A love like yours

It could all come crashing down.

I talked to Rey about the issue of finding my parents earlier and he was fully on board. We're planning on going tomorrow.

I'm nervous as hell. Three years is no joke. A million questions are running through my mind. What if they've all died? What if they've left the area? What if they're still there and want nothing to with me? What if my daughter does not get accepted by them? What if they chase me away like a dog... Just like they did when my pregnancy was discovered? I sigh deeply as I go through the possibilities.

I fill the tub up with water and add foam bath. I poured in some lavender oil as well and let the bath salts work their magic. It worked well, I must say, I came out feeling rejuvenated. My skin felt nice and sleek.

I moisturize my body with cocoa butter scented lotion and took the fresh scent in as I did so. I'll never get used to this scent. I could just lick it right off my body.

I sprayed some perfume all over my naked body and picked out my favorite jumpsuit. It's a nice, hot red and was lacy on top. A really good way to accentuate all my curves.

Rey walked in just as I was bending over to fasten my shoe strap.

"Hey baby, where are you going looking so stunning? " He asks

"Nowhere, I just feel like being pretty today. " I respond, silently watching the jealousy come onto the surface. I shake my head at him. No one's taking me from him

"You're always pretty love. Oh and believe you me... I know I'm the only man in your life. "

"Thanks, and believe me, I know. I've been meaning to talk to you about something."

"Oh no. " I lightly s***k his arm

"I'm dead serious. "

"And I'm all ears. "

"You know how I appreciate everything you've done for us right? "

"Yes, it's my duty after all." He says shrugging.

"But I do feel like your spending habits are getting a bit out of control. What if all of this comes crumbling down and we're put in a situation where we're forced to live the lush life behind us? We don't have any savings or an emergency fund in place. "

He chuckles. This guy can be an i***t sometimes I roll my eyes.

"What's funny? " I ask, getting annoyed.

"That you some so serious about something that small. I know it's good that you think about our future but seriously, going to the bank and opening an account is not anything so big that you'd even have to sit me down first. You seriously need to let loose."

"Don't call it small!" I say to him slowly losing control of my temper. "Gosh! You can be so irresponsible at times!"

Rey: And then when we beat you girls up the whole world goes ablaze talking about Gender-Based Violence. I wonder if they stop to think that some of us get provoked.

I was now beyond the boiling point. I could feel my cheeks heating up. I know that they have turned into a dark green color by now.

Me: Don't you ever threaten me again Are we clear? It's not like I chose to be here! I had a very bright future ahead of me! I was a very intelligent child and I was a hard worker! Maybe that's why you don't want me to go to college! Do you want me to stay here so I can be your punching bag? Live under your shadow?

Maybe you're afraid that I'll find somebody better than you, someone who won't make threats like that one.

Rey was now seated on the bed, head buried in his hands.

Rey: I didn't take you in just because I made you pregnant. I took you in because I love and care about you. That was a stupid comment, I realize that now. I'll never lay a hand on you baby, that's my promise to you for as long as I live. I'm sorry, that was stupid of me.

I hate how weak he makes me feel.

Me: I forgive you, but don't do it again.

Rey: Never.

Me: I should go tell Royalty that we're leaving tomorrow.

I find her sitting in the living room area with her grandmother and grandfather.

Royalty: Hey mommy!

Me: We're leaving tomorrow very early in the morning. I should braid your hair.

Royalty: No mommy. I want curly hair like daddy's . I smiled as when she those words. It warms my heart up to see how fond she is of her father. She's a replica of him, inside and out. They have the most beautiful, green, tiny eyes and full lips, short in height ... unlike me, I got a bit of everything from both my parents. I got My father's grey eyes, my mother's hips, and butt and my father's tall frame. My hair is... course.. sort of...

argh! I don't know how to classify my hair.

After doing Royalty's hair, we all went to bed.

Friday came and I was nervous as hell. I woke up at four and started preparing food and snacks for everybody. I then proceeded to take a bath. After bathing, I got dressed in a floral print maxi dress and black genuine leather sandals. My family is humble...Or should I say was? I went to check on royalty and found her splashing water all over the place.

I bathed her and lotioned her body. I then dressed her up in shorts and a tank top and paired it up with her favorite pair of Nike sneakers. I didn't want her looking fancy.

I then made my way to my bedroom only to find Rey all dressed up. He wore his Gucci jeans, Polo T-shirt, and ans Gucci sneakers.

Rey: I know, I know, you told me to dress up like an average person, but it's just not me. I don't want your family to disrespect me.

He took out a bottle of Hugo Boss cologne and sprayed it on himself. I just decided to let him be. I have way more important things to worry about today.

We said our goodbyes to the Grandparents after grabbing all our luggage and food. The plan is to stay there for a week or less.

We all got inside Rey's Maroon Range Rover and buckled up.

This is the most nerve-wracking experience I've ever encountered...