Natalie,
I didn’t stick around after he left. And even though Petrus tried to sway my mind but I couldn’t be with anyone.
I felt suffocating. I was dying inside, and my world had already crumbled around me.
I know that I have done the right thing for him and for my baby, but still, it hurt, it hurt so bad.
Each disgusting sad look he gave me killed me, and every shiver he showed killed me.
Even those tears he tried to suppress in order not to look weak f*****g killed me.
I thought about running to him and hugging his shaking body a million times, but I had to stop myself.
I wanted to tell him that all of this was a lie, that I love him, and that soon we are going to have a baby, but then something stopped me.
I have hurt this man and caused him pain. I have ruined the life he built
