Becoming His Obsession

CHAPTER 4. A Private Pretend

" Alex, I need you to check the database of employees for the investment firm and send all the details of Hailey Cole to me first thing tomorrow."

If there is one thing I'm not ready to let go of, it is the fire this woman has set to my body, but when she mentions working at my investment firm, I immediately become hesitant since I have trust issues concerning workplace romance dating back to my father's experience.

But after the kiss we'd just share, staying away from this woman seems like an almost impossible task. I guess Alex is right after all, maybe all I need to get over the terrible pain that has lingered for these past few months is a distraction. A bad, beautiful and sweet distraction.

As I get in the shower, I feel my body becoming tense again as the image of her fills my mind, slowly my hand reaches for my growing hardness. Her slim, curvy figure, her chestnut brown hair that flows to her waistline, calling for a tight but gentle pull from me, the taste of her lips, the feel of her soft delicate skin and how much I want to kiss every inch of it from her lips down, from her feet up.

I start stroking myself as I begin to imagine her body naked, pressing against mine, imagine her giggles are moans, imagine her lips giving in to mine, her lips traveling down my body, spreading chills just like her hands did.

I want to grab her by the neck and make her beg for saying no to me while I thrust my fingers into her, spread her wetness around her c**t while I build her climax, make her beg to feel me inside her then turn her around and spank her peach shaped butt.

Make her scream from pleasure and pain as I let myself into her from behind, feeling her warmth and contractions as she tries to create room enough for me.

Hear her beg me to stop teasing, then turn her on her back, spread her legs and position myself between them because nothing will look more satisfying than seeing the look on her face when I take us both to paradise.

And just like that I spill my c*m all over the floor, quivering as I see her face once more through my closed eyes.

And when I went to sleep, I didn't spend hours struggling to sleep, neither did I try to forget my ex-wife by getting drunk. I have someone else in mind. Hailey.

*****

Picking up the bouquet laying pretty on my table, my lips curl up thankfully as I realize I wasn't the only one thinking about last night all day. I read the little note over again as I remember how peaceful he looked while asleep, how gently he kissed the inside of my palm, the waves of shiver that flooded my nerves when his eyes traveled down my body.

'focus Hailey, focus that's all you need. He is not part of the plan, remember we can't afford any more delay, so no distractions!'. The plan is to make enough money to support myself, my mother, sister who is a single mother and my three nieces, her children, how much I love those kids.

I shake my head, even though it didn't help in getting Konner off my mind. I walk straight to my study table and drop the flowers in the bin next to it.

Right now, love is a luxury I cannot afford even though every inch of my body aches to hold onto this insane surge of feelings, and even if I might regret not giving love a chance I know I'll be fine, after all no one ever dies from regret.

It is Sunday, barely a day after and the regret I am feeling is suffocating me. I know I said regret doesn't kill but right now, if my mind doesn't stop wishing to talk to Konner, see his face and feel his kisses on my lips I know I will lose it. I pick up my blunt and light it up, if only it'll help to get my mind off him.

Monday is better even though I woke up late since I had slept so late last night. I have to rush off to work and now I'm beginning to think these feelings are a curse seeing how I am continuously dozing off at work. I feel really tired but thankfully I am almost done with my presentation and the meeting with my client is not until Friday.

I place my head on my desk trying to get a quick nap, and I am just beginning to fall asleep when I hear my name.

" Hailey, Hailey! Wake up. Quickly!." The loud call instantly steals all the sleep from my eyes.

" Yes??" I answer weakly trying to access my consciousness and retain my sweet sleep at the same time.

" You need to wake up now Hailey". She grabs my arm and pull me up from my desk.

" What's going on Olivier?". I would've snapped up if she wasn't my boss.

" Quick, join the others at the front office, the CEO is here." And she walks away.

" CEO?" Gosh! Why today of all days? I've been working here for the past three months and not once did the so-called boss come. But today that I'm dying of exhaustion is the perfect day he chose? f**k!

I quickly try to put myself together, adjust my pants, tie my shoelace and run my hand through my hair then I hurriedly walk to the front office and join the already formed line hoping that the big boss will leave as quickly as he comes so I can go back to sleeping.

Minutes later he isn't here yet and my mind has begun to wander around. Then suddenly my nose catches a particular scent, I can't help sniffing and sniffing, I have to be sure I am smelling right, is it that fresh woody scent? Soon his face occupies my mind as quickly as his cologne fills my senses and I find myself looking everywhere for the man who is responsible for my physical state right now.

Then…

" Welcome Sir." The series of greetings from Olivier and other employees snatches my attention back to why I am here and I see him.

The same person I am running from yet yearning to see. Without a single reply he walks straight into the reception, his aura speaking sheer authority. He keeps looking around as he walks, like he is expecting to see something.

I can't take my eyes off him, he just looks so good. It's only been a few days and it feels like I haven't seen him in forever.

I find it hard to believe but I actually miss him.

Soon our eyes meet and even the chills dancing in my veins isn't evidence enough of the thrills I am feeling. Then…

" He's hot right?" Oliveir whispers in my ear.

" Yea I know I had that same look when I first saw him." Right now, I'm not even wondering how she saw the look on my face when she has been glued to Konner this entire time I'm wondering when she got to my ear!.

" O come on Olivier, not everyone sees Mr Weston and melts on the floor, besides he's married."

'Married' resounds in my brain like a beaten gong.

" I've told you countless times Ivar, he's divorced, separated, like he has no wife presently so…"

I turn to Olivier

" He's divorced…?"

".... For over three months now darling! That's what I've been trying to tell this p***y but she wouldn't listen."

For the first time ever I am interested in one of their side taks.

" But you can't tell! Even during their marriage, it was very confidential, we only knew he was married, but we didn't know anything about it, like why they had issues, if they even divorced for real or if he probably has another woman! "

" Of course he's divorced!" Turning to me with a hand over her mouth, Olivier says…

" His ex wife was nothing but a gold digger. Barely a year into their marriage and she's gone."

Standing there listening to these ladies talk about Konner, my Konner the one person who's made me feel so much spark in such little time and all I want to do is listen.

" Hi Miss Cole." Walking up to us with a smile is Sandra the receptionist. Her calm and polite gesture is one thing I always admire.

" Mr Weston wants to have a word with you."

The look Olivier and Ivar shot me after hearing Sandra's message, l just know this can't be good.

" Oh no Hailey, what have you done?" Olivier's question actually sounds more sarcastic than concerned.

" Why? Is it… is it bad?"

" Mr Weston rarely comes here for starters and if he has any information for his staff, Mr Alex delivers it. He has never spoken to any of us directly." Though Ivar sounds more concerned than Olivier, the curiosity is clear in her voice.

I'd also be worried if only we hadn't shared a kiss. But how come he's my boss? How did I not figure it out?

'Oh lord' I can only hope that I haven't made a mistake.

My mind keeps going back and forth as I make my way up the elevator to meet lKonner. I need to think straight but I can't bring myself to believe that I'd accidentally met, kissed and felt something for my boss and I'd even thought of giving him a chance.which is technically not wrong except for the fact that I'm scared, I'm not in position to love or accept love. Right now, I need to get my s**t together.

Knock knock. I gently knock on the door and turn the handle. There he is relaxed, staring outside the floor to ceiling window with his coffee in hand.

"Hello… Sir." I am unsure what to call him seeing that the circumstances have changed from our previous meetings.

" Hi baby girl." He turns to me with a warm smile on his face and I immediately feel at ease and return the smile embracing the feeling I had been pushing away all day. Seems like I appreciate this soul more than I actually thought.

" You're my Boss? And you didn't even care to mention it??Unbelievable!" I throw my hands up, my frustration seeping through my voice and somehow my action amuses him seeing how the inner part of his lips curve up showing such lovely teeth.

" Are you laughing right now?"

" You have no idea how much I've anticipated seeing this look on your face".

" Really!?" So keeping this information from me is actually deliberate.

He walks to me and stops only inches away, takes my hand in his, and…

"Hailey, darling, date me." Not this again. He really does enjoy playing with me, doesn't he?

" No." I turn to leave and his hand slides up my arm and pulls me back, this time closer to him.

" Why?"

As I turn to look at his face, I realize how close I am to him and the only thought that occupies my mind is that if I raise my feet high enough, I can swiftly steal a kiss.

" Because, well I don't love you. Yet."

He stays quiet for a few seconds and stares at me, his cold blue eyes boring into my soul making me question if my reply is totally honest. I look away before I start to rethink my feelings.

" How about a contract then?"

" A what?"

" A contract…."

" Yes, I heard you the first time. " I pause. "What type of contract are you talking about?

" A love contract, a private one. No one has to know."

I give out a short laugh.

" No offense Mr CEO but love and relationships don't work that way. If you want my love, you've got to earn it and not offer me a piece of paper after meeting me twice, expecting me to sign off my feelings to you." I am as upset as I sound.

" I'm sure you must have heard about my divorce…"

" Wait, is that true?" I couldn't wait to hear everything about it.

" Yes. It's been five months now and sadly, I find myself stuck in trying to move on. Meeting you, I just know you're exactly what I need in my life right now."

" Ohh." After seconds of silence and this is all I manage to get out. I am speechless, I have never been in his shoes, I can only imagine how it feels like and my imagination doesn't feel good.

" I know I may sound selfish…."

" May?"

" Okay, I apologize for being selfish asking you to help me get over my ex wife but I promise to make it up to you."

" Still Konner, I can't."

" Why….?" He asks almost immediately then pauses.

"Why not?"

" No reason, no reason at all." I look at the floor feeling disappointed, I'm not able to come up with even one excuse.

" I'm not asking you for this only because I want to forget about Tessa. I also want to get to know you. You're an interesting girl and I want you."

The pace of my beating heart increases several beats faster and I keep my eyes away from his. Whether he is sincere or not, I don't want to know.

" Nah you're just playing, we haven't even known each other that long. It's been what? Three days…" I walk away from him and towards the wide window.

" Three days is more than enough for me to know that I really want you." He chips in impatiently.

" I sign deals worth billions of dollars in a couple of hours. Life is short, do what you want while you can."

Why I feel like he's talking to me I wouldn't know. It's not like he knows anything about me.

"I want you. I want you for myself, Be mine, Hailey. You don't have to love me, you don't have to tell anyone, just be yourself, be happy and I'm satisfied."

He moves closer behind me and soon I feel his cool breath, gently caressing my left ear stealing every single word of protest left.

" I just want to feel your thrills, feel your touch, and make you smile every now and then. I've thought about it and it'll just be a private pretend kind of relationship so it doesn't affect you in any way. Or will it?."