Natalie,
He was hurting me unintentionally, but it really hurt nonetheless.
I know that this was too much for Petrus to handle. For him, Derek is like an ominous memory that will keep hunting him forever, and it all was because of me.
I have made him feel insecure about himself and just always be on his toes and watch me or else the bad guy might take me away.
But it is my fault. He had given me a lot and still doing a lot more for me and for my son and so far I have given him nothing.
I didn’t even give him the only thing he wanted from me. I didn’t tell him that I love him yet. So this pain is what I deserve.
I took a deep breath and kept on stroking Petrus’s hands, whose fingers were digging into my flesh painfully.
“Are you f*****g out of your mind?”
Petrus asked the man incred
