chapter 5
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" I was preaching fiercely in my mind . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .. . . . .. . . . . .
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he saw my change of expression and said something ..
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"Friends say not to tell the person who is going to tie the knot about other loves or girls . .
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I feel that there is a point . . "
" Hey . . . . nothing . .
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I was thinking about that child..she will be a girl like me .. "
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" Oh , don't worry about that , it's been two months since she got married . . . . .
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she must be living happily with husband . " He laughed . . . . .
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I remembered , , that's right , just like me , ,she will be transplanted from one person to another .. she will be living happily ... she can forget everything , he must be thinking that she is happy . all men say the same thing,,girls forget everything quickly..when they find someone else, with them .
It will go away. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .
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That day when I got home I had to turn on the phone they gave me . . all his family members called...mother, sister, elder brother , their wife ... everyone ,,, I smiled and talked to everyone ,, the one who wanted I was not given any recognition ... the people I wanted didn't call me .. I realised that I got what I deserved .. . . . . . .. . . ..
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The family members see me laughing and talking . . . . . .
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When everyone was about to eat together, mother said , " Oh ! What a good-natured family member . . .. . .. .
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what a thing for everyone . . . . . .
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that is, everyone can call and talk about things that the family likes , etc .,," .. . . . .. . .. . . .. . . .. . . . ..
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The food was not coming out of my throat . . . .. . .. . .. . . .
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I drank some water and swallowed it .
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When I went to buy clothes for the wedding , I laughed and played with everyone and chose the clothes . When I looked at myself and my clothes in the mirror , my aunt heard me and said to everyone , " Where are you now ? How happy she would have been if she tied him ? Don't you see ... how happy , this is all ..." I changed my clothes and walked to the trial room . Aunty's mole came after me while moving . I put my head on her shoulder and she comforted me when I was crying . . . . . . . . . . . . .. . .. . . ..
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" It's okay, don't listen to what mom says , they won't think that this will hurt you . . . . . . .. . .. . . . .. . . .. . . . ..
never mind . . "
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I had to talk to him late into the night until the wedding day ..
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No one at home was worried about who I was calling or how much I was talking to ..
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They were sure that I would never cheat on them again ... .
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I had to talk on the phone till the wee hours. .
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And don't you see now ..
The harp is the same for the Naturopathy ,, Da Ketaki Okay ..That's all ..
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" I cursed my bad behavior ..
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Now there is nothing wrong with me waking up late and talking to the Mid night . .
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There is nothing wrong with it ,,,
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That is the best thing when I give head to their interests ,, It would be good ... but these accusations ,, comparisons ...
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if it wasn't for that .........
On the day of the wedding , when I was laughing and shaking my head with him in the middle of the girls playing Appana on the big stage with a lot of excitement, a neighbour came and noticed my jewelry and said loudly to me , . . . .. . . .. . . . .. . . .. .. . .h o y . . . . . . .. . . .. . . . .. . . h o y. . .. . . .. . . . . . .. .. . . .. . . . . . .. . .. . . . . . . .. . . . .. . . . .. . . . . . .. . . . . .
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" What now , honey ? Where are you now ?" I understood what they meant from the look on their faces . He asked even louder . "Now what? /!!!"-
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I was filled with tears, the parrot suddenly went down . ..
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He was talking with his friends..Amid the noise and colors for me, my cries and tears lost their sound and color . . . . . . .. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .
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I wanted to be loved because of character or some other genuine reasons without wealth or beauty to claim ..
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inner love not based on any outward appearances..that was the truth for me .. !!
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But I didn't feel any love for the person who was chosen by my family and married me with my qualifications that were not mine ...
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I doubted if he would love me if I was lacking in many things, or if I was missing something ...
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After the wedding .. everything went like that . then I had to go abroad with my husband .. I had children .. with every good fortune , the family members said , " How is it now ? If it was the other him , would it be like this now ... Ol just jumped around then and now what happened ? " I had to listen to them say ... that's all ...
It's true ... if it was the other one , then nothing like this would have happened ,,, it would have been different ,,, everything would have been different . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .. . . . . . .. . . . . . . .. . . .. . .. . . . . . . . . .. . . . . . .. .. . . . .. . .. . . .. . . .. . . .. . . . . . . . . .. . . . . . . . . . . .. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .. . . . .. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .. . . . . . .. . . . . . . .. . . . . . . . .. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .. . . . . . . .. . . . . . . . .. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .. . . . . . . . . . .. . . .. . . . . . . . .. . .. . . .. . . .. . . . . . . . . . . . .. . . . . . . . . .. . . . . . . . . . . . .. . . . . . .. . . . . . .. . . . . . . .. . . .. . . . . . .. . . . . . .. .. . . . . . . .. . . . . . . . . .. . . . . .. . . . . . . . . . . . .. . . . . . . . . .. . . . . . . . .. . . . .. . . . . . .
Everything . . . . . .. . . . .. . . . . . . . . .. . . . .. . . .. . . . . .. . . . . . . . .. . . . .. . . . .. . . .. . . . . . . . .. . . . .. . . . . . . . . . .. . .. . . . .. . . . . .. .. . . .. .. . . . . . . .. .. . . . . . . . . . . . .. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . life goes on . . . . . . . . .
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