Loss & Lust

Chapter Three: The search has ended

I got a call from Officer James Yoder. He told me that the department couldn't afford to keep my parents case open. He said that within these past few months that the investigation has lead no where., and they must shut it down. After all of the effort that I went through with the press meetings and the organized searches. Heck, I even hung papers all over the town. Apparently all of that wasn't enough to find them. Someone ought to know something. I just wish that they would come forward on that.   Part of me feels like this is me saying good bye to my parents, and the only life that I have ever had. I don't want to think what the investigator is implying. because they are alive and out there somewhere. They are just on vacation somewhere, right? They are bound to walk through the door any minute now. I wish that this would have just been some sort of incredibly sick joke. 

    Through all of this, I have interviewed for at least 15 new jobs. None of which see to want to call me back. I have used up all of  my  college funds. The eviction notice was placed on my door today since I was a week late. I called all of  my family that acts as if they care, and none of them seemed to be willing to take me in. It looks like I am going to be stuck out on the street. I have never been more terrified in my entire life. Even my friends have rejected me. I am about half tempted to call my ex. Even though it was an abusive relationship, I wouldn't have to live out in the cold of the winter. 

    A new neighbor has been moving in. I haven't seen him any, but one time. Which is rather mysterious in my book. The stuff has been being moved in by the movers. I guess I better offer him some type of baked good or the last bottle of wine that my parents have. Maybe I should just do both. I won't be his neighbor for very long, and that is a very crazy thought to have. Maybe he will be very friendly and welcoming. Lets see, I could give him some of my mothers famous homemade brownies for her recipe,. Yes, that would take my mind off of all the hectic things that have been going on. Maybe I'll even be able to remember my parents in a good way.

    I guess I better get on with calling my ex, as I don't want to be trapped on the street. I wish that it didn't have to come down to this being the last option that I have. Jeff is an awful man, and while I know that he will accept me,. He will talk down on me, and hit me again. I just don't have much of a choice in this matter. I have a lot worse to worry about if I am going to have food, or clean water.

    While I am trying to call him, I began to pack all of my necessities and convince myself that everything would be okay. He told me that  he would not allow me to stay, and then went on a whole rant about how he has a new girlfriend and that she is hotter than me. I just hung up and packed up all of the last belongings that I had. I especially remembered all of the keepsakes from my parents. This time tomorrow I will be stuck on the streets with no where to go. I can say good bye to getting a job or having any chance at a normal life again. I wish that weren't the case. I am officially saying goodbye to my old life, the only life that I have ever known. My life may as well be over because I will most likely die on the street. The statistics of death of the homeless are very high for people my age especially. How can the beginning of my adult life be like this. I wish my life could just simply be normal.