Loving Shiloh

Chapter 4: Bleeding love

I was curled up in the corner waiting for his arrival as my weak body shook in pain and fear. Everyday was the same, Harlem would come down and try to take all of me, I would fight him off and he would nearly kill me, then Reed would come down and feed me before taking his turn nearly killing me. Although recently he had stopped with the abuse seeing as I would still be injured from when Harlem would abuse me. I had lost touch with Lilo, she was rarely with me saying we were too weak. 

My thoughts were interrupted when Harlem trudged down the stairs, he pinched his nose in disgust before finding me and grabbing a handful of hair and pulling me to a room and threw me into the en suite. 

"Take a shower you filthy mutt." He growled. I didn't hesitate to strip out of my dirty clothes and hop into the tub and take a shower. I washed myself with the soaps in the shower reveling in the warmth of the water. Fearing what he would do if I took too long I finished quickly and dried off before finding a brush on the sink and unsnarling my matted hair. I was on the last snarl when Harlem busted down the door and grabbed my arm. I froze and backed away feeling naked even with the towel wrapped around my thin frame. 

He pulled down his pants and walked toward me menacingly, I backed up and snarled at him while barring my teeth in warning. He ripped off the towel and I began slashing at him with my now extended claws. I caught his chest and drew quite a bit of blood as I kept slashing at him. He picked me up and tossed me into the door frame snapping my back in two. To make injury worse he kicked my shoulder and stomach before his foot found it's way into my private area. I screamed out as my pelvic bone fractured, I was flipped on my broken back as Harlem got on my stomach and brought his fist to my face over and over again. My breathing began to come harder as he stood and kicked my ribs in. 

He grabbed my broken body and brought me to the cellar and tossed me down the stairs, once at the bottom I smashed my head on the cement floor and I felt the blackness take over, instead of it taking a while the pain was instantly gone and I opened my eyes to find myself in a large white room with windows over looking the ocean. I turned and saw a woman with silver eyes and pale hair with dark skin looking at me with love in her gaze. 

"Who are you?" I asked her. 

"I am Selene, or as you call me the moon goddess." She said, her voice sounded absolutely other worldly. Instead of being in awe of her I felt a surge of rage and pain as I looked at her. 

"How could you?! You paired me with that monster!" I screamed at her catching her off guard. "I'm beaten to the brink of death everyday because of you!"

"I understand child, I had hope that your soft heart could perhaps turn the cold Harlem into a proper Alpha, I see now that I was wrong and I'm sorry." I shook my head and cried even harder.

"I'm in your heaven aren't I?" She nodded.

"Yes, you are on the brink of death back down in your world Shiloh." I heard her walk closer and I backed away. 

"Don't come near me." I whimpered weakly, pain and regret flashed upon her face before she nodded once. 

"I'm sending you back to your body Shiloh, it's not your time. I'll see you here again someday, just not anytime soon." I began shaking before I was suddenly pulled back into the darkness. 

The first thing I realized when I was back in my body was that there was no pain, I also noticed the stench of the basement was replaced by the sterile smell of bleach and chemicals. Another thing was that there was a steady beeping sound going off with each beat of my heart on the right side of my bed. A sound caught my ears and I layed perfectly still but my muscles instinctively clenched. I heard an unfamiliar sigh and I slowly opened my eyes blinking them to adjust to the bright light. I looked down at my feet where a man was staring at me with wide eyes. 

I growled and sat up and scooted back ad he walked toward me, he put up his hands in surrender, but I kept snarling. 

"I need to check your vitals." He said softly. I shook my head and looked down at my arm, I saw a small IV, connected to a drip, I looked at him and growled lowly. 

"Get it out of my arm." He nodded and gulped before taking the needle from my arm and pressing a cotton ball on the open wound. I looked up at him warily, before I stopped growling. "How long have I been here?"

"You have been here for over two months." He said sadly. 

"Where are Reed and Harlem?" 

"They were needed at another pack, they should be home soon." I nodded. 

"Am I clear to leave? I want my things." He nodded and I began to move. 

"I would wait for the Alpha and Beta, they will be upset if I let you leave."

"Fine." I huffed, the doctor smiled thinking I would actually stay here, "I want all these sensors off and some food." 

"Of course." He left and a few minutes later a young woman with pale hair and green eyes walked in. She handed me a tray full of food and I greedily pigged out before handing her the empty plate. 

"Thank you." She smiled before taking off my sensors, I fake yawned and layed back as she left the room. I waited a few minutes before opening my window and realizing I was on a high floor. I growled and tied my gown closed before walking out into the hallway and finding the stairs. I went to the bottom floor and made my way out of the emergency exit. Once I was clear I ran to the pack house and found a tiny window leading into my basement room. I smashed the glass before sliding in and falling to the floor roughly, as quickly as I could I grabbed a bag and filled it with some clothes, my moccasins, my squirrel fund, a few movies, my Ipod and earbuds and my hair brush. When I was all packed I slipped upstairs silently and went to the Alpha floor by following Harlem's scent. 

I found a mini fridge in his office and found it full of water bottles marked with a w. I pulled one out and opened it immediately smelling wolfsbane. I grabbed a few more and went into his bedroom and poured the poison water on his bed before dousing it with air freshener. I left his room and went to the kitchen and grabbed a snack before heading back to the basement. Thinking about it I ran back up to the alpha floor and grabbed a hoodie of Harlem's before slipping it over my body and masking my scent. I grabbed a bunch of my clothes and left the building scattering my clothes in the woods. Then I ran in the opposite direction with all my things. When I got to his border I ran right through while smiling.

'Suck on that mate!' I said to myself as I ran and ran and ran. Once I was ready to collapse I found a small pile of leaves and buried myself in them. I must have slept for a day because when I woke up it was night time. I got up and stretched my incredibly sore muscles before taking off for another day of running, I did that for three weeks as I made my way north west. Every other day I would find a spot to clean up before falling asleep. It was coming up on the 22nd day and I stopped for the night, it finally felt right so I sat down and pulled the wolfsbane water out of my bag and pulled off my shirt. I took a deep breath before ripping off his mark and dousing the raw flesh in wolfsbane water. I screamed as the excess water ran down my chest leaving a trail of blisters and raw flesh, after I was done I grabbed the second bottle and began reciting the rejection. 

"I, Shiloh Chavez, former delta of Delta river, reject you , Harlem Creed, Alpha of Blood-sky." Once I was done I downed the bottle of wolfsbane water. I felt my insides burn as I cried out, my thin skeletal frame curling in on itself, I heard a twig snap and I looked up at the face of a large male. I snarled and tried to move but I was too weak. His face was hard as he reached out toward me. I panicked and began snarling and growling ferally at him, I began coughing up blood and I watched as the male became a blob before my vision went completely black.