I couldn’t calm down. I had sent River a long detailed email. My mind couldn't help but conjure all manners of scenarios. Was she disappointed or disgusted? Had I ruined our years of online friendship? Was she alerting the police of my criminal background? All these questions had no answer. I have no idea what I would do if she cut ties with me. Even if it is my fault for lying. In conclusion, I am a terrible friend. I deserve no friendship rights. Is this why I am single? Why won't she reply back it has been exactly three hours since I sent the email, three hours of my wallowing in self-loathing and impending panic attacks. I was brought back from my spiraling thoughts when my phone buzzed. I hurriedly reached for my phone and checked the notification, it was from River. Thank heavens, I
