting the space next to her on the couch.

' Oh, Ava , thanks , but I wanna go to rest..' She nodded with a small smile and I went to the shower, then to my room.

Oh goddess, here we go again... Rollercoaster of pain begins... Yeah, that's how I call sleep from now on... Every time I see him, it brings back The memory... I know why I see him by now... I tied the knots eventually. He supposes to be my first/second chance mate.. but... but I just can't go through it again because I'm hundred percent sure of it coming out as a failure as well...

- Dream-

Where in the hell am I now... I thought while the location I'm at came into vision. Oh, f...

Is this a joke... I hope it's only a dream location because I scented a werewolf by that lake then ... I'll have to stop going there.

As I said, when I stood up on the ground, I began recognizing the location I was at... I was correct! It's the same lake I ran to the first day I arrived, and here he is, sitting on the side of it. He noticed me the moment I touched the ground...

' Come.. Sit .' he said.

I just stood frozen as every other time, I have no wish to engage in a conversation with him...

He turned to look at me.

'Please.. It's so hard to know you , when you won't even speak to me , I only heard your voice once... Please.' he almost begged.

I let out a breath and went to sit next to him, but not too close, like two or three feet away...

' Why ? Why are you afraid of me..?' he asked sadly.

Ugh!

I thought for a while of what to tell him so he wouldn't think that I was getting warmer...

' I can't be with you...' I said quietly.

He looked me in the eyes without a word for a while.

His blue eyes.. there's too many emotions in them right now, but mostly I can recognize sadness and.. pain...?

' Why?' he tried again.

I didn't answer.

' Well ,if you want to reject me , you'll have to kill me .' he retorted and disappeared.

Ironic huh?

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