Uncontrollably Falling For You

Chapter 21

"God, what the f**k am I gonna do without you in school with me anymore?" I whined dramatically. Jayla laughed and shrugged her shoulders.

"You'll find a way, dude." She took a sip of her drink. "You're gonna have to get a fuckin' car or walk, though!" I peered over at my boyfriend, who was sitting beside me with an arm around my shoulders.

"What?" he asked, raising an eye brow.

"You'll take me, riiiight...?" I asked hopefully. He exchanged glances with Brody and both of them began laughing. Jayla had graduated, which meant I was no longer going to be in high school with my sister, and it also meant my ride was gone. Jay, Brody, Felix and I were all sitting around in his basement having a drink together in small celebration.

"Well," Felix began with a small sigh. "I can take you on nights that I stay over... but not when I work early, obviously." I gave a small pout before taking a sip of my drink. "Learn how to drive and get a car." I'd gotten my permit and I had been driving quite a bit.

"I know how to drive! Jesus Christ, this sucks!" I groaned. "Not only do I lose my ride, and my sister... but I'm not gonna be in class with my best f*****g friend anymore, either!" Rhett had graduated as well, which was pretty upsetting to me. No more enjoyable gym classes with him.

"Oh, get over it. You'll see me at home!" Jayla snickered.

"I wasn't talking about you!" I retorted.

"Hey!" she snapped.

"I'm gonna miss Rhett...," I sighed. I was definitely feeling the affects of my drink. My body felt heavy, and my eye lids slightly droopy. I felt good, though. "Seriously, though. I don't have any friends in school anymore," I huffed. Ever since Evie and I stopped talking, I wasn't good friends with anybody in my grade.

"But you have Olive!" Brody reminded me sarcastically.

"Ha ha, very funny!" I snickered. "She f*****g hates me, and the feeling is somewhat mutual."

"What about that girl- Holly?" Jay asked. I shrugged my shoulder.

"Yeah, I guess...," I sighed, taking another swig of my drink. I'd settled on whiskey for the night, and I was quiet enjoying it.

"Is that the one who had a crush on you?" Felix snickered. I nodded, casting him a playful scowl.

"Yeah, she did. But can you really blame her?" I snorted, which caused everybody to laugh.

"Mark, are you drunk?" Brody asked, amusement heavy in his voice.

"No!" I blurted out quickly. I was, though... I was drunk. I leaned against Felix more, resting my head back on his shoulder. I noticed him glance down at me with a small grin. "You're not drunk enough...," I whispered.

"I'm driving you home," he reminded me with a laugh.

"Oh, yeah!" I snorted. "I forgot!" My mind felt jumbled, my surroundings hazy. God, how much had I had to drink? "When're we doin' that?" I asked.

"I dunno. When you're done with that drink?" he asked.

"Sure!" I took another sip of my dwindling whiskey. "Then will you drink?" I asked.

"Whatever makes you happy," he snickered.

"Are you staying?" I heard Brody ask Jayla. I looked to see her smiling warmly at him and she nodded before leaning back to rest against him, as I was doing with Felix. They were officially together, and Brody knew Felix and I were officially together as well. As expected, he didn't have any sort of problem with it. He actually had a feeling before Felix told him, which I also kind of expected.

After about fifteen more minutes or so, I took the last sip of my drink and we decided to make our leave. We said our goodbyes and headed outside for his car. We got in and he pulled out of the drive way.

"That was fun," I said happily. He nodded with a grin. "What's wrong?" I asked. He glanced at me with a raised eye brow.

"Nothing's wrong. Why do you always ask me that?" he asked. I shrugged.

"I dunno. You seem a little sad," I explained. "Would road head make you feel better?" I asked. He laughed loudly.

"Mark, I drive a stick!" he snickered.

"So?" I snorted.

"Soooo- that would never work. You would be in the way of me shifting," he explained, amusement heavy in his voice.

"Oooh, fine!" I waved him off and sat forward in my seat. It didn't take long before we were pulling into the church parking lot. We both got out and headed across the street, my feet dragging slightly. I was pretty damn drunk... but not too drunk that I was blacked out. I was just finding certain things difficult to remember. Everything was kinda blurry.

We entered my house and I looked to see my mom sitting on the couch. She looked our way and raised her eye brows. I smiled widely at her as we walked into the living room.

"Hey, guys," she greeted us with a yawn. What f*****g time was it? I glanced at the clock to see it was twelve in the morning already.

"Hi! I said back happily before practically skipping into the kitchen. I faintly remember hearing my boyfriend and her talking, but I don't know what they said to each other. I decided against waiting for him to join me, so I headed upstairs.

Eventually he came up to my room with the remainder of the bottle he'd had. After a little while of us drinking, him more than me, I was beginning to feel very hot. We'd yet to put the window unit air conditioners in, and it was extremely stuffy in the house. I felt the need to go out for some fresh air to smoke a cigarette.

As we walked downstairs, I was aware of how dark it was. My mom must have gone to bed. I was careful not to trip on anything as I headed to the back of the house.

"Oh my god, it feels so much better out here!" I blurted as I practically fell through the back screen door leading to my back yard. Felix snickered and shushed me as he pulled out his cigarettes. I was about to spit out a retort, but he spoke first.

"You want one, darling?" he asked, still laughing slightly. I straightened myself up and smiled at my boyfriend. How could I make a witty comeback at that?

"Darling?" I asked and took the cigarette from his fingers, placing it in my mouth. He put the lighter up the end and lit it for me.

"Mmm hmmm," he replied, grabbing onto my hip gently. I couldn't help but stare at him as he lit his own cigarette and took a puff in. I watched as smoke slowly flowed out of his nostrils. He was so good looking... He turned to look at me, his eyes lighting up slightly. "What's up, drunky?" he asked. I shook my head and released smoke from my lungs.

"Nothin'." I leaned closer to his ear to continue speaking. "You're so f*****g sexy...," I whispered. Despite how drunk I was, I was extremely horny. I'd been thinking about him the entire time we were at Brody's.

"So are you," he said back quietly before leaning in to gently kiss my lips. I took the opportunity to the fullest and immediately gripped onto his hair with my free hand, biting onto his lip ring. Felix stifled his laughed and pulled back the best he could. "Calm down, I'm not going anywhere." I laughed, shaking my head.

"I know that!" I barked. Silly Felix... I watched as he took a couple steps forward to sit on the bench. I took a drag of my cigarette and moved to sit next to him. "What did you wanna do later?" I asked somewhat suggestively.

"What do you think...?" he asked, casting me a smirk. I grinned and raised an eye brow. Oh, hell yeah... I'm totally gettin' some ass tonight.

"I think that can be arranged," I replied before taking a drag of my cigarette. My smoke couldn't end fast enough. I felt about ready to explode. I glanced over at him, unable to keep my eyes to myself. I gave my cigarette one last glance before deciding to cut it short. He'd smoked his quicker than me, and ended up putting it out as well. Without hesitation, I moved to straddle Felix at the hips in his seat on the bench.

"What're you doin'?" he asked, a smile on his face. He ran his fingers over my cheek, which caused me to smile as well. I shrugged my shoulders, truly unsure what I was thinking, before leaning down to kiss him. I slid my tongue into his mouth immediately, wanting to get as close to him as possible. I pulled back and moved right down to his neck. I felt his d**k beginning to harden against me, and I couldn't help but feel accomplished by that. I didn't even give a s**t at the time that my neighbors could look out and see us. It was kind of sexy, actually..

I bit down onto his neck before pulling back to kiss his lips once more. I felt his teeth graze over my bottom lip, leaving me with a stinging feeling. I reached my hands down the back of his shirt, wanting to touch his bare skin. His hands gripped tightly onto my ass, pulling my hips into his. I was so hard, it kind of hurt. I was done with the teasing.

"Felix, I want you to f**k me," I breathed into his ear.

"Let's go upstairs," he whispered. I shook my head without a second thought.

"No, I want it here. Now." I gripped onto his hair and began kissing his neck roughly again. I felt goosebumps rising over his skin. Thinking back on it, it was such a stupid f*****g thing to say... but at the time, the thought of anybody being able to come outside and catch us only made me hornier.

"Turn around and pull your pants down," he ordered me. I suppressed a shiver at his demand and pulled back, a smile on my face, before giving him a kiss.

"I love you," I breathed happily before standing. I pulled down my pants just past my ass, deciding it best to keep my d**k in my boxers, as Felix rushed to pull his down as well. We didn't have lube, I hadn't even thought of that, so he spit on his d**k. I didn't feel any apprehension from that this time, however. I didn't f*****g care at all in my drunken state! He grabbed onto my hips and turned me around, pulling me down until he was inside me. I let a sharp breath escape from my lungs as he began grinding into me. It felt amazing. I wasn't sure if it was because the alcohol was letting my muscles relax and easing the pain, but it felt so damn good. It felt better than any times before. I couldn't help myself from letting out soft moans as we continued, which was extremely out of character for me. I wasn't sure what had taken me over, but I could hardly handle the pleasure.

"Does that feel good, baby?" Felix asked quietly.

"Yes," I panted, leaning back into him more. I slipped my hand down my boxers and began jerking myself off, feeling his hot forehead resting against my back. His nails dug into my hips and he began thrusting harder. I had to move a little with him as well, since he was sitting down, but that only made things feel ever better.

It didn't take long before the familiar feeling hit me, my breathing becoming heavier. "I'm coming, Felix," I breathed, my voice catching in my throat. I was surprised when he flipped me over quickly. I grabbed onto the back of the bench with my free hand and leaned into it. He began thrusting harder as I jizzed into my boxers, the feeling quiet intense. It only took a few seconds before he came as well. He pulled out once finished and we both pulled our pants up.

I turned around to see Felix sitting on the ground, looking up at me with a smile planted on his face as he caught his breath. I grinned and moved to sit down next to him. I wrapped my arms tightly around him. "That felt really f*****g good," I said quietly.

"I could tell," he said with laughter in his voice. "I thought it felt good, too.." He kissed my cheek, causing me to smile, and ran his fingers through my hair. "Did you wanna go inside now?" he asked. I nodded, peering up at the night sky.

"Yeah," I began, standing on unsteady feet once more. "I wanna lay with you. I want another cigarette first, though."

"Yeah, have to after that!" he laughed and we began pulling out cigarettes. I took a seat tenderly back on the bench, while he stayed on the ground. Damn, my legs and ass felt bruised already... I peered at my boyfriend as we smoked. He looked quite pleased with himself; like he'd accomplished a great feat... but he pretty much had, so could I really blame him? I couldn't believe I'd allowed that to happen now that it was over. It was so unlike me.. I snorted and shook my head, taking a long drag in.

Soon enough we were finished with our cigarettes. We entered the house quietly and headed back upstairs. I took a detour to the bathroom and relieved myself. Once done with that I stumbled into my room, already in the process of peeling off my clothing. Felix cast me an amused smile as I slid my boxers off, nearly tripping as I stepped out of them, and laid down in bed with a large sigh. I looked in his direction to see he was undressing as well. As soon as he was laying in bed with me, I couldn't resist letting my hand travel over his chest.

"I like when you get like that," he told me softly after a minutes or two of silence. He reached up and brushed the pieces of my hair falling forward out of my eyes.

"Like what?" I asked, reaching to take a hold of his hand. He smirked.

"When you get... vocal," he explained, nearly causing me to cringe. I laughed awkwardly and averted my eyes from his. God it was so embarrassing! How did I let myself go like that? I never moaned... f**k, even the word makes me wanna curl into a ball! And outside! In my back yard! What the f**k!

"I'll remember that for next time," I told him dismissively. He leaned forward and kissed my lips softly. I couldn't deny, from all the alcohol and excitement, my eye lids were becoming more and more heavy.

"I love you so much, Li." I couldn't help but grin. Even though we'd been together for over a year, it still make my stomach jump and fill with butterflies when he told me he loved me.

"I love you, too," I whispered. Felix gave me one last, warm look before pulling me close to his chest. I closed my eyes and took a deep breath in, his wonderful scent filling my nostrils. Laying there like that- I definitely felt like I was in my happy place...

>

My eyes fluttered open, and I had to squint against the light. I could immediately feel familiar pressure in my bladder. I had to piss so bad it felt like I could have wet the bed. I groaned to myself and sat up, a rush going to my head. I rubbed my eyes briefly before standing on unsteady feet. I blinked, trying to get my vision to stop being so fuzzy, as I looked for my boxers. I really needed to take my contacts out.

"What're you doing?" I suddenly heard Felix ask from the bed, his voice heavy with sleep. I glanced over at him.

"Looking for my boxers." My voice was surprisingly hoarse. All those cigarettes, I guess. I cleared my throat, and spotted them at the edge of my room. I grabbed them and slipped them on. "I have to take a piss." I turned and headed out the door. I was glad I didn't feel nauseous, and the dizziness I'd felt as soon as I woke up was subsiding. I walked into the bathroom and took a much needed piss. I then headed back into my room and laid back down next to my boyfriend. I smirked to myself and leaned in close, quickly giving his ass a smack.

"Ouch!" he exclaimed and I raised an eye brow.

"Oh, come on, p***y. I didn't smack you that hard!" I laughed.

"No, it's not that...," he said, his eye narrowing, before sitting up. "Can you look at my ass?" Oh, I would love to... "It feels like I got bit or some shit." He stood up and turned, exposing his lovely bottom. Even without me looking close, I could see a large splinter in his skin. I immediately began laughing.

"What the f**k. You have a splinter!" I snickered. I leaned in, looking at the angry flesh surrounding it. How did he sleep the whole night with that in? "It's pretty big, too."

"Can you get it?" he asked.

"Mmmmm... okay," I replied, not so sure if I could get it all with my fingers. I grabbed onto it the best I could and gave a quick tug. I looked at the piece of wood between my fingers, realizing I'd left a small piece still in his skin. "I got most of it. Look." I held my hand out, and Felix peered back at it. He looked slightly disgusted, and I couldn't help but grin. The whole situation was pretty funny.

"There's still some in there?" he asked incredulously.

"Yeah, just a little though. I have tweezers; I can get it out. Let's go to the bathroom for better light." I shrugged. He sighed and walked over to grab his boxers from the floor, slipping them on. "How did you even do that?" I asked.

"Well," he began dramatically. "A certain someone wanted to have s*x on the wooden bench outside." I could feel my expression fall as I was reminded of our adventurous time the prior evening. Jesus Christ....

"I can't believe we did that...," I whispered, lightly putting my hand over my mouth. Felix laughed loudly.

"You wanted it, and who was I to say no?" He smirked, walking over to me. He put his hand on my shoulder, giving it was quick squeeze. I rolled my eyes, smiling.

"In that instance, you should have said no!" I snickered, standing up. I grabbed a shirt from the floor and slipped it over my head. "Come on." I grabbed his wrist and led him out of my bedroom. We walked past Jayla's open door, glancing in as we went to see her confused face looking back at us. I walked into the bathroom, immediately digging around our supplies. After a bit of searching, I finally found a pair of tweezers. "Ah ha!" I turned towards Felix and smirked. "Alright, show me dat ass." He laughed and shook his head as he turned, leaning against the sink counter top. I pulled one side of his boxers up, wedging the fabric between his ass cheeks to keep it out of the way. "Okay...." I looked at it closely, determined to get all the pieces out.

"What the f**k are you guys doing?" Jayla's voice sounded through the bathroom. Felix jumped slightly, and I turned my head to smile at my sister. She already looked amused, and she didn't even know the hilarity of the situation.

"Felix got a splinter," I told her blunty, causing her to burst into laughter.

"A splinter?" she asked, talking a step closer. She leaned down to look. "Damn! How big was the splinter?" she asked, exchanging glances with me.

"It was pretty big!" I snickered and began picking at the remaining pieces of wood I could see.

"How the f**k did you do that?" she asked. I didn't know what to say. I swallowed, my brow furrowing slightly. I would tell Jayla... but not in front of Felix. I didn't want him boasting about it.

"I'm not sure," I murmured dismissively. "We were drunk last night, obviously, so it could have been from anything." She laughed and shook her head. I looked up to meet her eyes and mouthed 'I'll tell you later.' She widened her eyes and nodded, a smirk forming on her face. I had to fight back a laugh from escaping from my mouth, so instead I bit my bottom lip and smiled. I pulled one final splinter piece out and decided that was the best it was going to get. "Okay, I think I got it all, Fel."

"Good! Does it look bad?" he asked as I gathered ointment and gauze. I glanced at the spot. It was really red, almost bruised looking, and it was bleeding a little.

"Eh." I shrugged. I ran over the spot with a soapy piece of gauze, and he immediately tensed. "I'm gonna clean it real quick, and put some ointment on," I explained.

"Thank you," he sighed, leaning against the counter top more. "So what are you up to today, hoe?" He turned his attention towards my sister.

"Not too sure. What about you guys?" she asked. I didn't think we had anything planned. I wiped the wound dry the best I could.

"I guess I was gonna go home?" Felix glanced over his shoulder at me the best he could. "Right?" he asked after a moment of silence as I wiped ointment on the gash.

"What? Oh. I don't care. You can stay again if you want." I looked over the area briefly before pulling his boxer leg down and standing. I put my supplies back quickly as he continued to speak.

"Do you want me to?" he asked, sounding hopeful. I smiled and nodded. I wasn't ready for him to leave.

"Yeah," I replied, grabbing onto his arm affectionately. He grinned at me and then we both peered back at my sister. She was watching us, a soft expression on her face.

"You guys are so cute...," she muttered quickly before changing the subject. "Well, did you wanna do something? Go get Rita's or some s**t?" I snorted with laughter at her suggestion.

"Oh!" Felix suddenly spoke, sounding excited. "We could mix it with liquor!" I couldn't help but laugh.

"What kind of liquor?" I asked, feeling doubtful anything we had would be good.

"I dunno." He shrugged.

"I have some coconut rum!" Jayla told us brightly. "That would be f*****g good!"

"Yeah it would be!" Felix agreed. "Especially with how hot it is out." I was surprised he suggested we drank after our prior night. I wasn't hungover enough to not want to drink again, though. "What do you think, Li?" He moved his arm around my waist and pulled me close. I nodded.

"I think that sounds like fun. Just us?" I asked.

"Well, we could invite Brody or Rhett or something, too," Jayla said.

"Sounds like a plan," Felix sighed. "When?" Jayla smirked.

"Whenever the f**k we want."

>

We ended up going to Rita's to get a bucket of mango italian ice, much to Jayla's dismay. She said it was too boring. She wanted the Swedish Fish flavor.

"Who the f**k wants to mix Swedish Fish and coconut?" Felix scoffed in disgust. Jayla's jaw dropped and she cast him an offended scowl.

"Me! That's who!" she retorted. He looked over at me and I nodded knowingly. We were both on the same page.

"f**k it's hot out," he grumbled, shielding his eyes from the sun as we stood in the long line.

"Maybe if you would invest in some sun glasses, your retinas wouldn't be burning away right now," Jayla snickered, smacking his arm playfully. He snorted and shook his head.

"I have sun glasses...," he mumbled. I glanced around to see families sitting at the various tables surrounding the small italian ice shack, enjoying their frozen treats. I could feel eyes on us... a lot of people were staring. That wasn't uncommon when we went anywhere in public, though. People were very judgmental and didn't like the way we looked, I got that. But it still sucked.

Eventually we were up in line and Jayla ordered a bucket of mango, and a bucket of Swedish Fish italian ice. Once we got our order, we headed back to Felix's car. We all filed in and he immediately turned in his seat to face my sister.

"That s**t is all you!" he laughed.

"Come on, guys! It's probably going to be delicious!" she tried to convince us.

"Yeah, well you can let us know," I snickered.

"Fine! I will!" she huffed, and I heard a lid peel open.

"Are you mixing it now?" Felix asked.

"Ummm, no! I'm eating some to make room for the rum! Duh!" she said incredulously. He smiled and shook his head before starting the engine of his car. With that, we drove off in the direction of Rhett's house.

It didn't take long before we were pulling into his driveway. Felix stopped the car and proceeded to beep multiple times, causing Jayla and I to laugh. I was suddenly hit with a strong smell of coconut. I glanced over my shoulder to see she was pouring the rum into the mango italian ice.

"You better be a decent driver today, Felix," she told him deviously. He smirked.

"Do you really ever need to worry about that?" he snickered smugly. I glanced towards the front door of the house just as Rhett stepped outside. Felix immediately blew the horn once more. I could see Rhett laughing, his head shaking, as he walked swiftly towards us. He got in the back seat behind Felix and we all greeted him.

"Hey, guys!" he said happily back. "You're lucky my parents aren't home. They woulda been pissed!" he laughed. Felix simply shrugged and put his car in reverse. He backed out onto the street and headed off to pick up Brody.

"Here, Rhett!" I turned in my seat to watch them behind me. She handed him the mango bucket and kept the vile Swedish Fish for herself.

"What's this?" he asked.

"Coconut rum and Rita's!" I told him.

"Fuckin' right! I thought it smelled like coconut rum in here!" he laughed.

"Wonderful! I guess I will be driving my best!" Felix sighed. At that point, we were sitting at a red light.

"Eeeeew!" Jayla suddenly exclaimed after taking a small sip of her italian ice mixture. I stifled my laughter into the back of my hand.

"Oh, what's wrong Jay!" Felix teased. "That Swedish Fish bullshit not tastin' so good?"

"No! It's f*****g gross!" she snapped, sounding highly disappointed. Felix began laughing, and the car suddenly jutted forward slightly.

"What was that?" I asked as he began turning the ignition again. He had a sheepish grin on his face as we began driving once more.

"I stalled...," he admitted. I had never been in the car with Felix when he stalled out.

"Come on!" Jayla snapped playfully. "What happened to you driving your best, huh?"

"Hey, I never woulda stalled in the first place if you hadn't distracted me with your horrid tastes!" he retorted.

"I thought you knew how to drive stick, Felix, come on!" she snickered.

"I've been driving stick since I was just under fuckin' seventeen!" he protested.

"Yeah, yeah... Here, Rhett!" I glanced over my shoulder just in time to see Jayla shoving the red italian ice into my friend's hands.

"What? I don't want this s**t!" he protested.

"Just try it! Go on!" She peeled open the mango ice and began pouring rum into that one.

"Not fair!" I snapped playfully. "You should have to live with your poor life choices, Jay!" Felix laughed and nodded his head in agreement.

I have so many fond memories of hot summer evenings, driving around in Felix's car, windows down, blasting different music, singing our heads off very poorly. One of our favorites, for whatever reason, was to sing Hollywood by Grouplove to eachother. It didn't matter who was in the car; everybody was having fun. There were a lot of back country roads around our houses, and we would drive on them until it was well past dark, smoking cigarettes, enjoying ourselves. That night was no different. That is something I will always look back on and cherish.