Forever Yours

Chapter 4

I woke up the next morning feeling tired as usual, my eyes struggling to open as my alarm blared in my ears. I groan, rolling out of bed, my hair definitely needing to be done.

Gosh I hope I didn't look too bad in front of Rhys last night.

Ugh what am I saying, I don't care what he thinks, he's just some stranger.

Pulling myself from my thoughts, I head to the bathroom to start my day. After showering and brushing my teeth I get dressed. Today's supposed to be hot since it's still August so I've decided to go with a cute pleated purple and pink plaid skirt and a white baby tee. I decide to leave my hair down not wanting to fight with the brush this morning, letting my dry curls fall from my bonnet onto my shoulders.

After getting dressed and slightly fixing my hair, I made my way to the kitchen for some breakfast, only to be met with both Kai and Rhys.

Well s**t.

"Good morning," I give a shy smile as I make my way to the kitchen.

"You better not think you're eating our food." Kai hissed as I made my way to the fridge. I stop hand on the door.

I hadn't even thought about food yet. I spent all my money just to do my room.

"Don't worry, I was going to the dining hall anyways," I grumbled, my hand dropping from the fridge as I made my way to the door.

My scholarship was technically full ride, covering tuition, books, and housing, but food? Yeah well that's up to me. I guess I'd find a dollar store close buy and try to buy some food.I had about $300 in my account but that needed to last me for a good minute, including refilling my medications.

I decided to head to the building where my first class, Pscyh 302, will be. Once I get there, I pull a bag of trail mix I stashed from the airport out of my backpack. This will have to last me till my last class.

I take a few small handfuls, trying to chew slowly to savor the taste and feeling. It's a trick I learned when on of my foster placements restricted our food. My older foster sister taught me that if you chew nice and slow, you can trick yourself into thinking you're eating more.

I try to take sips from my water between bites to help fill the gaps of hunger.

I ate slowly as students began to trickle into the classroom. I was sat on the opposite side of the door in the back corner so I had a view of everyone who walked in. I noticed majority of the students seemed to be at least a couple of years older than me, which I guess is to be expected. I did most of my general education courses in high school and started studying psychology through my high school as a junior. Meaning now as a first year college student I am in 300 courses surrounded by people who seem to know exactly who they are.

I shrink further into my seat, my hand traveling to the back of my head, nails digging into my scalp. It was a terrible habit I picked up a few years ago. Whenever I'm anxious or things just feel too much, I pick at my skin, dig until I'm satisfied. It's relaxing in a twisted painful way.

My breakfast was quickly forget as I retreated into my head, blocking out the world around me.

I aimlessly watched as people filtered into the room, not necessarily paying much attention. At least I wasn't till I feel a light kick on my chair. I turn around and am met with the same mesmerizing greens eyes I saw yesterday.

Ugh why is he here? Kai, or as we know him, Mr. meanie, is sitting directly behind me with this stupid smirk on his face. "Didn't expect to see you in here freshman," Kai looked me up and down.

"Well I am a psych major so. . ." I trail off, obviously I'm a psych major if I'm in this class.

"Well no s**t, this is a 300 level, shouldn't you be doing your gen eds?"

Why is he even talking to me right now, he was such an asshole in the kitchen this morning. I roll my eyes and ignore him, turning back to the professor waiting for class to start.

As class started I went back to picking at my trail mix, trying to savor every last bit. I began taking notes as the professor spoke, trying to capture every word out of his mouth.

I was zoned in on scribbling down the latest facts from class, that I completely forgot about my food. It wasn't till class ended and I felt my stomach rumbling that I realized I hadn't finished my trail mix. I had an hour and a half before my next class so I decided to go find a place on campus to start my homework and eat some more.

I walked around till I found a secluded spot on a path that went through a wooded area. There was a small clearing some feet into the trees and I decided to sit and try to be productive. The last thing I wanted was to fail out of college in the first week. I rifled in my bag for my trail mix and took a small handful before opening my textbook.

Chapter one was really interesting! It was about the psychological impact of different types of parenting. I wrote down everything I thought was important, which to me seemed like everything I read. I checked my phone.

Shit! I had 10 minutes to get to class! I hurriedly packed my stuff and ran across campus trying to get to class. I found the building and stumbled into the room with 3 minutes to spare. Unfortunately, that meant most of the seats were taken so I couldn't sit where I knew I'd be comfortable, be able to see everyone from all angles.

Not wanting to draw more attention to myself I just plopped down in the first available seat I spotted. I grabbed my notebook and set up my page for notes.

Class went by without much problem and I only had one more class and then I could go rest. My wrists were still messed up from yesterday and I forgot to wrap them last night.

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My last class was pretty boring, it's freshman seminar and I hate it. The class went over simple things like how to plan your time, how to do homework and take notes. You know basics and such.

After class I made my way back to the dorms. My stomach still felt empty but I was excited to eat the rest of my trail mix, I even saved the M&M's so that I could have a treat today!

The walk back to the dorm was peaceful, there was a slight breeze that made the 80 degree heat more bearable. The leaves of the trees flowing quietly. I was a little sad when I arrived at my dorm, I wanted to stay out all day but I knew I needed to do my work and wrap my wrists. I also really didn't feel like seeing Kai right now, I'm still mad at him for how he treated me this morning and yesterday. There is a reason I secretly call him Mr. Meanie to Mr. Moo.

The door squeaks as I open it. I slip off my shoes in the doorway and see that it appears as though the boys aren't back from classes yet. The dorm is quiet and I sit and think for a moment. If they aren't here maybe I could try to sneak some of their food. I know stealing is bad but I'm so hungry. But they, or at least Kai, seemed very protective over their food.

I thought for a moment longer and decided to risk it. I would go to the store tonight and buy some food. I peak in the pantry and see more food than I could imagine. Like I knew I was poor but I didn't think I was that poor. I decided to go for a bowl of Lucky Charms! I grabbed some milk from the fridge and ate as quickly as possible. I didn't want to risk being caught.

After eating I washed my bowl and made sure there was no trace of me ever even being in the kitchen. I slipped into my room and got ready to lock in on my schoolwork.