How I feel for you

chapter six

Yeah, I’ve only known you for a few years, but I was wondering, did you know I was the one from

the beginning? The first year I knew you, everyone was obsessed with you and to be honest I

didn’t see the big deal about you that first day, or so that’s what I told myself. But there was one

thing that kept pulling me towards wanting to know more about you. I kept remembering the way

you introduced yourself. That’s when I started liking you, but I kept telling myself don’t let this

crush turn into something else, focus on school and not guys. But I guess that didn’t work out too

well, now did it? No, I guess not, he says looking down at our hands. I have another question; how

many guys were before me? Really? Yeah, I’m just curious. Well since you asked me, I was dating

this guy from this other school, but we broke up, because I still liked you. He goes a little red, my

hair falls back in my face. He moves my hair out of my face and tucks it back behind my ear. I

flinch at the feel of his skin, not because it’s cold or hot, or not even because he shocked me. Like

electrical shock or whatever I’m still just not used to him touching me. To him being all mine, or at

least I hope so. With that thought I pull myself back into reality embarrassed. I was even thinking

about that and we just started talking officially. You ok he says? Of course, why wouldn’t I be? I

don’t know, It’s just the way you're looking. I just have some stuff on my mind. Wanna talk about

it? I don’t think you want to hear what's on my mind. Sure, I do, I always want to hear what's on

your mind. Before I know I know I'm going to say it I blurt out, so what exactly does all of this

mean? I say motioning around me. Ummh well, what do you want this to mean? I don’t know how

you feel so let's start there. Then will you be honest about how you feel no matter what I say? Of

course. Well, I really do like you, I actually more than like you. I love you. I love you too. Tears start

forming in my eyes. Oh Jan please don’t cry. This is supposed to be a good thing right. I've been

waiting for this to happen for a long time. So have I, I'm happy I've finally got you. So what do you

want to do today? I have no idea, but I do know I want to spend it with you. Tell me how I went

from being so plain to being so… cool and dating the guy of my dreams? I don't know what I ever

did right to deserve you, but whatever it was I'm so grateful it bought me you… us. He leans in and

kisses me, I kiss him back as if my life depends on it. He puts his fingers through my hair and

kisses me with as much passion. Thomas, I… ummh.. say pulling away. He pulls away slowly keeping

his fingers tangled in my hair. It's ok, I won't until you're ready to. I promise. Knock-knock… then

there it goes again knock-knock. I get up to open the door praying it's not my deranged mother.

Instead it's Thomas's older brother. What do you want? So are you the one that has kept my

brother up all these countless nights? What do you want I say again in more of an annoyed tone?

Why don't you want to answer? Ashamed? Nothing to be embarrassed or ashamed of. You're quite

beautiful, you know. Especially with all those beautiful ridiculous curls of yours. He reaches a hand

out and grabs a loose curl and tucks it behind my ear. I blush, not on purpose but because I'm

not used to being called beautiful or boys touching me or much less kissing me. I recovered

quickly, so you came all the way over here just to tell me not to be ashamed or embarrassed for

keeping your brother up all night. Then to tell me how ridiculous my curls are and how I'm quite

beautiful? Princess you might be one of the most beautiful girls I have ever seen, but no… I came

to talk to my brother. Thomas, I say from the doorway come get your ridiculously high brother. Jan

please just come back, there's nothing he's going to let me do to help him. I take Thomas's

ridiculously hot brother by the hand and make my way through the huge freaking house to find

the kitchen. I take everything I need to make one of my terrible shakes. This one in particular is

for Thomas's off the top of the chain brother. I give it to him and tell him to drink it. He does as I

say which for some very concerning reason doesn't really bother me. He drinks all of the shake in