Escha Rose

Well, s**t

ESCHA POINT OF VIEW

2 months later 

December 2nd and we are still not out of school. Me and Ava are still friends and she has became.... "popular". She thinks that these people are her actual friends, but i can see through it. She would walk by them or leave and they would talk about her. They talk about the way she walks, and how she thinks that she is finally popular. right now we are at lunch and she is at the center table with the girl that bumped into me on my first day. Which Ava doesn't know about but that girl just doesn't like my guts for the world. i'm sitting at the back of the cafe by myself. I have people to talk to but i would choose to be alone. I see her laugh at something someone has said and they all exchange looks at the table and join in at her laughing. It makes my blood boil.

I get up to walk out of the cafe. When i get to the door, i turn around and our eyes meet. i shake my head and continue out of my way. I go to my locker and grab my  bag and i get ready to leave. I cannot deal with this. How can she not see through it. It makes me so mad. They talk about her and she doesn't even see it. She cannot recognize her real friends.

I feel a hand on my arm and i turn around and come face to face with Ava. She looks worried. I scoff and pull my arm away from her. "Rose, whats wrong?" she asks trying to get me to hold her hand. When i finally let her hold my hand she speaks again. "Hey, why don't you sit with me?''

i look at her and laugh a humorless laugh. "With you and your friends ? Nah im good." i say putting emphasis on the word friends. At one point i thought that we would have--no could have gotten together. I helped her with everything. Her dad was beating her and i was there. I helped her stop cutting herself. I helped her heal. There were little kisses shared but never nothing too extreme. then one day someone popular approached her and she just.. left. no goodbye, no see you later or nothing. She stopped telling me what was going on. She stopped telling me about her day or how she was feeling. Everything left.

"Whats your problem?" her voice brings me back to reality. 

"My problem ? Ava do you not see what the problem is? These people aren't even your real friends" i say pointing to the cafe area behind us. 

"YES THEY ARE, ROSE. Your just jealous" she laughs. I look at her like she has blown a fuse and her brain exploded.

"Jealous?" i repeat

she nods.

"I'm not jealous of you. hell i supported you. You are here because of me. But you can't see that. I was your only real friend. I held you while you cried about your life. I helped you through everything that you were going through. I helped you with your dad. I helped you with your cutting. I helped you control. I helped you with everything. I didn't even get a thank you. You know how f****d up that feels." i watch her face. she keeps opening and closing her mouth like a fish. Like she can't find the right words to say.

"Do you know how f****d up it feels when the one person you actually care about (not including my sister) leaves you without even saying goodbye. You stopped caring. While me, i'm just sitting here, waiting for you to realize that these people are lying to you. I still care for you, i still want to help you. But until you can help yourself, im pretty much useless, right?" i say looking at her face. 

She looks at the floor for a moment before looking up and yelling at me."YOU DON'T EVEN REALLY CARE! WHY ARE YOU EVEN TELLING ME THIS?" 

"I'm telling you this because i do care. I'm not jealous" i reply trying not to loose my cool.

"NO YOU DON'T. WHY DO YOU TELL ME LIES! I STILL CARE FOR YOU, I JUST THOUGHT YOU WOULD LIKE--

"STOP WITH THE BULLSHIT AVA!" I interrupt her. "YOU WANNA KNOW WHY IM TELLING YOU THIS NOW? huh? BECAUSE I f*****g LOVE YOU DAMMIT, AND I KNOW THAT WHEN THEY LEAVE I'M GONNA BE THE ONLY ONE LEFT AND YOU ARE GONNA BE SO f*****g HURT!" I continue. I don't even give her time to reply. I push past her and ignore her calling my name. I walk out of the school and get in my car and leave. I need to calm down. 

I drive for a while when i realize i don't know where i am going. I seen a sign 2 miles back that said it was a beach ahead.. so im going there. 

When i get there i pull off my hoodie and i am just left in a black tank-top and tights with my black forces. 

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I have been sitting here all day, i was going to leave, but i wanted to see the sunset. I hear shuffling behind me but when i turn around i don't see anyone. There hasn't been anyone on this beach all day and i was actually glad about that.

i hear shuffling again and before i can turn around there is a cloth on my face. I throw my head back not inhaling the cloth. I jump up and turn around. I come face to face with two men. They are big men.  i kick one of the men in the stomach and he goes flying back. I go to kick the other one but he catches  my leg and throws me. Before i can get up again, both men are holding me up and taking me somewhere. 

They throw me into the back of a car and i don't see the other person in there. I'm screaming and telling them to let me go but someone hits me on the head really hard and it makes me go dizzy. They hit me again and everything goes black.

Well, s**t. Looks like I've been kidn*pped.