My Third Chance

Chapter 2

Waiting for Milly to open the door I kept on praying.

'My God please help me be strong for my kids. I need to do it for them" I said with a whimper. 'I can do this. I am strong independent woman that loves her kids to death. I would not crumble because my God is always with me at all times, and I would help him help me by being stronger than ever. I know that everything that He does is with a purpose' with that in mind I held my head high.

Milly opens the door and gets surprised for a second. I'm about to tell her something but she doesn't let me and starts talking.

"Hello Mila, just so you know the kids are fine with me. As a matter of fact, we were having so much fun. We have been playing hide and seek. Do you want to talk to them? But aren't you supposed to be in the restaurant eating with Tony? Why are you here instead?"

She looks around me, I guess to see if Tony came with me. She frowns and looks at me up and down.

"What happen?" That's how she was. And it was something normal in this chaotic moment. She knew me like the back of her hand.

"Okay, I was in the balcony we could go there to talk if you want to." Even when she was trying to be not sound worried, I knew her enough to know she was anyway.

I started to get nervous and to doubt myself. I mean she is his mom after all. Maybe she would take his side but on the other hand, she's been like a mother to me for all these years maybe she would believe me.

But how to you tell your mother in law what her son did. Wouldn't it be rude on my part? I know that she took me in without question and gave me so much love.

Will she believe me? Oh God, what if I lose her too. That's going to hurt, and I don't know if with that on top I would be able to hold it in anymore. She's the only mother figure that I have, well close to it.

Noticing that she was talking I shake my head and try to listen to her.

"Oh Mila, what happened?" I could hear the worry on her voice.

"I...I...I... I don't know ma" I said stuttering and about to cry. You see, with her I feel like I don't need to put that front that I put with everybody. All the walls that I put up with everybody come crumbling down when it's with her.

Milly hugs me really tight and with that I finally let my tears fall. I couldn't control them anymore. I heard Tristan and Magnus come excited saying, "mami (mom) you're back!" "mami!" (mom)

I tensed up hearing them. I NEVER have let my kids see me cry and I'm not going to start today. I tried to get away, but Milly holds me tighter then turns around in a way that I'm hiding behind her. Me being five feet two inches and her being five feet and eight inches of course she's going to hide my body easily. And then I hear her talking to my kids.

"Come on kids let's watch a movie!"

She went with the kids inside one of the rooms and left me alone for a couple of minutes. I tried to compose myself so I could go to my kids. The thing was, that I let my tears fall and once they're out, there's no going back.

Me, being a mess right now was not what I wanted but s**t happens. My main concern was not letting my kids see me like I was, and if I went to either room in the apartment, I have to pass them. So, I decide to hide behind the couch since I was already in the living room.

That's where Milly found me when she came back from the kids.

"Oh honey, I'm sorry for what happened. I'm here for you. Just cry all you want"

Milly sat next to me giving me that motherly love that I wanted too much. She hugged me hard. Hard enough that I thought everything, every little piece of me was going to put back together. But that was my imagination. Me wishfully thinking. She stared to rub circles on my back while rubbing my head.

"it's okay mi amor (my love) I'm here for you. Whatever it is we are going to deal with it together, okay?"

With that I cried harder. And in between sobs I got out "the kids..."

She understood what I wanted to say right away.

"My little girl" she coos "I put the kids to watch their favorite movie Flushed Away. They won't be coming out anytime soon. Don't worry you're good."