Secret Existence

"Agape"

For some reason, my mood took a whole three-sixty degree turn, and now, I feel energized. Not that I wasn’t happy before, but with all these new feelings and experiences, I felt as if I had to hold it in. Yes, the fear of the unknown, fear of being too distracted by all the excitement, makes me feel like I have to be so on guard all the time. It feels like the mere second I let go, my whole world will crash.

“What are you thinking about? *no response* Hey, Jaedae, babe…?”

“Huh? Oh, I’m was just zoned for a bit, that’s it.” I plastered a small smile toward him. “What were you saying?”

“Are you ready to go out? We’re here.”

Oh, we’re at Electric Dusk. This is a usual hot spot for people who want to just hang and watch movies old school style. Well, it’s more so a hangout for teens; you can say the top five high schools in Los Angeles come here on weekends. Yeah, so note that. I looked outside to see crowds of people going to and fro from their vehicles and the food places. Anyway, before I could answer, I turned to see Tyler already waiting and intensely staring me down while leaning on the door. I took his hand and he helped my landing on the ground. I always admired him for his great chivalry; he never seems to fail in that aspect.

A great number of eyes were looking on at us as usual. I’ve gotten used to all the attention having had my life being watched constantly by everybody. However, I knew the onlookers stared for an added reason now. Unfortunately, we all know what that is. Tyler, sensing my slight tension, squeezed my hand and whispered, “Don’t worry baby, you sit here and I’ll get the snacks and beverages.” He kissed my temple and I watched as he walked off.

I don’t know why but, good heavens, that “boy” is definitely attractive; front and back alike. As mad as I am, well my fury has quelled a little, I have a big heart for him. My eyes took him in. The lenses of my orbs zoomed in on his perfectly chiseled face, his asymmetrical features, and his muscular toned body. The way his piercing eyes could always pull you in; it’s always a rush when one is captured in his entrancing spell and you’re only focused on what he wants you to. I must admit, a girl could easily let him control her every being and her every movement, her mind if he wanted. Hence, it is absolutely important for me, ever since I started dating him, to let myself get too into is addicting persuasion. My brothers would always warn me and school me about the Velasquez brothers even though they were strangely the best of friends. Now that I have him, now that I love him, yes I love him still, I try my absolute best to not let this relationship get overbearingly toxic.

“Jaedae? Am I speaking to the right one?” My little daydream was interrupted by a soothing voice that made me turn.

“Ah, it is she. It’s such a pleasure to see you again Belle.” He smiled widely at me with bright eyes.

I giggled a little and nodded back at him. Being the mannerly person I am, I jumped off the folded soft top of the car. I took note of how he immediately rushed over to help me get down. On the contrary, I didn’t necessarily need it because I’ve down crazy things being a gymnast.

“How are you, Jourdan?”

“Honestly, I was super excited to be back on the scene, especially now that I’ve seen you again.”

“Oh, really. Where have you been?”

“Oh, my family had to go back to London for some time. You know, my dad’s work and all.”

“Wow, I had no idea. Dad didn’t tell us anything from what I remember. That, and his work doesn’t allow him home often.”

“Mhm. It’s okay now we can hang out like we usually do when we were younger.”

“Yeah, I don’t see why not.” I gave him genuine smile.

“Hey babe, what are we talking about?”

Tyler. He came back with a wide range of delicious stuff on a tray-like carrier. Both boys tensed at the sight of each other. Is it just me or did their eyes just glow? Even though they smiled at each other, I could sense the clear discomfort in their countenance. Tyler held me tighter to himself and I could feel a slow and painful pressure on my waist. Dang, he’s way too strong. Some way, somehow I managed to pull out of his grip and soothed my reddened skin. My eyes caught Jourdan’s impulsive urge to aid me but I shook my head; signifying I was fine.

“Sorry babe.” Tyler looked at me with sorrow-filled eyes and kissed my cheeks.

“It’s okay really. Excuse me, I need to find the restroom.”

“Okay…” They both responded in synchronization and glared at each other.

“Wait, take my jacket. It’s cold.” Tyler pulled his jacket around me and I went off.

I mean seriously, what is their deal? There is no way they know each other. If I’m correct, Jourdan has been gone for five years now. Pshh, when will all the drama in my life settle down? My boyfriend and the boy who was my good friend and once rumored admirer in one place. It’s all just crazy.

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“What are you doing here dog?!”

“I should be asking you that sucker. Listen, I just came over to catch up with my good friend, why so intense?”

“Pshh, if that’s all, I’d love it if you didn’t ruin my date. Now shoo!”

“Look, don’t get all territorial, she’s not a possession.”

*scoffs* “That’s your thing.” Tyler smiles smugly and sets the tray on the car seat.

“You may have won her heart once more, but if you slip up, AGAIN, she’ll be gone in the blink of an eye.”

“Keep wishing, that won’t happen.”

“Weeellllll, from what I’ve heard, you’ve gotten a yellow card already.”

“….”

“What, cat got your tongue? Well, I hope Belle enjoys her time. Remember, just a slip, sucker.”

He warns and goofs off to the music that’s coming to an end which also signifies the start of the movie. Tyler looks over at Jourdan’s group of friends to see their mischievous faces and how they cackle while looking at him. He snared and reshifted his focus when he heard the movie starting and as if on time, Jaedae hops on top of the seat and focuses on the opening scene before her also.

“Tyler?”

*still focuses on the movie* “I love you, regardless. Just wanted to reassure you of that.”

His attention now focused on me and the same for me. He shocked beyond his wits but his expression soon changed. He glowed happily and engaged me in a warm and passionate kiss.

“I love you, always.”