The blossoms

5.

My sister made it down to the basement before me, she saw him lying there lifeless. My mom screamed for us to call for help, kids from school who previously gave me a hard time were outside as the peramedics put him into the ambulance. The blood stain on the driveway stayed for a while, telling the neighbors and anyone who drove by that something had happened. 

We were bounced around families homes while my mom stayed with him in the hospital, then when he was moved into a physical therapy hospital. He suffered from a gun shot to the head that a lot of the family believes happened due to an accidental fire as he went to point the gun at my mom. No body is for sure and of course he never dares tell what he planned to go down that day. He had taken so many drugs and the actions he was trying to do when my mom told him we were leaving will still remain a mystery. 

When he was finally discharged my mom and him came home, We finally had the power over him, he couldn't hurt us anymore. He sure did try though, but we could not escape. I finally got to start enjoying my life a little. I was able to be sneakier and sneak my friends into the basement where my bedroom now was. I had to change it considering a lot of my abuse happened in that room that it haunted me until i did change it. 

Although the abuse had ended i till had many other issues, the years of abuse left me broken, just a shell of a person designed to make others happy. Well the shell finally cracked, I became aggressive, almost blood thirsty. Along with that i had no control over my emotions. It wasn't until my mom divorced him and kicked him out that I was then 18 ad began seeking counseling. I needed help.

I still felt alone, I eventually met a man, and jumped into a very serious relationship, I became a step-mom, I stopped taking care of myself again, I got married and started lashing out on my husband. The broken abused girl is now becoming the abuser, on her way to meet the same fate of the wheelchair like her abuser, only this time not due to her own hand, but due to bone issues she was born with. Struggling with fertility and trying to regain control of herself again before everything is too late.