One More Minute With Him

In a Motel

Again.

I turned the water off and stepped on.

How could I be so foolish? I know that what I did was.

How I was so foolish? To give him everything I had. Heart and body.

I looked at my reflection in the mirror. My eyes were red from the crying and now sleep. I drove for eighteen hours and didn’t know it. It was working its way on my body though.

I rolled into bed wishing to sleep from days. I looked at my phone one last time and saw nothing. I set my alarm for ten. If I wanted to get home tomorrow I need to find gas and as soon as I could.

I cried myself to sleep.

I dreamed what could of happened after if I never told Brandon that I was leaving his life.

We would have been together. I would have been in love and had no worries as to losing him. It was a fairy tale dream. I know that live would never be that way.

I had wonderful times with him. We were after all childhood friends that grow fond of each other.  

The dream was like short flash backs. From the first day we meant up tell the night we spent together. All the days so to say. I was in love with the fact of matter that I loved someone that I know I never had a chance with.

I was going to live with the fact that I did indeed love someone that would never love me back. That I gave my virginity to thinking that I was going to spend the rest of my life with.

But after all I was just the silly little high year that use to be friends with the star player.

This dream was showing me what it was like in real life. Though it may be confusing this was a dream. And I was a loner once again.

I woke up with a loud sound. I pulled my phone off the charger to turn the alarm off but it was only eight. I opened my ears to hear that it was a knock at the door.

I pulled my jacket over me and walked to the door.

I pulled open the door half way.

It was just the maid.

“I’m sorry I didn’t mean to wake you but I was wondering if you needed anything fresh.” She said.

“Hmm well I do need help with founding the next gas store.”

“Oh well the next one isn’t for four miles.” She said.

“That’s okay. Thank you.” I closed the door and got dress.

Once outside I unlocked my car and grabbed the gas can out of the back. I locked it and started my walk. All I need was one gallon of gas to get in my car then I could drive to the station and full her up the rest of the way.

It didn’t take me long to walk to the gas station. I paid inside and then filled my can up to a gallon. Once I had it filled I started back to my motel.

The air was a cold and I wish that I had put warmer clothes on yesterday. But after all I was in a rush in getting to school.

Once back at the motel I was shocked what I saw.

I tried walking to my door unseen. That didn’t work.

“Ari?”

I stopped.

“Yes.”