AlekTHE YACHT IS cruising on autopilot because I fear I’ll kill both Ella and myself with my inattention this morning. And that’s because all I can focus on is the fact Ella was pleasuring herself in our bed last night.
Yes, I pretended to be asleep because I knew she was spying on me in the shower. It was an honest mistake leaving the door open. I was so preoccupied thinking about how close we were to getting caught that I completely forgot to close the door.
But when I heard the mattress shift, I knew she was watching me, and the fact pleased me more than I care to admit. I didn’t put on a show. I just wanted to get out of the shower and hope that maybe what happened would have helped Ella open up somehow.
But she staged sleep when I entered the bedroom, shooting my hopes to hell.
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