001
Elara’s pov
The air alone was my prison. It was thick and hot, tasting of wet stone and my own despair. I had lost count of the days in this stone box. My body didn’t care about days. It only knew the fever.
The Rejection Heat was a living creature inside me. It had claws. It turns my belly, a feeling of pure, desperate need, and squeezed. Every breath I take is so hot. Every shift of my sweat-soaked shift against my skin was a torture of friction that promised relief but never delivered.
I was on my knees, then on my back, then curled on my side. The rough blanket was a scratchy hell. My skin felt too sensitive, too tight. A constant, low whimper in my throat, a sound I couldn’t stop.
It was the need. I was f*****g horny.
My hands moved without my permission. They pushed the soaked linen of my dress up, over my hips. The cooler air on my thighs was a shock, but it did nothing for the fire between them. My head tilted side to side on the stone floor. No, no, no…
But my fingers slid down.
I touched the slick, swollen heat there, and a broken cry tore from my lips. It was shame. It was agony. It was the only thing left.
This wasn't just pleasure. It was a mixture of pain and shame and then pleasure. My fingers circled my c**t, rough and hurried. Each touch sent a jolt through me, a spark that died almost instantly
I was so wet…no dripping
My own slickness coated my fingers, my thighs, making a filthy, sticky mess. The smell of it rose around me…wild honey turned to syrup, rain turned to steam, and underneath, something purely female and desperate.
“Please,” I sobbed to the empty dark. “Please…”
I pushed two fingers inside myself, f*****g myself on my own hand. My hips jerked off the floor, meeting the pathetic thrusts. The stretch, the movement…it was something.
It wasn’t enough. It would never be enough. The release hovered, a taunting ghost. I chased it, panting, my body bowing, every muscle straining.
Outside the bars, a guard cleared his throat. I’d forgotten they were there. Their discomfort was a thick cloud. I could feel their eyes, hear their shifted stances. My scent had them in a vise. My humiliation was a performance.
I didn’t care. Nothing existed but the ache and my failing hands.
I thought of his face. Prince Julian. His cold eyes, his lip curled in disgust as he spoke the words that shattered our bond. The memory was a very bad one.
A fresh wave of heat crested, so intense it was pain. My scent spiked, sweet and rotten and loud.
A young guard cursed softly and I heard his hurried footsteps retreating down the hall.
Alone with the other guard’s silent, rigid shame, I redoubled my efforts. My movements became frantic, ragged. I pictured not Julian, but the emptiness he left. The silence where my wolf should be. The cold void. I thrust into that void, seeking to fill it with anything, even this.
A tight coil in my belly pulled tighter, tighter… and snapped.
Please…please Julian… I whimpered.
It wasn’t bliss. It was something else. My body seized, back arching off the floor as a silent scream locked in my throat. Pleasure, sharp and shocking, ripped through the heat, a temporary fulfilment.
I convulsed around my own fingers, waves of sensation wrapping me, desperate release that left me shuddering and empty.
For three seconds, there was quiet. Just the ragged sound of my breathing, the slow drip of sweat from my brow onto the stone.
Then, as the last tremor faded, the memory hit as a sensory flood that pulled me under…taking me to how I get here in the first place.
****FLASHBACK****
The sun was warm. It was on my face, in my hair. The smell wasn’t sweat or offensive. It was lavender and freshly turned earth. I was kneeling in soft dirt….A trowel was in my hand.
I was in the Palace gardens. The west plot. The lavender by the old willow was the most potent. Head Gardener Mara needed it for the Lady Healer’s tonics.
The shadow fell over me before I heard her.
“I knew I’d find you here.”
The voice was sweet poison. I looked up. Mia. My friend. Her smile was sharp, white teeth. “The best lavender always grows near the water, doesn’t it?”
She took a step closer. The sun caught the jewels at her throat. Behind her, I could hear the faint, forbidden rush of the Springs.
“There is a special one here, come let me show you" she said and I stood up immediately
I was at the very chore trying to figure out where the flower she spoke about was and then…
My blood went cold. The trowel fell from my hand.
“Mia, don’t—”
Her hand shot out. Not to push. To offer. A single, perfect sprig of lavender. “Here. For your basket.”
Confusion froze me. I stared at her outstretched hand.
Her smile never wavered as her other hand, hidden in the folds of her expensive dress, slammed into my chest.
The world became tiny. The sun dimmed. The rush of water became a roar.
The last thing I saw was her face, leaning over the bank, watching me fall.
And the last thing I heard before the icy, enchanted water stole my breath and my wolf was her whispered word:
“Finally.”