Chapter 9: The list
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Molly
Tricks words had started off a little hard to hear but ended so beautifully, I couldn’t believe he was mine.
When we went out I struggled in the town, it was just about bearable as a human and with practicing to get used to it, now it was just too much, everything was so loud, people talking sounded like they were shouting, peoples shoes on the ground was deafening, even the pigeons as they flapped their wings was too much, I covered my ears and sat down on a bench rocking back and forth. Trick bent down and said, “stay here, I’ll be back in a few minutes ok?”
I didn’t answer him, and he walked off, about fifteen minutes later he came back and started opening a box up, I didn’t look to see what it was as I was too overwhelmed to focus.
“Molly,” Trick gently but firmly pulled my hands away from my ears, and then he slid on some headphones, I think they were noise-cancelling ones because everything seemed so much quieter. I calmed down, and I looked at the price on the box, they weren’t cheap. “I’ll, give you the money back,” I said.
“No way.”
“But these are really expensive.”
He shrugged, “you needed them, think of them as a gift on our date.”
“Aw, Trick,” I smiled and leaned forward to kiss him on the cheek. “I don’t know how to make it up to you.”
“You don’t need to sweetheart, but if you really want to you can make it up to me in bed,” he teased.
“That would just be another gift for me,” I laughed.
He laughed too, but when I tried to cuddle him he moved back. “What’s wrong?” I asked.
“Nothing, sorry, I’m just not comfortable being affectionate outside.”
“Because you’re embarrassed of me?”
A look of panic was on his face and he quickly said, “no, that’s not it at all, I swear, I just, I’ve spent my whole life being cold and unaffectionate, I was never allowed to show softness or kindness, never allowed to cry, so being openly affectionate makes me feel…” he trailed off and went quiet, I knew he didn’t like talking about deep things too much but for me, he usually made an effort because he knew I needed direct communication. In the end he finished, “I just, I feel vulnerable I guess, and it makes me uncomfortable.”
“You are going to have to learn a little bit if you have a mate now,” I smiled.
He laughed softly and nodded.
“You help me a lot with my autism, you’re very good at helping me regulate, and it helps that you communicate clearly with me even if it might hurt my feelings, so I’m going to help you too, with getting used to showing affection, first, we start slow and just hold hands.”
“Thank you for saying that, I’m glad I help you and that you feel comfortable enough around me to not mask. Ok, I’m sure I can manage hand holding,” he laughed at the end.
I stood up and held my hand out to him, and he took it, he gently lifted it to his lips and kissed the back of it lightly. We held hands and walked around for a while, and Trick led us towards an arcade. “I’m winning you a stuffed animal,” he grinned.
I loved it when he grinned, laughed or smiled, he was very rarely like that, but I had noticed he had started being more like it with me. He spent forever trying to win me a stuffed anime styled husky with a baby blue koala hoodie, even after I told him to stop wasting his money, he got it in the end and gave it to me and I hugged him tight, I felt his body stiffen, I reached up to kiss him, and he gave me a quick kiss on the cheek and moved away.
“Are you angry with me?” I asked.
“No babe.”
“Is it the affection? Is it too much?”
“Yes, sorry.”
I wanted to ask more questions, but he mentioned going to a museum in another town and I got excited.
He drove us there and when we got inside, I rushed off to look around. “Trick, come on!” I said excitedly.
“Let me pay first,” he laughed.
I rushed ahead, and a security man stopped me. “You need to pay first.”
“My boyfriend is,” I tried to move around him, but he blocked my path, “you’re going to have to wait until he has paid.”
“He’s paying as we speak, you can see him right there, so I can meet him in here.” I tried to go around him, but he blocked my path again. “You need to wait,” he said more sternly.
I was usually very shy and reserved, but when I was excited about something I could be quite insistent and stubborn about it.
I turned as if I was going to walk away, and then I tried to run past him, but he blocked me and pushed me back. “If you carry on, I’m going to have to ask you to leave.”
Trick came over and coldly said, “apologies, she has autism and is just excited, she’s not trying to cause trouble.”
The man gave a nod and stepped aside, and I ran over to the glass with a dinosaur skeleton inside. “That’s a mosasaurus,” I said as Trick came up beside me.
“Wonder if there’s weredinosaurs out there,” he said.
“Don’t be silly, of course there aren’t.”
He laughed and said, “I was joking, sweetheart.”
“Oh.” My cheeks grew hot, and I moved on to some Egyption artifacts. Trick silently followed me, allowing me to enjoy myself and explore everything, he would quietly listen to me telling him the facts of everything.
Trick wasn’t enthusiastic like me, and I asked, “do you like museums?”
I could see he was going to say something else, maybe he was going to pretend he did, but he stopped himself and said, “no, not really, but I’m happy being here with you.”
He was so sweet, and I don’t think he realised just how much. I spent so much time looking at every single thing I could that it was closing time, and we had to leave.
It was dark outside, and I turned to Trick, “I really enjoyed today, thank you for taking me even though I know you were bored the whole time.”
He gave a small laugh and said, “I wasn’t bored the whole time, I enjoyed watching you enjoy yourself, I like seeing you happy.”
I hugged him tight, and he let me, probably because it was quiet and dark. It was hard to believe he was the same man in the video Axel had shown me.
As we walked along the pavement I had this eerie feeling come over me, like we were being watched, but when I looked around, I couldn’t see anyone.
Trick didn’t seem to notice anything, so I thought maybe it was just my new werewolf senses picking up on someone or an animal in the distance.
When we got home Trick came to mine again, Paula and Jerry were sleeping over with Grayson and Lara, so I went and said goodnight to them before going to my place.
Now it was just me and Trick alone I struggled to look at him, he was so drop dead gorgeous, and I didn’t know how to act, I wanted s**x with him again, but I was too shy to ask for it.
When we were sitting on the sofa, he asked, “why have you gone all quiet?”
“I’m always quiet.”
“Yeah, but not this quiet, what’s up?”
I shrugged, and he dropped his arm around my shoulders. “Molly, what’s wrong?”
“I want s**x with you,” I whispered, my cheeks burning.
He laughed and answered, “you really don’t need to feel shy asking me for s**x, sweetheart, I’m yours, and you can do whatever you want with me.”
That was a hot answer, and it only made my cheeks grow hotter. He leaned in to kiss me, but I pulled back and said, “we should put some rules into place.”
He rose an eyebrow, “rules?”
“Yes, I have a list.” I went to grab my notebook and heard him quietly murmur, “list? Right, of course she has a list.”
I liked writing lists of things that were on my mind, a list of rules or questions, Trick was used to it by now so I grabbed the book and went back over to him and handed it to him. I watched him flick through the pages and stopped at the s**x rules one. He laughed under his breath and slowly looked through them.
“Can I give more oral s**x?” He read and then looked up at me, “you want to give me more blowjobs?”
“I’ve only done it once to you, when Kai was there.”
He smirked and said, “you can suck my c***k as much as you want, I won’t complain.”
“So, yes?”
“Yes,” he laughed.
He looked at the list again and said, “and also yes to your question for more oral s**x on you,” he looked up at me and said, “you only need to ask babe, I’ll lick you out whenever you want me to.”
Looking down again, he said, “you want to know if you have permission to touch me sexually while I’m asleep?”
Feeling bashful I answered, “I know you went through something, I don’t know what, but I didn’t want to touch you without your permission, like maybe I might want to touch you in the night while we are asleep and wake you up that way, but I don’t want to do it if it will make you feel groped or uncomfortable.”
He smiled softly at me and said, “that’s really sweet of you to ask baby, I love that you care about me and respect me enough to ask that, and yes, you have permission to touch me when I’m asleep, I am more than happy to wake up to you pleasuring me or even having s**x with me, I trust you, I love you.”
I smiled, and then he asked, “what about you? Would you want me touching you while you’re asleep if I’m in the mood for s**x?”
I nodded, “yes.”
“Can I give you a strip dance?” He laughed reading it and said, “yes, Kai teaching me how was one of the most humiliating moments of my life and the moves are still burned upon my brain, so yes I can strip for you,” looking at me, he asked, “would you strip for me?”
“Just take my clothes off?” I asked.
“No, like what you want me to do for you, would you strip dance for me, give me a lap dance?”
I quickly shook my head, “I don’t think I’d be brave enough to do that.”
“I’d love to see you do it, but maybe we can work up to it?”
“Maybe,” I mumbled.
“Ok, maybe,” he smiled and kissed my forehead.
He looked down at the page and said, “yes, I’ll dominate you if you want, I’m not sure about being dominated myself though.”
“Maybe?” I asked.
“Maybe,” he winked.
The s**x might have to wait because I found myself asking, “what happened to you that made you not like the domination stuff?”
My question caught him by surprise, and he instantly grew cold on me, I didn’t know if I had made him angry.
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