Petrus,
I was a f****d up man. She had me wrapped around her little finger and even though I knew, I can do s**t about it.
This woman owns my life, my soul, and my heart. I can’t stay away from her and I can f*****g settle for scraps if I had to, but no, I will never let her leave me again and the moment this happens I will just f*****g end this pathetic, miserable life of mine.
I will never go through those f****d up months again. I will never let myself live like a soulless meat suit ever again.
The memories and shadows of those days are still f*****g hunting me and never letting me go. It was ironic to hear John speak about his brother Derek.
Because there is no comparison here, my life was worse than his. He had never faced death several times.
He didn’t have to kill men and wome
