Dream of Me

Sink or Swim

The rest of the day was a blur, I felt exhausted and I didn't even do anything. Thank the heavens I only have 3 classes my senior year, by lunch time I get to go home. As soon as I got home I started baking, this could be why I am pleasantly plump, but hey im Mexican we love to cook and looooovvveeee to eat. I was currently preparing arroz con leche in a a crock pot, don't judge its amazing. While that was brewing I was making homemade buttercream frosting for my my carrot cupcakes. I figured I'd catch up on some e-mails, when I suddenly felt like some one was staring at me?

I stood up and went to the windows and nothing, then from the corner of my eye I could have sworn I seen a shadow of a man leaning up against a tree. Geez I gave myself the creeps right when I was about to close the blinds, the timer went off the cupcakes were done.

I stood there frosting cupcakes and day dreaming of the first time I met "him" we were in the 5th grade and since that very young age all the girls wanted him,but he chose me and we "dated" whatever that meant, he was my boyfriend I was his girlfriend. Nothing crazy happened a hug here and there a hand hold at recess, but that's all I needed I knew he was my first love, my always love which scared me.

Yet, deep down in my gut I had a feeling something was about to change. I hated having these feelings but, I got it from my Nana. Whenever she had a feeling or a dream it happened. For years she told no one but me. In our family dreaming of water was never good. I'm trying hard not to think about all the water that surrounded us last night, I tried to stick to only "him". " You gotta stop this" I let out an exhausted breath. 

As my mind starting wondering deeper into the rabbit hole that is Ashton, a knock came at the door. As I was about to ask who it was. Ashley and Layla walk in." We'll s**t glad I'm dressed, sure just walk on in and make yourselves at home." they both giggled and went straight for the cupcakes. Layla is also a part of my group, she is crazy intelligent and creative, I just know she is going to be the next big think in Hollywood. 

"Can I help you two?" They both stare at me like i grew a second head. "Um, your kidding right?" There's the fall ball tonight after the game, we have to start getting dressed." I cringe, although I do love t-shirts and Jeans I do like to dress-up. Tonight I'm rocking pleather pants, combat boots, a misfits crop top, flannel around my waste and my awesome leather jacket. I also have the black lipstick to match.

Oh yes, the freaking fall ball game and dance. In my stupor I hear Layla states" Did you hear Ashton is taking Samantha?" My eyes instantly spring tears in them, why doesn't he put me where I belong. On his arm, on his lap at his side just like those other hussies. I can't be mad at them and honestly I'm not,  I'm jealous.

In this moment I decide to either sink or swim!