Unknowingly falling

When he was staring

Chapter 1

The day after

I was in my own bed the next day, with the memory of last night clear in my head. I met him upstairs like he told me to, he helped me out, he went down backstairs seeing as the party was still going on, and I went home to my own house. Mission completed.

Other than feeling sore downstairs, nothing else felt weird. I only felt happy, leaving the virgin part of my life behind is something I have wanted to do for a long time, and now I have.

Maybe someday in the future I would regret it, but I can't base all the decision I make in the present of what the future might hold. I know I have to make the best to have an enjoyable future, but I also have to make an enjoyable present, because the future don't exist that way, we always live in the present.

Right now, I wanted to lose my virginity, later I might wish I hadn't given it up, so either way, I would lose, but the chance of winning would be higher by doing what I think is right in the present of my life.

Monday

I felt confident as I walked through the double doors at the school entrance. Through the whole weekend, I had still no regrets, and as promised, I felt nothing towards him. So no clinginess or attachment from my side.

I told my best and only friends Lynn and Sasha about the night the day after. They both said they were happy for me and wouldn't judge as long as I was okay with it all, and I was. Lynn is still a virgin, and unlike me, she want to really be in love with someone when she does it, but she don't think less off me.

When I was standing by my locker, I got the weird feeling, you know, the feeling when you know when someone is looking at you. I placed the books I needed in my bag and turned around, trying to hide the fact I was scanning the room for a potential stalker.

My breath caught in my throat when I saw a familiar pair of green eyes looking at me confused, but looked away as quick as I caught him, Sean, looking at me. I shook my head, I was just probably more aware of him because of that night now. Or maybe he was surprised I actually kept my word and acted like I hadn't ever asked him to take my virginity.

I decided to get to my first period classroom even though it was five minutes left until the school bell rang. Math first period on a Monday is so not good for my brain, I thought as I sighed while sitting down in my chair behind my desk. Lynn and I shared this period so I knew she would be here shortly. I had P.E with Sasha and the rest of Monday was without both of them, so that's an extra reason as for why Monday's sucks.

A few more people entered, as did Lynn. I put my phone away and smiled as I greeted her. At least she and I are sitting beside each other, making mat suck a little less. "Hey, what's up?" I ask her as she sat down. She looked stressed or something, like Caroline Forbes from The Vampire diaries when she's organizing the Miss Mystic Falls thing in season 4.

"What else happened the night you and Sean were together?" she asked looking me straight in the eyes seriously as I had left something out when I told them everything.

"I don't understand, you know everything that happened" I said honestly, not understanding where she was coming from.

"Then why was he like staring at you for what seemed like several minutes earlier when you got your books from the locker?" she retorted, making me burst out laughing. That was what she was making a big deal out of?

"He wasn't staring, maybe he doesn't really remember that night and think he has seen me before, but can't figure out from where, because let's be honest, he didn't even knew I existed before that night, but now it is just something familiar about me that he can't remember, that's all" I chuckled at her.

"And you're sure you're so okay with that, that your first doesn't even remember you?" she said concerned for me. She and I were on different plans on that, so I could see why she was so worried for me, but I wasn't thinking it was such a big deal.

"Yeah, it's not like I'm into him or anything, I just needed him for one night to help me out, not because he is a nice guy or anything, but because he was the one most guaranteed to be the one to help me out." I shrugged.

"As long as you're okay, I'm okay" she smiled. That is a reason she's my best friends. We may have different ideas about how certain things should be done, but we wouldn't want anything else for each other. I wouldn't want her to be so okay about giving away her virginity like that just because I was, because that's not who she is, and the other way around.

The school is screeching sound of the bell rung, making the rest of the students crowding the classrooms.

"So, got any plans for the weekend, I was thinking shopping," she said, "unless you wanted to go to another party?" she said unsurely. I laughed at her unsubtle way of asking I planned on jumping into bed with someone again.

"Just because I had s*x once doesn't mean I'm going to sleep around each weekend, mall is fine to me" I laughed. She blushed embarrassed by her own question.

"I'm sorry, I wasn't assuming anything like that, I just...I don't know" she groaned. I was just amused, not insulted or anything.

"It's already forgotten" I said, waving my hand in the air as a sign of brushing away the funny question.

**

I let out a huge yawn and stretched my hands in the air as the torture of math ended and I could finally leave the room and heading for something at least one point better, P.E. I parted with Lynn, saying I would catch up with her at lunch as I headed for the girls locker room where Sasha would be.

My gym outfit consisted of beige colored training shorts and a crimson red tank top, and of course white jogging shoes.

"Hey, how was English" I asked her as I placed my gym bag beside her on the bench in our locker room. She was standing with one foot on the bench, tying her shoe. I know this will seem weird, but I had changed into my gym outfit at home seeing as I had P.E second period anyway, so I had my normal clothes in the gym bag instead.

"Boring as usual, how about you?" she replied as she finished tying her other shoe.

"Okay, at least I have Math with Lynn so it wasn't completely and utterly boring" I said as I put my hair into a high ponytail.

We walked out onto the field together where a few people already were, but not all. Sasha and I change quickly, not using an eternity like most girls. I got the weird feeling again like this morning, when someone was watching me.

I just shrugged it off, at a school you were surrounded by people all the time, so someone was bound to see you at one point. I felt Sasha bumping my shoulder. I gave her a weird look, but she nodded her head to the side.

Curios, I looked past her and met the same green eyes of Sean as I did this morning. He did the same thing and quickly looked away as he realized I saw him looking at me. Huh, this is weird, or is both time just a coincidence? Probably.

"Don't you think that's weird, the way he was staring at you?" Sasha whispered to me, stealing a glance at Sean where he was now chatting with his friends.

"Nah, because the 'it' doesn't exist, he wasn't staring" he I said casually, but my mind kept wondering back to that night. If we hadn't done it, would I still have caught him looking my way two times in one day?

"He was, he so was!" she insisted. Out of the three of us, I was the one who slept with him, but both she and Lynn were acting more obsessed over him when they hadn't.

"Even if he was, so what? We're not into one another," I said exasperated.

"Just saying, something definitely changed that night" she half mumbled, backing down when she noticed I was starting to get annoyed.

When the rest of the people came onto the field and the class started we were ordered to run three laps around the field as starters. Running had never been a problem for me, I actually loved running. Give me a cloud free sunny day, an iPod with my favorite songs and time for running and I'm the happiest person alive.

I loved the feeling of the air as it become slightly chilly as I ran, the way my hair seemed to fly and shine in the sun, I felt so free, and it was nothing better than that. Except my mind was a little more conflicted this time. Was Sasha right when she said she was sure something had changed that night? Why was I even thinking about it? Even if she was right, it was nothing I cared about.

I usually weren't so clumsy, but my mind was elsewhere right now, so I didn't noticed when I stepped wrong in my fast tracks and lost my balance and fell forward to the ground, scraping my elbows as I protected my face from the dreadful fall.

"Oh my god, Mary, are you okay?" Sasha asked, looking at me worriedly, sitting down on her knees beside me, as I got up in a sitting position with pain shooting trough my knees and elbows. A pained hiss escaped through my lips.

I had scraped up both knees and elbows. I got up in a standing position, holding onto Sasha, otherwise I would fall.

"You should probably go to the nurse's office, to cleanse the wounds," Sasha said, I nodded in agreement.

"Everything okay over there?" coach asked from the middle of the field.

"I think she needs to go to the nurse" Sasha answered for me as I halted while holding onto her shoulder.

"You able to walk on your own or do you need someone to take you?" he asked, probably noticing how incredibly slow I walked, even with the support of my friend.

"I can take her" another voice suddenly spoke up. We turned our head to the source of the voice. It was Sean. Wait, back up; Sean offered to take me to the nurse? There was no logic in that, Sasha could take me.

"That's okay, Sasha can take me" I answered and gave him one of my confused 'wtf' looks. He raised in eyebrows at the look I gave him.

"That's actually a good idea Sean. Sasha, you missed P.E last time when you had the flu, you shouldn't miss out on anymore if it can be avoided" our coach answered. Is he serious? Sasha groaned, realizing what he said was true. She had after all missed P.E last week.

So that was how ended up carried out of the field by Sean, one arm on my back, and the other under my knees, bridal style I think it's called, while most people watched in shock. I was just as confused as the rest of them.

The silence between us lasted all the way to the nurse's office and was plain awkward. I just prayed in my mind that he was really drunk that night and didn't remember, at least then I could also pretend that there wasn't any weirdness between us.

He awkwardly opened the door with the hand on my back, is faces inching a little closer to mine by the movement, making me look the other way. Please god, let this awkward moment be over soon, make him leave as soon as he has dropped me off here.

"My god, what happened?" The nurse gasped when we walked trough the door, or well, he walked, and I was carried. He sat me down on one of the nurse's beds. Finally, now I can breathe again and he can go.

"I tripped in P.E and scraped my knees and elbows, I just need to get the wounds rinsed. I think" I explained her. Why wasn't Sean leaving, what's the point by staying by the door like a statue?

"Of course you need to rinse the wounds, you probably have got some dirt in the wounds. I will get some stuff to clean it" she said, standing up from the chair behind the desk and went to trough a door to another room, connected to this one.

"Uhm, thanks for taking me here. You should probably go now so you won't have to miss out on the class" I said awkwardly. How was it so easy to talk to him the previous weekend, but not now? It didn't make sense.

"Okay, you sure?" he surprised me by asking.

"Uh, yeah, I'm sure. Why are you being like this?" I said, needing to get an answer on his weird behavior towards me.

"Being like what?" he said like he had no idea what I'm talking about. Either he was a good actor, or he really didn't know.

"Friendly. You and I never talk, and you volunteer to take me to the nurse's office" I said. I know we talked, did more than talking that one night, but that doesn't count, because we don't talk in general, and we're supposed to keep our distance as we always did anyway.,

"You want me to be rude instead then?" he shot back. I rolled my eyes.

"No, just go. I can take care of myself from here" I said, trying to get rid of him. This was ridiculous. I had to defend myself saying I was not going to be clingy, yet, I have to be the one to push him away.

"Fine, I'll leave" he said, rolling his eyes and turned around walking out the door. What's up with this guy? Maybe he drank last night and is still a little drunk or something, or have a weird hangover.

Whatever it is, I'll just hope it is one weird day with awkward encounters and is gone the next day.