Loss & Lust

Chapter Two: The investigation continues

    As the cops continue to loom for my parents, I worry and stress about all the possible out comes that could happen. The detectives are saying to prepare for the worst since it has been a month already. hard to believe that a month has gone by so far. I really truly miss them more than anything in the entire world. I just wish that they would come home. If they would just show up on the door step, the world would all make sense again. I get to go in front of the press next week if they haven't returned. I worry that they will just be gone forever.

    This week has been so eventful as I met with the detectives everyday. I haven't been at work due to that, and got laid off by my boss yesterday. I mean what evil human being doesn't think about other's in their time of need. Does he not get that I have lost the most important people in my family,  but I guess all he cares about is himself and his money. This has just helped to make so many matters worse. I guess that I could use my college funds to pay for the house mortgage until my parents are found. I'm not going to college anyways. 

    Aside from all of that I have been surrounded by the love and support of my family form my moms side, all thought they are leaving after we speak to the press. They are only here for that , and to help me. But I get it they have jobs, and lives to attend to. I can't stand the thought of being alone in this house again. Reliving the memories of my amazing parents and the 18 years that we have spent together. I am so lost without my parents. They have been there through the worst and through the best times of my life. 

    One of the best memories that I have with them is the memory of when I was ten and my dad was teaching me how to shoot a gun. I have never felt so free, and then my mom came out just as the bullet that I shot hit the bullseye perfectly. We then went out for ice cream. That was the best day of my life. It is so painful to remember all the good memories, but I know that they will be back some day.

    The house next to me all the sudden was foreclosed on. It is this nice little cottage like house. that sits in the middle of a good amount of trees. It is a nice quite little house, and the old lady that lived there was so sweet. I wonder what ever happened to her, as living next to her has been the silver lining in these recent dark clouds.. I just wish that she was still living there, but hopefully i get another good and friendly neighbor that moves in.