Torn between mates

70. Cotton candy and ambrosia

 Lea

Ainhoa and I went to visit Liv and my sweet niece, in Liv’s house. We knew that Cali was there too. So, it was perfect, because I was also very worried about Cali and had to see her. 

Aurora was sleeping peacefully snuggled in my sister’s bosom. She is such a calm baby, such a blessing, a miracle. Liv and Laius were so lucky! Most of the couples take decades, if not centuries, to have a child; and they got this tiny angel just after 10 years. 

I only hope Liv’s other mates wouldn’t get very jealousy that they couldn’t have their own child anytime soon. 

I kissed Liv hello and planted a feather light kiss on the top of my baby niece’s head before I took a seat beside Cali. 

“Hi Cali, how are you?” I asked hugging her carefully since Morgana was in the pocket of her jumpsuit. 

“I don’t know. On one hand, I’m very very happy that I found Argo, on the other hand, I’m still worried about Nema.” She said moving her hands up and down. 

“What happened to Nema sucks, but It’s not your fault Cali,” Liv said as she took Cali’s hand in hers. 

“I’ll pray every day for the Goddess to make Nema find her mate soon,” Cali said looking at Liv and my sister gave her a half hug before Cali placed her head on Liv’s shoulder and she ran her fingers through Cali’s brown hair tenderly.

“Nema will come around at some point, feeling guilt for something that isn’t your fault won’t help anyway Cali. It’s just irrational.” Ainhoa added. 

“How about Argo?” I asked, trying to light up the mood a bit. It was odd to see Cali sad, normally she was so bubbly. 

“He’s so lovely, a dream of tall, handsome elf. Those sea-green eyes, oh Goddess!” Cali giggled. “I’ve kissed him and felt as if I would faint, it was so beautiful! I’m looking forward to being his, to make babies with him. I have to give Morg little siblings.” She added looking at my baby niece, who was still asleep. “But... we will wait a bit before mating, marking, and having our bond ceremony, he wants to make sure Nema is okay before.”

“Yeah, Elric said Argo is quite nice and considerate, a real gentleman.” Liv smiled.

“He is!! My Elf-dreamy.” Cali had a huge smile. 

I told the girls about Richard’s outburst and that he used his Alpha voice to command me, an undeniable command that I was compelled to obey since I’m a member of his pack, which makes him my Alpha.

“Oh,” Cali muttered. 

“He has no right to do that to you! It doesn’t even make sense that he used his Alpha’s voice to order you notto go to orgies, is not like you are throwing a s*x-party every Wednesday.” Liv uttered; her voice laced with indignation.  

“That’s what I told her; he was totally irrational,” Ainhoa added. 

“I’m sick of Alexus’ and Richard’s bullshit. And their ancient hate and rivalry are getting old. why don’t you make your own plea to the Goddess, kick both their assess and go to be only with fairy-guy? Even a blind pixie could see that you guys are a cotton candy couple.” Liv said with a frustrated sigh. 

“Cotton candy?” I asked 

“Yep, soft and sweet.” 

“Liv, you can’t compare what Richard did to everything Alexus put me through,” I argued. 

“True. There’s no comparison.” Ainhoa added. 

“I know. But somehow you got lost in the middle of a battlefield between those two. Is Richard even good for you baby sis?” Liv asked.

I know that she has good intentions but talking about it annoys me a lot. Richard was good to me and I loved him. He wasn’t perfect, but who was? I know that she was right about me being somehow in the middle of their crossfire. But I didn’t like that she talked like this about my wolf. 

“Liv. You have no right to say those things!” I snapped. 

Goddess, I couldn’t even recognize myself!

My sister sighed, “I’m sorry Lea, I don’t want to overstep, okay? I just want to remind you that you may have options.” 

I left the room without answering them, but not before seeing Liv’s shocked face. 

Great Lea, now besides a mess and a scared bunny, you are a jerk! I scolded myself.  

I just wish I wasn’t feeling that confused, I wish things could be clearer in my mind and my heart. I had to talk to my mates, but how could I when I myself didn’t even know what I wanted. 

In the end, Liv was right, and I was in denial. I did have options and I should stop pretending that I didn’t and let things roll down the cliff. 

But having options, possibilities, choices, and making decisions wasn’t easy either. Especially when I didn’t know what to do. Rejecting Richard never came into consideration. Before, I was sure that rejecting Alexus was the best thing for everyone, for my other mates, for Alexus and myself. But now, I didn’t know anymore. 

Things were changing. 

In a couple of days, I would have my next meeting with Alexus. Maybe it could bring me a bit more of clarity. I hoped so. 

~ * ~

Alexus

I was painting, her face, her amber eyes, the soft curve of her neck that pulsates deliciosity, the swell of her breasts, her; until the time of our encounter came. I got my portal device and keenly opened a portal to go to see her, my Lea.

Eager as I just felt for the rarest of the bloods. But it wasn’t about drinking her blood, it was about drinking her presence, her scent, the feeling of her, the look of those wide, dreaming, and curious golden eyes. It was about gulping and absorbing everything of her, herself, and trying to parch my afflictive thirst.

I arrived at the blue sitting room at Avalon’s castle, where my Lea was waiting for me. She stood up when she saw me cruising the doorway. She looked airy and beautiful in a yellow flowery dress. I walked towards her, taking slow and long steps as she kept immobile there. I took her hands in mine and looked into her eyes.

“Lea…” I muttered. “I missed you.”

To my surprise, a tiny smile twisted in her flashy lips. “I’m glad we can see each other.” She replied. 

“Me too,” I said as I took her hand guiding her back to the sofa. 

I took a seat, pulling her down with me. I inhaled a lungful of air absorbing her comforting scent, an air that I never wanted to exhale, breath out; that I wanted to keep hold in my lungs. I took her hand in mine and caressed it reverently, wanting to feel, to engrave in my mind how every inch of her skin feels. 

We started to talk, about random things, and I told her about my Realm, the fact that the vampire population was not only across my Realm but also in Hell and in the neutral turf. Even though most of them retracted from hell after Laius had his breakdown when he was away from his Livia. Lea listened attentively and curiously, excited to learn new things.

“But how do they feed? From other species?” she asked.

“Mainly from other vampires. It somehow works as a blood exchange, one could say. Also, from animals, and sometimes Pixies. Other species rarely.” Just on special occasions, I omitted this part, I was doing a good job at not scaring her further. I couldn’t ruin it by telling her that some vampires kidnap or buy beings of other species to use them as blood bags.

“Why Pixies?” she asked looking intently at me and arching her brows slightly. 

“They say that vampires bites give them some sort of high. A haze, ‘a trip’, that’s the word they use.” I explained. 

“Aha, I see.” She replied. 

I realised it was the first time we chatted, had a real conversation, instead of only exchange some sentences. Her eagerness and curiosity to discover and learn new things was something rare and fascinating. Just like she was all around

I stood up and pulled her up gently by her hands. 

“Lea, I shouldn’t have done what I tried to, and lose this,” I said closing the distance between us and cupping her face.  “Lose your sweet moans and this connection” I kissed her forehead before she snuggled her face in my chest. 

The softest of the touches, the most banal of the caresses felt better with her than coming deep inside another female would. She was my own ambrosia, my eternal fount of deliciousness. As endless as my thirst, longing, and hunger for her. 

I looked at her warm eyes and leaned down, almost brushing my lips against hers and feeling her hot breath fanning over my face. She closed the little distance between our mouths and opened her lips slightly, before I slid my tongue inside her mouth, caressing her warm silk tongue with mine. I enlaced her waist, bringing her gently and urgently flush against my chest. Her arms looped around my neck as she moaned a soft gasp into my mouth. 

I need to have this female. My mate, my Lea. 

~ * ~

Lea

I couldn’t resist Alexus. His words, his touch, his eyes. The mate pull singing its love song inside my mind. My rational side was losing the inner war that was taking place in my mind, the side that knew what Alexus was capable to do and did. The side that knew he could be cruel, heartless, and selfish. The side that knew that what I was doing was wrong. But was it?

Once again, he said he shouldn’t have tried to hurt me, he regrets it. He was changing, his eyes were not so blank and emotionless anymore, his words cared certain warmness. So, it couldn’t be too wrong to be in his arms now, right?

Every second of inhaling his red wine, woody scent, made my rational side lose it an ounce more, soon all would be gone, and I would give in to the deep urge in my soul. A soul that longed for its mate, that begged to me to be his. Oh, Goddess, why did You put me in this impossible position, in which I had to fight my own soul? 

I kissed him, happy to lose the battle. The tingles across my skin awaken by his touch celebrated my defeat. And I kissed and urged more, I angled my head to deepen the kiss, I swirled my tongue around his. I panted my gasps for him to swallow. 

His hands travelled around my back, soft caresses and a hit to my fading resolve. I must stop it now before it would go too far. I pulled away slightly and looked at his violet eyes. They had something else besides their familiar coldness. 

It wasn’t only lust or the hunger of a predator or of one who only seek a carnal release, it was the longing of alover. Looking at his eyes didn’t help me at all, in the next second, I closed the distance between us again and my lips were entangled with his, moistened strokes, nips, soft suction, and his fresh taste. His kiss intoxicated me deliciously. 

I pressed my palms against his chest, pushing him away once again. “We shouldn’t…” I muttered, maybe more to myself. 

“If you want, we should, Lea.” He answered tilting my face up with a gentle finger under my chin, to have my eyes on his. I swallowed hard and breathed in, trying to regain some rationality. But it was too late, since his lips were already on mine, and all rationality became a passion, desire, and haze. 

And I lost myself again in his lips and his embrace many times, before I heard Valentin knocking on the door, I parted from Alexus abruptly and my eyes opened widely as if I were a child caught doing something wrong and not a woman with her mate. But I wasn’t, was it even wrong? This question would linger in my mind for the next few days.

“See you in few weeks, Lea.” Alexus had a small, almost teasing smile. I only nodded in response and in less than a minute, he disappeared into a portal. I sat down and took a long breath of air, trying to put myself together. Valentin entered the room.

“Are you okay, Angel?” he asked.

“Yes… I’m. I’m just lost in my mind.” I replied.

“The mate pull can be confusing Lea, but it can’t make decisions for you.” He said. 

Did he know what happened, that I kissed Alexus? I looked up at his face, a bit astonished. 

“I can’t imagine that it isn’t easy for you, my Sunflower. If you would feel better, I could stay in the room during his visits and make sure he doesn’t make you feel uncomfortable. You don’t have to be afraid; he won’t hurt you ever again, we won’t let it happen.” 

“I know,” I said with a small smile. I knew that taking all that happened I shouldn’t think so, but I believed Alexus wouldn’t try and hurt me. 

Except if I were to open my heart to him. If I did so, then I could be lost.